Today I barricaded my door so my mom couldn't make me go to church.
She banged yelled and threatened to hurt me but I just kept it barricaded.Eventually she gave up.
I'm more depressed now then I've been my entire life.
Last night I got locked out of the house and I was so scared I stood in the rain for a half hour then went to my friend dave's and he drove me back and explained if they're asleep they can't here me open the garage door.
So when I wake up I'm sick,depressed, and angry. baddood;
I just feel like I should just shrivel up and die, my current gpa is like a c average
akudood;
Have you tried restarting the computer?
my gpa is a b considering i had four 27's and four 65's heavy weighted classes n____n
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 09:24:11 AM
what
Restarting your computer can help resolve many problems.
lol black people in the inner city
Maybe you should listen to your mother. When she dies you will regret all of this shit, not going to church etc. Just go to church for 2 hours, go out to eat, talk to each other, tell her how you feel.
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 09:37:52 AMMaybe you should listen to your mother. When she dies you will regret all of this shit, not going to church etc. Just go to church for 2 hours, go out to eat, talk to each other, tell her how you feel.
no if his mom is making him go to church knowing his beliefs she's a disrespectful bitch.
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:39:03 AM
no if his mom is making him go to church knowing his beliefs she's a disrespectful bitch.
he should tell her he does not believe in god, OR out of respect for HER THE WOMAN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO HIM and deal with a few hours of church. It's not that big of a deal anyway.
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 09:37:52 AM
lol black people in the inner city
Maybe you should listen to your mother. When she dies you will regret all of this shit, not going to church etc. Just go to church for 2 hours, go out to eat, talk to each other, tell her how you feel.
what
I live in Naperville, a suburb considered one of the nicest placest a kid can live in the entire U.S.
I go to church on the south side of chicago, church lasts about 3 hours, then we go to her grandmothers house afterwords.
typically we get home at about 7 on sundays and wake up at about 7 30 in the morning
She doesn't want to discuss with me why I don't want to go, and she's the only person in the world who thinks it's normal to make a 60 mile trip multiple times a week so they can sing in the choir and then tune out the rest of the sermon. And go to her mothers house so we can be in a loveless quiet house for hours.
I never even get to see my fathers family even though they live in chicago just like her family does.
She won't give me the space I need to be happy and it makes me want to kill her.
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 09:41:46 AM
he should tell her he does not believe in god, OR out of respect for HER THE WOMAN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO HIM and deal with a few hours of church. It's not that big of a deal anyway.
lol
My mother's family was RAISED in the church.Chances are I'd be shunned by my mother's family if I told them that but it's getting to the point where I don't care.
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 09:41:46 AMout of respect for HER THE WOMAN WHO GAVE BIRTH TO HIM and deal with a few hours of church. It's not that big of a deal anyway.
1)She divorced his father because she didn't want to have to work. psyduck;
How does that deserve respect?
2)I think it'd be pretty disrespectful to everyone in the church to go and pretend you believe their stories.
My dad says he doesn't think I'd mind going if he were here.Which is true to an exstent, I'd still mind but not as much.
I don't think anyone realizes I've become pretty agnostic in my beliefs.And holding it back is killing me but I don't know what else to do.
don't worry cam god will save you
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 09:44:07 AM
lol
My mother's family was RAISED in the church.Chances are I'd be shunned by my mother's family if I told them that but it's getting to the point where I don't care.
Well, until you have your own home follow her damn rules.
Like I said, she will not be around for too long, when she dies you will be left with these memories, so just do it. Life is short, why waste time you could be spending with her barricading the door?
Kono, shut the fuck up.
Quote from: Shooting Mr. Star... on March 08, 2009, 09:49:10 AM
Kono, shut the fuck up.
hey homo go respect your mom and sit and listen to stories for 3 hours about how you are an abomination and how God killed a whole city of them. >:(
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:46:15 AM
1)She divorced his father because she didn't want to have to work. psyduck;
How does that deserve respect?
2)I think it'd be pretty disrespectful to everyone in the church to go and pretend you believe their stories.
She hasn't divorced my father yet, right now we're just living like she has.
She felt like she was taking care of my father was a better way to word it, and thought it wasn't fair he wasn't working but she was. There's other stuff too but when the word divorce was first put out that was the reason.
My mother is fucking horrible with the way she blows money. And my dad was making about 16,000 a month when they separated from his old job. And I found out he's contributed about 460,000 over the years.
She knows full well me and my brother are on to her shit. And the way my mother tries to hold people is with money and buying things.
My mom makes 100,000 a year and has a 50,000 bonus with her new job.
She spends money like a person who makes 300,000.
She's struggling, and her spending habits are going to come back to bite her in the ass.
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:51:06 AM
hey homo go respect your mom and sit and listen to stories for 3 hours about how you are an abomination and how God killed a whole city of them. >:(
I told my mother I'm atheist. spam;
She doesn't bother me with petty little things like religion anymore. giggle;
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 09:48:25 AM
Well, until you have your own home follow her damn rules.
Like I said, she will not be around for too long, when she dies you will be left with these memories, so just do it. Life is short, why waste time you could be spending with her barricading the door?
I've been following my mothers rules for 14 years and it's destroying me.
How in the hell do you know ow long my mother's going to live?
She's not even 50 yet.And she looks like she's in her late 30s.
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 09:51:25 AM
My mom makes 100,000 a year ...
That's almost twice what both my parents made combined. goonish
in the boston area, which, after new york, is the second most expensive city. goonish
what was she buying?
Quote from: Shooting Mr. Star... on March 08, 2009, 09:52:44 AM
I told my mother I'm atheist. spam;
She doesn't bother me with petty little things like religion anymore. giggle;
why worry about religious beliefs when there's a homo in the family
one problem at a time
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:53:58 AM
That's almost twice what both my parents made combined. goonish
yeah same.
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:53:58 AM
That's almost twice what both my parents made combined. goonish
Yet my mom's probably in more debt then your parents.spam;
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 09:53:33 AM
I've been following my mothers rules for 14 years and it's destroying me.
How in the hell do you know ow long my mother's going to live?
She's not even 50 yet.And she looks like she's in her late 30s.
Everyone goes through this. My mom has rules I hate, but I follow them because one day I will leave the nest and create my own with my own set of rules.
Anyone could die at any time. She could be shot going to the store, god forbid, but that's my point. cherish every moment.
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 10:02:10 AM
cherish every moment.
but possibly cameron does not like his mother (?!?)
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:53:58 AM
what was she buying?
All kinds of pointless shit.
To give you an idea of how dumb my mom is with spending: My mom lost her job during the summer.And she said we could have lost the house.
[spoiler]She bought an HDTV during summer after she told us she lost her job. And we continued to run back in forth in city[/spoiler]
And to give you an idea of how evil my mom can be: My dad nearly died this summer, he was having strange pains in his kidney area, and it turns out he needed his gullbladder(spelling?) removed. He asked my mother and my morbidly obese depressed co dependent suck up friend anne could they drive him to the hospital. My mom said no, and Anne didn't take him either. And she visited him ONE time when he was in the hospital. I had been getting angry with my dad before this too, but now his actions all make sense and I feel bad that he had to go through something as depressing and hard as this.
Now he says I'm living like he was before they separated.
A garage door opening would definitely wake me up
Quote from: Caffeine Free on March 08, 2009, 10:03:44 AM
but possibly cameron does not like his mother (?!?)
then he is an ungrateful little bitch. She does so much for him and he cannot just sit in church for an hour.
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 10:07:35 AM
then he is an ungrateful little bitch. She does so much for him and he cannot just sit in church for an hour.
like separate from his father and stuff
SO MUCH
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 10:07:35 AM
then he is an ungrateful little bitch. She does so much for him an houd he ca3nnot just sit in church for an hour.
3 hours usually.
And I don't care how ungrateful you think I am, I'm not happy. And for me to be able to perform well I need to be happy.
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 10:08:49 AM
3 hours usually.
And I don't care how ungrateful you think I am, I'm not happy. And for me to be able to perform well I need to be happy.
perform well? It's sunday, as soon as you get back home play a game or some shit and make yourself happy. You are making a mountain out of a mole hill.
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 10:05:42 AM
All kinds of pointless shit.
To give you an idea of how dumb my mom is with spending: My mom lost her job during the summer.And she said we could have lost the house.
[spoiler]She bought an HDTV during summer after she told us she lost her job. And we continued to run back in forth in city[/spoiler]
And to give you an idea of how evil my mom can be: My dad nearly died this summer, he was having strange pains in his kidney area, and it turns out he needed his gullbladder(spelling?) removed. He asked my mother and my morbidly obese depressed co dependent suck up friend anne could they drive him to the hospital. My mom said no, and Anne didn't take him either. And she visited him ONE time when he was in the hospital. I had been getting angry with my dad before this too, but now his actions all make sense and I feel bad that he had to go through something as depressing and hard as this.
Now he says I'm living like he was before they separated.
bolded for emphasis
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 10:10:31 AM
perform well? It's sunday, as soon as you get back home play a game or some shit and make yourself happy. You are making a mountain out of a mole hill.
yea sitting home alone playing a video game with your mother there liable to make you feel like shit at any second is a guarantee for instant happiness
Quote from: Trevor on March 08, 2009, 09:54:31 AM
why worry about religious beliefs when there's a homo in the family
one problem at a time
D'oh... smithicide;
Kono still isn't shutting up. Ban Kono oui/non
Quote from: KonohaShinobi on March 08, 2009, 10:10:31 AM
perform well? It's sunday, as soon as you get back home play a game or some shit and make yourself happy. You are making a mountain out of a mole hill.
do you think if playing a video game was enough to make me happy id be clinically depressed
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 10:13:53 AM
do you think if playing a video game was enough to make me happy id be clinically depressed
Kono escapes to his little anime and video game world while we, the more mature and reasonable kind, deal with the big problems.
Let him live that way. He'll find out one day when he loses his job and life, video games won't solve anything.
Quote from: Trevor on March 08, 2009, 10:14:25 AM
cjlubdoods;
giggle;
Quote from: Shooting Mr. Star... on March 08, 2009, 10:15:28 AM
Kono escapes to his little anime and video game world while we, the more mature and reasonable kind, deal with the big problems.
I would actually rather be able to play a video game and somehow become spontaneously happy
Quote from: YPR on March 08, 2009, 10:17:04 AM
I would actually rather be able to play a video game and somehow become spontaneously happy
Trust me, I wish I could too. Sadly, I realize nothing can hide what I have to deal with.
And she told me she'd call the police on me for not unlocking the door this morning.
and put me in a place for kids that don't "mind their parents behavior"
which means kids who dont listen to their parents
Hey Cam, wanna move to Texas? I can get you in the shitty school system here. giggle;
Quote from: Shooting Mr. Star... on March 08, 2009, 10:20:52 AM
Hey Cam, wanna move to Texas? I can get you in the shitty school system here. giggle;
i dunno
texas is kind of a long walk baddood;
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 10:21:57 AM
i dunno
texas is kind of a long walk baddood;
I could get you a plane ticket. :o
I just don't know where you'd stay... giggle;
I guess if you could find an after school job, you could help pay rent at an apartment. n_u
kono is a tard-ass lardass
I love you Nyerp. You can always come up with witty insults. giggle;
i l*ve you too n_u
Cam's mother needs to show him some respect. She won't always be there to tell him how to live. He needs to learn to make decisions for himself and deal with the results. Good or bad. That's a parents job. Teach kids how to survive. Of course the moral obligations are still there. But what is she teaching him? How to threaten and not discuss things?
Quote from: Raekewn on March 08, 2009, 09:23:18 AM
Have you tried restarting the computer?
Better yet, reformat your life or start over from the last save/checkpoint hocuspocus;
I'm sorry, but I laughed. You BARRICADED your door? Why on earth would you do that? XD If you don't want to go, just don't go. I seriously doubt your mom would attempt to drag you into the car. :P
And I doubt she would succeed even if she did, unless you are a complete pansy or something... which is certainly possible considering you had to barricade your door. XD
Quote from: Walter on March 08, 2009, 11:07:57 AM
I'm sorry, but I laughed. You BARRICADED your door? Why on earth would you do that? XD If you don't want to go, just don't go. I seriously doubt your mom would attempt to drag you into the car. :P
And I doubt she would succeed even if she did, unless you are a complete pansy or something... which is certainly possible considering you had to barricade your door. XD
yea a real bad ass would just knock that bitch out
Quote from: Trevor on March 08, 2009, 11:12:14 AM
yea a real bad ass would just knock that bitch out
Exactly. akudood;
this is why people hate christians.
Quote from: Veal on March 08, 2009, 11:16:49 AM
this is why people hate christians.
My mom called me Satan's child when I said I didnt believe in God. She then drew a cross on a piece of paper, ripped it up, and threw the pieces at me.
akudood;
Yes the majority of Christians do a good job of ignoring the love aspect of it.
Quote from: Walter on March 08, 2009, 11:07:57 AM
I'm sorry, but I laughed. You BARRICADED your door? Why on earth would you do that? XD If you don't want to go, just don't go. I seriously doubt your mom would attempt to drag you into the car. :P
And I doubt she would succeed even if she did, unless you are a complete pansy or something... which is certainly possible considering you had to barricade your door. XD
my mom wouldnt drive my dad to the hospital
my mom ways 10 pounds more than I do and works out more, chances are if we were to fight it'd be pretty even, but i'd never hit my mother.
the reason i did what i did is to avoid a physical confrontation
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 11:32:10 AM
the reason i did what i did is to avoid a physical confrontation
Obviously. I think you should suck it up. Be a true man! You gotta fight for your rights! doodella;
Quote from: Walter on March 08, 2009, 11:35:45 AM
Obviously. I think you should suck it up. Be a true man! You gotta fight for your rights! doodella;
and end up in juvenille hall and sift even further into depression?
i like how no one says anything about my examples of my moms cruelty as a person
She's a bitch. :(
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 11:37:08 AM
and end up in juvenille hall and sift even further into depression?
For what? Saying no? Im pretty sure you won't get sent to juvenile hall for telling your mom you won't go to church. (I was joking about fighting her if you couldn't tell)
You see, it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack. Except when I crossover, it ain't no coming back. Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beat Street? People at the funeral, frontin' like they miss me... My baby momma kissed me, but she glad I'm gone... She knew me and her sister had something going on. I reach my peak, I can't speak. Call my nigga Chic, tell him my will is weak. I'm sick of niggas lying, I'm sick of bitches hawking... Matter fact, I'm sick of fucking talking...
[spoiler]AYO BIG!!...
AYO BIG!!![/spoiler]
Quote from: Fredo on March 08, 2009, 12:36:04 PM
You see, it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack. Except when I crossover, it ain't no coming back. Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beat Street? People at the funeral, frontin' like they miss me... My baby momma kissed me, but she glad I'm gone... She knew me and her sister had something going on. I reach my peak, I can't speak. Call my nigga Chic, tell him my will is weak. I'm sick of niggas lying, I'm sick of bitches hawking... Matter fact, I'm sick of fucking talking...
[spoiler]AYO BIG!!...
AYO BIG!!![/spoiler]
baddood;
I couldn't help myself.
Quote from: Fredo on March 08, 2009, 12:36:04 PM
You see, it's kinda like the crack did to Pookie, in New Jack. Except when I crossover, it ain't no coming back. Should I die on the train track, like Remo in Beat Street? People at the funeral, frontin' like they miss me... My baby momma kissed me, but she glad I'm gone... She knew me and her sister had something going on. I reach my peak, I can't speak. Call my nigga Chic, tell him my will is weak. I'm sick of niggas lying, I'm sick of bitches hawking... Matter fact, I'm sick of fucking talking...
[spoiler]AYO BIG!!...
AYO BIG!!![/spoiler]
The title is actually a reference to suicidal thoughts.
So don't feel bad.
Even when the thread is completely serious and depressing I sneak in jokes. baddood;
i love cam <3
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 12:49:22 PM
The title is actually a reference to suicidal thoughts.
Uhhh, yeah, I know... that's why I posted that.
I don't know what they want from me.
It's like the more money we come across the more problems we see.
Quote from: Fredo on March 08, 2009, 12:54:40 PM
Uhhh, yeah, I know... that's why I posted that.
We get it I'm stupid god. saddood;
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 12:54:59 PM
I don't know what they want from me.
It's like the more money we come across the more problems we see.
But money is the source of all good in this world. baddood;
I think you're confused.
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 12:54:59 PM
I don't know what they want from me.
It's like the more money we come across the more problems we see.
I know how it feel to wake up fucked up, pockets broke as hell, another rock to sell. People look at you like you the user, selling drugs to all the losers, mad buddha abuser. But they dont know about your stress-filled day, baby on the way mad bills to pay. That's why you drink tanqueray; so you can reminisce, and wish, you wasnt living so devilish.
Shheeeeeeeeit.
jesse mccartney is better
Quote from: Fredo on March 08, 2009, 12:57:59 PM
I know how it feel to wake up fucked up, pockets broke as hell, another rock to sell. People look at you like you the user, selling drugs to all the losers, mad buddha abuser. But they dont know about your stress-filled day, baby on the way mad bills to pay. That's why you drink tanqueray; so you can reminisce, and wish, you wasnt living so devilish.
Shheeeeeeeeit.
When beef is on, I'll pop that, TRUNK
Come get, some
Pistol grip, pump
If a nigga step on my white Air Ones
Since red, rum
Ready here I, come
Compton, UH
Dre found me in the, slums
Sellin that skunk, one hand on my gun
I was sellin rocks when Master P was sayin UHHHHHHHH
Quote from: lacette on March 08, 2009, 12:59:17 PM
jesse mccartney is better
I honestly never thought I'd see this sentence
go robo trippin and drink alcohol near 120% proof <3
How do you go from BIG to Game? baddood;
Quote from: Fredo on March 08, 2009, 01:04:44 PM
How do you go from BIG to Game? baddood;
um
idk
Why is biggie on the first track of Michael Jackson's invincble?
i listened to it for the first time in years a little while ago and was like wtf baddood;
i can always pick you up
naperville is like 20-30mins away from me
Quote from: YPR on March 08, 2009, 01:02:45 PM
I honestly never thought I'd see this sentence
bam.. it's there now.
Quote from: Original_MIB on March 08, 2009, 01:08:00 PM
i can always pick you up
naperville is like 20-30mins away from me
I was always under the impression you didn't like me very much.
But I would like to meet you and tomboh one day.
Actually, tomboh said we could meet one day once he gets his lie sense.
Quote from: holky shit on March 08, 2009, 01:09:59 PM
I was always under the impression you didn't like me very much.
But I would like to meet you and tomboh one day.
Actually, tomboh said we could meet one day once he gets his lie sense.
im indifferent about you, i just really dunno.
anyway, my converstions would consist of saying hi and bye because i dunno. also, i failed behind the wheel. 57%
god im so stupid
I'm so sincerely sorry Cam. I know how parent troubles can be. :(
Quote from: Cyanide on March 08, 2009, 01:37:02 PM
I'm so sincerely sorry Cam. I know how parent troubles can be. :(
That means a lot, thanks. :3