oh god

[applesauce]

I hope so.

Which?

[FAMY2]

Which?

That she is having a hard time with how she treated you. Now if she only faces it and learns from it.

[Wrench]

This thread made sense once I realized you were not ME86.

[applesauce]

So on my flight today there were perfectly clear skies and we followed us52 straight down past Rochester and across i90 right over Fillamore co and into the driftless. Since we held that track striaght on until we were southwest of the quad cities, I'm pretty sure we passed within 20 miles...I definitely would have been able to see it f I had been sitting on the other side of the plane. So wierd.

Oh and Trevor, I could see Winona. Such a pretty part ofthe state, even from above.

[applesauce]

also I gave my mom a little synopsis of this this morning, as I hadn't yet discussed this with her at all. she was quite appalled. and she fucking loved marissa more than she loved me lol

[applesauce]

saddness turns to anger

[silvertone]

Anger turns to Violence. Do a Violence

[applesauce]

goddamn fuck it i'm going to go climb some buildings and you know what who gives a fucking fuck about this shit.

[Hippopo]

And thus, my friends, the good ol' rage phase has begun.

[applesauce]

And thus, my friends, the good ol' rage phase has begun.

lol idk if this is how I will feel for a long time. I don't think I can do that. Well I don't know. I don't fucking know shit except that I'm going to meet special k down at the red line in 40 mins and we're going to go to the top of the fine arts building and climb out a window. then we're gonna climb some other stuff and fuck it that's what i'm going to do and that's what i'm going to think about and I'm going to listen to the hold steady except no ballads and no fucking connor oberst and i'm going to be more upfront with erin because who gives a fuck and I'm going to kick ass in studio this week and then go to clocktoberfest and get fucking drunk and go rafting in caves and maybe hit on cara and maybe fall down a mineshaft and die

but I won't be sad

[YPrrrr]

Yes you will, but all of that stuff will definitely help and this is just the natural process of recovery... you're getting better buddy

[snoorkel]

lol idk if this is how I will feel for a long time. I don't think I can do that. Well I don't know. I don't fucking know shit except that I'm going to meet special k down at the red line in 40 mins and we're going to go to the top of the fine arts building and climb out a window. then we're gonna climb some other stuff and fuck it that's what i'm going to do and that's what i'm going to think about and I'm going to listen to the hold steady except no ballads and no fucking connor oberst and i'm going to be more upfront with erin because who gives a fuck and I'm going to kick ass in studio this week and then go to clocktoberfest and get fucking drunk and go rafting in caves and maybe hit on cara and maybe fall down a mineshaft and die

but I won't be sad

this is all good idea. except to get drunk

[Hippopo]

I felt rage for about five months. I'm not proud of this, but it's true.

It changed from rage to sadness to rage again.  It sucks.

[applesauce]

Yes you will, but all of that stuff will definitely help and this is just the natural process of recovery... you're getting better buddy

idk this weekend was such a fucking relapse

[applesauce]

this is all good idea. except to get drunk

who knows being stuck in the ghetto pedovan with 9 people in traffic for fucking ever trying to get out of the city on friday I may even take some of your other advice if you know what I mean