how are you like socially online?

[PLEASEHELP1991]

he's super racist but we got to know each other on a more personal level and i think he's a good guy deep down, but uh yeah i think he legitimately hates black people

[spoiler]to be honest, i can see why. just travel to richmond and see for yourself.[/spoiler]

[Patrick Stickles]

that's what he always said

i went there and i liked it

[ME##]

i find it awkward to start conversations online and offline~

[6M69I69B9]

i'm nervous when im'ing but when it's like a forum then it's not as bad

im self-conscious as shit but at the same time it's easier for me to express shit- well maybe pictures are a problem though.

regardless- i don't have any close friends online no matter how much more comfortable i am expressing shit.  idk why im so scared to talk to people anywhere...  i feel like i havenothing to talk about aside from just life very vaguely and in stupid baseless metaphors.  it always made me wonder how people talk to others outside of boyah.  or actually anywhere.  maybe it's just me and that im boring.  when socializing im kind of an enabler and i just run away in the end. ill try to talk to someone but when it doesn't work out ill just be highly discouraged from trying again until i get tired of being lonely.  im just really clueless when it comes to me socializing with others.  i don't get it.  and it's not like im autistic or anything.  i don't know...  i just feel like im never gonna find an actual friend- whether online or offline.  im only an acquaintance to most people.  hell i don't even do much better when im anonymous.  i even try to go to other communities but i never end up making a friend.  same irl, i go to to places/events alone but i don't know what im trying to find when people already go to places in groups from my experiences.  

lol i don't even know how im in boyah still

[strongbad]

while i'm active on boyah there aren't really any members that i talk to consistently. i used to have a lot of internet friends from small forums, bu they eventually puttered out

during that that transition i became a lot more outgoing irl and made a lot of good friends from college.
i don't really pursue friends on the internet anymore, but i definitely miss having them. they don't compare to irl friends, but they can be nice, especially when irl isn't going very well

i think i've ended my phase of having internet friends, and it bums me out occasionally. i met some really nice people online who i don't ever talk to anymore.

[Hiro]

i'm tired

[The Hand That Fisted Everyone]

For a while I didnt talk to any boyagers outside of maybe cam and juni for a little bit. Really until about a year ago i never felt too attached to boyah, though I would still have called you guys friends at that point. It wasn't until the google hangouts or uncharted that I started getting more "Attached" and valued internet friendships. I never really saw that internet as a place to socialize or whatever. More like a place to engage interests or express myself in ways that I couldn't irl.

I don't really hold many friendships with people online or irl. Even people I've known for several years or I talk to on a day to day, there is still the weird "how do i start a conversation" thing that happens and I kind of blank and dont know what do to. and I still don't properly know how to end conversations.

idk if this made any sense