Today is going to be awful

[Samus Aran]

Today I have to break the news to my mom that I accomplished nothing this semester. And then drive home so I can hear it from her in person. I know she's going to let me have it. Like, I know that it's my life and my decision to fuck up in school and it shouldn't be her concern really, but still, she's my mom so she's still gonna express her disappointment. I feel like such shit.

I couldn't even tell her until the LAST MINUTE. She called last night and kind of offhandedly asked, "so what do you think your grades will be like? As and Bs?" And I basically just said yes and I couldn't tell her that actually it'll be more like a C, two Fs, and two incompletes.

I'm 23 and what my mother thinks shouldn't concern me as much as it does...but I can't help it. Fuck. 

[FAMY2]

Mommy will always have that guilt hold on some part of your life. 

[Samus Aran]

E-mail I sent to my mom:

Okay, I have no idea how to sugarcoat this, and I should have never waited so long to tell you, but I was never sure about how you'd react and I never really wanted to talk about because I already felt horrible enough about it. I lied - there won't be As and Bs on that grade report. I completely dropped the ball this semester. I was unambitious and depressed and pretty much stopped going to class in the middle of September. For a long time I hardly even left my room. I became entirely reclusive. I told myself I'd pull myself out of it, but it never happened. I fell more and more behind and missed tests and papers and everything went to hell and I just gave up. I didn't even want to come back next semester. I felt like I couldn't be a teacher let alone manage a career at all, ever. I started seriously doubting how much I even ever wanted to be a teacher. I'm still not sure about it, honestly.

So yeah, just thought I should let you know before you find out on your own. Two professors are giving me incompletes - they were kind enough to understand that I screwed up but wanted to make up for it next time. That way I can just take the classes over but not have to pay to re-register for them. Another never got back to me about a possible incomplete, so that might just be an F. Another wouldn't have it and I'm sure I'll just get an F (Brit. and World Poetry). In the Methods class I'll probably have a C.

I really don't want to get into some big argument with you so I hope you'll understand when I say that I never meant for all this crap to happen and that it's my mistake and I'll fix it myself next semester and you don't have to worry about it. No yelling, please. I feel bad enough already. I'm sorry I pretty much lied to you through the whole semester. I just didn't want to worry or disappoint you.

Jesus, I sound like such a fucking crybaby. I feel so goddamn stupid about this whole thing.

[silvertone]

every Rose has it's thorns...

but in All Seriousness: good luck.

[Wrench]

Kaz, don't get more down on yourself than you need to. You are just going through a bump in the road at the moment. You may not think so, but you will pull yourself out of it and get back on track. Everyone has a rough semester or two where they don't do anything. Just make a recovery next semester and use the anger about this semester to motivate you to do well.

Your mother should not freak out on you. She has a right to be disappointed, but she shouldn't be yelling or anything about it. You don't know what happened and genuinely regret it.

[Samus Aran]

I just got off the phone with her. It went a lot better than expected. It's easy for me to forget just how awesome of a mom I have. She was a bit stern, yeah, and obviously worried, but she was understanding and we talked about possibilities for the future and she assured me that no matter what happens I'll always have a place to stay with her, even if the shit hits the fan and I completely drop out and have nowhere to go.

Jesus christ, now I feel bad for even thinking that she might be mad at me and yell at me and stuff. I can't believe I was THAT worried about her reaction.

Fuck, I love her.

[YPrrrr]

Wow, that's really scary... I'm glad you have a mom who is so supportive, good luck on your next semester buddy

[Hippopo]

I-I'm not the only one who didn't give a fuck this semester?

Nice.

[Daddy]

I've accomplished so much.

[Samus Aran]

I've accomplished so much.

Well isn't that nice.

[Daddy]

It is. After last semester and a horrible start to the semester I'm quite proud of how I turned things around.

I managed to turn an incomplete/F to an A, get a nice start on my senior project, do well in 2 of my classes, and salvage a grade in a class I was definitely going to fail if I didn't stop fucking up.



Not bragging just sharing my pride in a relevant thread.

You can do better next semester. 

[Hippopo]

It is. After last semester and a horrible start to the semester I'm quite proud of how I turned things around.

I managed to turn an incomplete/F to an A, get a nice start on my senior project, do well in 2 of my classes, and salvage a grade in a class I was definitely going to fail if I didn't stop fucking up.



Not bragging just sharing my pride in a relevant thread.

You can do better next semester. 

Kaz: "Guys, I did really poorly in my classes and I'm stressed about going home to face my mom."

JMV: "Well I did !"

Kaz: "..."

JMV:  "Not bragging or anything, cuz this is a relevant thread to post this in. LOLOLOLOLOLOL"

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JMV, you are so insensitive.

[Daddy]

I am a bit of a dick.

My dealer told me this.

[Hippopo]

I am a bit of a dick.

My dealer told me this.

Most coons generally are.

[Daddy]

true story. i have to bite my tongue and pretend to be nice to the idiots who come in all angry Y MY WIRELESS NOT WORK IT WAS WORK THEN IT NOT WORK. YOU GUYS BROKE IT


Nigga your wireless switch was off.



also good luck kaz

see i am  nice man