so I am hanging out with my cousins and we were gaming and now we're just fooling around on the internet and one of them ended up on her facebook page (she has me blocked but not them)....
oh god.
what
oh no i ended up leaving her a message. it was a strange message. doodhuh;
that doesn't sound good
Quote from: vziard on October 16, 2011, 01:04:43 AM
that doesn't sound good
No, probably not. I have no idea how I feel right now.
What's done is done, man.
I hope it works out.
Argh and progress was lost
Sorry dude
Quote from: Yip Yipper on October 16, 2011, 01:11:26 PM
Argh and progress was lost
Sorry dude
All hope is not lost. He can still salvage the situation if he chooses his next actions carefully.
Like laugh uncontrollably at her? O_0
Well she hasn't called back yet. IMO, that's not really that bad, because it makes me more certain that she is having trouble dealing with herself as a bitch. Additionally, it works for me because, as before, I feel less liable for the current situation.
I'm not really sure how I feel about anything or anyone right now. But it's been worse.
Idk.
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 16, 2011, 05:36:48 PM
it makes me more certain that she is having trouble dealing with herself as a bitch.
wat SocksDood;
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 16, 2011, 05:36:48 PM
Well she hasn't called back yet. IMO, that's not really that bad, because it makes me more certain that she is having trouble dealing with herself as a bitch. Additionally, it works for me because, as before, I feel less liable for the current situation.
I'm not really sure how I feel about anything or anyone right now. But it's been worse.
Idk.
I keep thinking you are David and I keep saying WTF? n_u
She is playing with you, baddood;
Quote from: FAMY2 on October 17, 2011, 04:21:32 AM
She is playing with you, baddood;
No, she is not.
Quote from: vulpix on October 16, 2011, 09:18:59 PM
wat SocksDood;
I'm pretty sure that she is probably having trouble swallowing how she treated me at the end, and is running from it.
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 04:52:05 AM
No, she is not.
I'm pretty sure that she is probably having trouble swallowing how she treated me at the end, and is running from it.
I hope so.
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 05:02:45 AM
Which?
That she is having a hard time with how she treated you. Now if she only faces it and learns from it.
This thread made sense once I realized you were not ME86.
So on my flight today there were perfectly clear skies and we followed us52 straight down past Rochester and across i90 right over Fillamore co and into the driftless. Since we held that track striaght on until we were southwest of the quad cities, I'm pretty sure we passed within 20 miles...I definitely would have been able to see it f I had been sitting on the other side of the plane. So wierd.
Oh and Trevor, I could see Winona. Such a pretty part ofthe state, even from above.
also I gave my mom a little synopsis of this this morning, as I hadn't yet discussed this with her at all. she was quite appalled. and she fucking loved marissa more than she loved me lol
saddness turns to anger
Anger turns to Violence. Do a Violence
goddamn fuck it i'm going to go climb some buildings and you know what who gives a fucking fuck about this shit.
And thus, my friends, the good ol' rage phase has begun.
Quote from: Hippopo on October 17, 2011, 05:49:58 PM
And thus, my friends, the good ol' rage phase has begun.
lol idk if this is how I will feel for a long time. I don't think I can do that. Well I don't know. I don't fucking know shit except that I'm going to meet special k down at the red line in 40 mins and we're going to go to the top of the fine arts building and climb out a window. then we're gonna climb some other stuff and fuck it that's what i'm going to do and that's what i'm going to think about and I'm going to listen to the hold steady except no ballads and no fucking connor oberst and i'm going to be more upfront with erin because who gives a fuck and I'm going to kick ass in studio this week and then go to clocktoberfest and get fucking drunk and go rafting in caves and maybe hit on cara and maybe fall down a mineshaft and die
but I won't be sad
Yes you will, but all of that stuff will definitely help and this is just the natural process of recovery... you're getting better buddy girl;
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 05:56:24 PM
lol idk if this is how I will feel for a long time. I don't think I can do that. Well I don't know. I don't fucking know shit except that I'm going to meet special k down at the red line in 40 mins and we're going to go to the top of the fine arts building and climb out a window. then we're gonna climb some other stuff and fuck it that's what i'm going to do and that's what i'm going to think about and I'm going to listen to the hold steady except no ballads and no fucking connor oberst and i'm going to be more upfront with erin because who gives a fuck and I'm going to kick ass in studio this week and then go to clocktoberfest and get fucking drunk and go rafting in caves and maybe hit on cara and maybe fall down a mineshaft and die
but I won't be sad
this is all good idea. except to get drunk
I felt rage for about five months. I'm not proud of this, but it's true.
It changed from rage to sadness to rage again. It sucks.
Quote from: Yip Yipper on October 17, 2011, 05:57:58 PM
Yes you will, but all of that stuff will definitely help and this is just the natural process of recovery... you're getting better buddy girl;
idk this weekend was such a fucking relapse
Quote from: vziard on October 17, 2011, 05:58:17 PM
this is all good idea. except to get drunk
who knows being stuck in the ghetto pedovan with 9 people in traffic for fucking ever trying to get out of the city on friday I may even take some of your other advice if you know what I mean
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 06:01:01 PM
idk this weekend was such a fucking relapse
A little bit, but it's not really your fault, it just sort of came up. You just kind of need to cut ties and communication and you will recover that much faster
lol what if she reads my bitching on boyah.
this is a real possibility
your bitching is perfectly fine though, you shouldn't care if she sees it.
Besides, exactly that happened with me and look at me now girl;
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 06:06:42 PM
lol what if she reads my bitching on boyah.
this is a real possibility
Delete everything.
And I mean
Delete if you know what I mean. cmongler;
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 06:02:02 PM
who knows being stuck in the ghetto pedovan with 9 people in traffic for fucking ever trying to get out of the city on friday I may even take some of your other advice if you know what I mean
well, yeah, heroin will definitely kill all emotion
[spoiler]wait did you mean weed. def try that you'll feel much better about the whole thing 100% money back guaranteed.[/spoiler]
Quote from: vziard on October 17, 2011, 06:09:17 PM
well, yeah, heroin will definitely kill all emotion
[spoiler]wait did you mean weed. def try that you'll feel much better about the whole thing 100% money back guaranteed.[/spoiler]
lol yes that is what I mean idk there will be other people doing it and 9 people in that fucking van for like 5 hours idk who knows i probably actually won't but maybe idk
Quote from: Boognish-Redux- on October 17, 2011, 06:08:43 PM
Delete everything.
And I mean Delete if you know what I mean. cmongler;
nah I don't know what you mean also I don't think I should
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 06:06:42 PM
lol what if she reads my bitching on boyah.
this is a real possibility
Well it's not meant for her so she could hardly blame you... Plus I'm pretty sure she's trying to move on herself... I don't think she gets off on seeing you miserable unless she's some sort of sadist confuseddood;
Quote from: vziard on October 17, 2011, 06:09:17 PM
well, yeah, heroin will definitely kill all emotion
[spoiler]wait did you mean weed. def try that you'll feel much better about the whole thing 100% money back guaranteed.[/spoiler]
lmao I like how your mind immediately went to heroin girl;
Were you engaged or something?
Quote from: Molotov Emir 1986 on October 17, 2011, 06:14:17 PM
lol yes that is what I mean idk there will be other people doing it and 9 people in that fucking van for like 5 hours idk who knows i probably actually won't but maybe idk
try it, what's there to lose? not like there's any danger or problem of even getting uncomfortable if you'll be on the road for awhile, just do a little til you feel it and have fun staring out the window.
Quote from: Yip Yipper on October 17, 2011, 06:16:17 PM
Well it's not meant for her so she could hardly blame you... Plus I'm pretty sure she's trying to move on herself... I don't think she gets off on seeing you miserable unless she's some sort of sadist confuseddood;lmao I like how your mind immediately went to heroin girl;
only because I used to do it and I think applesauce knows that snakedood;
Quote from: vziard on October 17, 2011, 06:20:38 PM
only because I used to do it and I think applesauce knows that snakedood;
I think everyone knows that, perspective is just funny sometimes girl;
a lot of people have done heroin and have did things on heroin
Quote from: Yip Yipper on October 17, 2011, 06:25:16 PM
I think everyone knows that, perspective is just funny sometimes girl;
it was supposed to be a subliminal suggestions STOP RUINING IT
Quote from: silvertone on October 17, 2011, 06:29:39 PM
a lot of people have done heroin and have did things on heroin
lou reed, heath ledger..... umm, the beatles........
'heron' by lou reed is About heroi
Quote from: vziard on October 17, 2011, 06:46:51 PM
it was supposed to be a subliminal suggestions STOP RUINING IT
lou reed, heath ledger..... umm, the beatles........
Jim Morrison :O
Ron Paul
batman?
Quote from: Boognish-Redux- on October 17, 2011, 06:18:04 PM
Were you engaged or something?
No. We were together for almost 5 years though. I would have been perfectly happy to stay with her forever, I'm pretty sure.
Quote from: vziard on October 17, 2011, 06:20:38 PM
only because I used to do it and I think applesauce knows that snakedood;
Yes, I know this, and I knew you weren't seriously suggesting it.
So, earlier, while waiting for the train on my way out to explore, she called. It was a short but interesting conversation. I'm pretty sure we'll end up back together at some point. Maybe around Christmas. Maybe next summer. Maybe never, but I think it's likely.
Some things never change.
what did she say?
bitches aint shit but hoes and tricks
Quote from: vulpix on October 17, 2011, 11:41:45 PM
wat did she say that makes you say
Well we talked about a lot of things and I could tell that while she doesn't want to be with me, her feelings haven't changed and she is dissatisfied with her life right now and has not found single life to be what she wanted. I also gleaned that the reason she has cut off all forms of communication is that she doesn't think she could handle communicating with me and not being with me. She also brought up the topic, but expressed, as expected, that the same things that led her to leave me (all her own personal problems) haven't been resolved. They will be, eventually. Nothing I can do to influence that. I just need to be patient and find ways to keep myself calm for awhile without investing too much either way. I'll send her flowers with a friendly message on what would have been our 5th anniversary. Beyond that, what happens happens, but I think what will happen eventually is relatively clear. Things like lingering doubts don't kill relationships forever when dealt with properly.
mann fucking bitches