Boyah Confession Booth (Retired)

[Boyager]

I hate when I want to tell them something and it sounds so beautiful while I am thinking of it, but once I try to tell them I can't remember and it seems lackluster. 

LOL

[Boyager]

I hate when I want to tell them something and it sounds so beautiful while I am thinking of it, but once I try to tell them I can't remember and it seems lackluster. 

I know how you feel It happens to me, too ;-;

[Boyager]

When people I don't talk to much ask me a question, I say the answer in a soft voice and they're like WHAT.  Then I answer again in an attitude.

I HATE IT ;-;

[Boyager]

Why is everything collapsing before my very eyes?

It's scary and sickening at the same time...

[Boyager]

I hate when I want to tell them something and it sounds so beautiful while I am thinking of it, but once I try to tell them I can't remember and it seems lackluster. 

This happens for basically everything I undertake.

[Boyager]

When people I don't talk to much ask me a question, I say the answer in a soft voice and they're like WHAT.  Then I answer again in an attitude.

I HATE IT ;-;

then speak louder.. duhh.

[Boyager]

We're all just numbers in a math equation. A general statement, but the truth for sure. We have our additions and subtractions, our pluses and minuses...except I am the unsolvable equation. I am the illogical one. I am the imaginary number. I complicate myself with negatives and quadratics and exponents, making it so no one can understand me. Te amare nolo... I shall never let you into my self-contained box. I am alone and that is how I wish to stay. You cannot change my mind; I have been forsaken by you. My soul cries out in pain at the mere sight. I'll complicate myself even more for you. I'd do this in a heartbeat to keep my secrets from you. You can never know the things I have done...

I do not let on that I am an intellectual. I keep my contemplation and writing a secret from most. I do not trust them, I do not trust anyone...The ice on the trees reminds me of the loneliness and the grief I feel, myself...it's cold, just like my soul.

[Boyager]

We're all just numbers in a math equation. A general statement, but the truth for sure. We have our additions and subtractions, our pluses and minuses...except I am the unsolvable equation. I am the illogical one. I am the imaginary number. I complicate myself with negatives and quadratics and exponents, making it so no one can understand me. Te amare nolo... I shall never let you into my self-contained box. I am alone and that is how I wish to stay. You cannot change my mind; I have been forsaken by you. My soul cries out in pain at the mere sight. I'll complicate myself even more for you. I'd do this in a heartbeat to keep my secrets from you. You can never know the things I have done...

I do not let on that I am an intellectual. I keep my contemplation and writing a secret from most. I do not trust them, I do not trust anyone...The ice on the trees reminds me of the loneliness and the grief I feel, myself...it's cold, just like my soul.

Everything you said is done because of your own actions.
You feel illogical? You yourself feel that way.
Your soul is cold? Doesn't have to be.
We are all the choices we make. We can be whatever we want, we just have to make the right choices.
If you feel so lost or hopeless, change it. Only you can. And if you say it's irreversible, it's only that way because you want it to stay that way. Everything is up to you. You have nobody in this world except for one person, and it doesn't seem like you go to him very much.

[Boyager]

Everything you said is done because of your own actions.
You feel illogical? You made yourself feel that way.
Your soul is cold? Doesn't have to be.
We are all the choices we make. We can be whatever we want, we just have to make the right choices.
If you feel so lost or hopeless, change it. Only you can. And if you say it's irreversible, it's only that way because you want it to stay that way. Everything is up to you. You have nobody in this world except for one person, and it doesn't seem like you go to him very much.

You're right. It is my fault, but the things that I always feel sad about aren't even my fault...like with previous dates and such. That's my fault for being so naïve. I feel everything returning back to be from two years ago...

But that's okay. I need to try to change...

[Boyager]

You're right. It is my fault, but the things that I always feel sad about aren't even my fault...like with previous dates and such.

Then don't feel that way. Especially if it's in the far past and you can't do anything about it. You can't let the past consume your life; you can't change it. Nobody can change it. Move on and be happier.

[Boyager]

Then don't feel that way. Especially if it's in the far past and you can't do anything about it. You can't let the past consume your life; you can't change it. Nobody can change it. Move on and be happier.

I realize that.

I'm trying hard to put my past behind me for once and for all.

[Boyager]

Regardless of where our connection is headed we will both leave for college and be separated in 7 months and nothing can stop it.

Why couldn't I have loved her years ago

[Boyager]

Regardless of where our connection is headed we will both leave for college and be separated in 7 months and nothing can stop it.

Why couldn't I have loved her years ago

But if you loved her years ago, would your relationship have lasted?  Remember, you weren't as mature then, and neither was she.  Plus, you would still have to leave her in seven months regardless.

Long distance relationships can work.  I've seen it happen.  If it's meant to be, it'll last.

[Boyager]

then speak louder.. duhh.

Well I would, if ya know, I could.

[wawi]

Well I would, if ya know, I could.

Don't give us an attitude