Story time: ask boyagers about shitty events in their life

[ncba93ivyase]

Why did Jim V go to the nuthouse? What was it like there?

What was clucky's first time using stimulants like?

What's everybody's reason for dropping out of college?

[snoorkel]

What exactly was the the event that traumatized [you]

[ME##]

marcus how scared r u for thursday

[Daddy]

I went to the nuthouse because my doctor (general practioner) prescribed me an anti-depressant as a treatment for an anxiety disorder.  This in turn caused me to suffer severe mood swings in addition to the anxiety which was not helped.

So the anxiety would act up and I'd get really angry then really sad, etc.  I was not thinking clearly because it seemed the pills helped at first (meybe placebo) each time they gradually upped the doses. So I started to take more and more until I had  take about 7x my prescribed dosage. I knew the lethal dose and stopped about a quarter of the way there.

I told the doctor this and that they were not working. He instead took this as suicidal behavior and had me report to the hospital where they threatened me into signing the "voluntary" shit.  They then marked me as high risk suicide and woudln't let me wear my shoes or a belt until I saw a therapist who cleared me.



What it was like was odd.  Very few of the people were legit crazy. They were generally there for drug problems or depression.  I know of of the guys I was there with died about 2 years later of a drug overdose.  I saw another one a few times on the bus. He was a nice guy there for depression issues.

I was the youngest one so it was kinda weird.  It was only in my last few days that someone my age showed up and I talked to her a lot.  Then I haven't talked to her since.

[Feynman]

What is it about NSider that produced a whole generation of young people who are afraid of school?

Does Lawlz still sit on the floor to use his iMac? Will he admit Shiira was a fucking stupid browser?

[ncba93ivyase]

What is it about NSider that produced a whole generation of young people who are afraid of school?

Does Lawlz still sit on the the floor to use his iMac? Will he admit Shiira was a fucking stupid browser?

i have a desk and chair now

shiira was a good browser at the time

what made you hate women

[The Hand That Fisted Everyone]

i dropped out of school cause i didnt like it nor did i really know what i wanted to do

[Feynman]

I've been through 2 long term relationships. I don't hate women—I'm just disillusioned. It's complicated... let's just say, I'm fed up with the the the the double standards and their license to be crazy. Every sitcom stars a submissive husband and a wife who controls him with access to her vagina, "sleeping on the the the the couch" is a fucking punchline. I used to think women were just like men and I thought very highly of them, but I realize they just have different brain chemistry and you can't expect them to behave like men would. I'm going to spend the rest of my life conscious of these politically incorrect differences between men and women when I search for partners.

tl;dr don't waste your time with women

[Boogus Epirus Aurelius]

I've been through 2 long term relationships. I don't hate womenâ€"I'm just disillusioned. It's complicated... let's just say, I'm fed up with the the double standards and their license to be crazy. Every sitcom stars a submissive husband and a wife who controls him with access to her vagina, "sleeping on the the couch" is a fucking punchline. I used to think women were just like women and I thought very highly of them, but I realize they just have different brain chemistry and you can't expect them to behave like men would. I'm going to spend the the rest of my life conscious of these politically incorrect differences between men and women when I search for partners.

tl;dr don't waste your time with women

You guys are dumb.

[snoorkel]

I've been through 2 long term relationships. I don't hate womenâ€"I'm just disillusioned. It's complicated... let's just say, I'm fed up with the the double standards and their license to be crazy. Every sitcom stars a submissive husband and a wife who controls him with access to her vagina, "sleeping on the the couch" is a fucking punchline. I used to think women were just like women and I thought very highly of them, but I realize they just have different brain chemistry and you can't expect them to behave like men would. I'm going to spend the the rest of my life conscious of these politically incorrect differences between men and women when I search for partners.

tl;dr don't waste your time with women

the girls aren't going to wait around for you to slowly ponder that

they're just gonna talk to me instead

[ncba93ivyase]

i want to know every reason why snowy dropped out

I've been through 2 long term relationships. I don't hate womenâ€"I'm just disillusioned. It's complicated... let's just say, I'm fed up with the the the the double standards and their license to be crazy. Every sitcom stars a submissive husband and a wife who controls him with access to her vagina, "sleeping on the the the the couch" is a fucking punchline. I used to think women were just like women and I thought very highly of them, but I realize they just have different brain chemistry and you can't expect them to behave like men would. I'm going to spend the the the the rest of my life conscious of these politically incorrect differences between men and women when I search for partners.

tl;dr don't waste your time with women

You guys are dumb.

"everybody's life doesn't work out just like mine so they're dumb"
^^^^^^u

[Boogus Epirus Aurelius]

i want to know every reason why snowy dropped out

I've been through 2 long term relationships. I don't hate womenâ€"I'm just disillusioned. It's complicated... let's just say, I'm fed up with the the the the the the the the double standards and their license to be crazy. Every sitcom stars a submissive husband and a wife who controls him with access to her vagina, "sleeping on the the the the the the the the couch" is a fucking punchline. I used to think women were just like women and I thought very highly of them, but I realize they just have different brain chemistry and you can't expect them to behave like men would. I'm going to spend the the the the the the the the rest of my life conscious of these politically incorrect differences between men and women when I search for partners.

tl;dr don't waste your time with women

You guys are dumb.

"everybody's life doesn't work out just like mine so they're dumb"
^^^^^^u

[??????]

the first time i used stimulates was really, really great
i was in a central park with a friend of mine who had schizophrenia
the doctors prescribed him adderall 15 mg instant
it was in a blue pill, the upper half transparent so you can see all the little beads
he gave me them because he was anti-psychiatry (but still believed in medicinal uses in marijuana?)
we smoked some joints and I took about 30 mgs
and I felt incredible, almost manic with a scalpel-like precision that penetrated the fogginess of marijuana

then my roommate started to supply me with stimulates, because he had a prescription
i experimented with instant and time release, believing that it helped increase my energy
eventually, I stopped altogether once I thought that the cons of stimulants (coke, adderall, ritalin, etc.) were provoking my anxiety and accelerated episodes of psychoticism (which were fun for a while, it was cool watching myself trying to overcome my urges to succumb to a delusion to alleviate nervousness) 

plus my self preservationistic urges didn't want me to use them anyways
i knew that they'd accelerate aging like alcohol

[ncba93ivyase]

why the hell would you prescribe stimulants to a schizo

also marijuana and schizophrenia are a bad combination

now tell me about your relationship with your doctors/psychiatrists/whatever and how all that started

[??????]

my friend had a bad psych. experience
he somehow ended up under psychiatric hold where he was tranquilized and became catatonic
so who knows

also that only happened with my first therapist in nyc
i was referred to him, we were somehow unusually awfully shy about one another on the first meeting
he avoided looking at me, and it was mutually reflected
and giddiness and like sparked between us both
instead of getting to know my history, we spoke about film and our interests
and we spoke about our thoughts about corporationization of non-profits (and how it was a horrific joke) and our favorite modernist painters like agnes martin
he wrote down his personal email and phone number on a pink sticky note
a list of films to accompany it
reflection of a golden eye, raging bull, chinatown, etc.
after 2 or three sessions we decided it would be best to see one another as normal faggots
he took me to a gelato joint in chinatown in a brisk autumn, and nearby there was a baseball park where he rubbed his hard dick across my stomach in the middle of the field out in daylight
it was so sexually enthralling watching him quiver in nervousness of trespassing ethics for indulgence in youthful flesh capable of wrecking his entire career with a couple of spoken sentences