Boyah Confession Booth (Retired)

[Boyager]

I made the This is your thread thread.

All for you, [you].

Oh toi.

[Boyager]

I am very concerned with several things.
Also, I don't want to be the trouble. Also, I don't want to go to school tomorrow.

[Boyager]

I can't stand myself 90% of the time.

I hate my lack of control over some emotions.

[Boyager]

I hope I can get some sleep last night.

I spent an hour and a half crying about it last night, and once I fell asleep I had a dream and woke up and cried again. 

[Boyager]

I hate the compare people app on facebook because I always forget to check the anonymous box...

[Boyager]

Wait that's not anonymous by default?

[Boyager]

Wait that's not anonymous by default?

Nope

[Boyager]

Well, huh. How do you find out who chose you for something?

[Boyager]

Well, huh. How do you find out who chose you for something?

i get a notification about it

[Boyager]

What do I do? I promised...

[Boyager]

I didn't go to school today because I feel horrible and because of how confused I was last night. I am going to go over to my mom's but if she isn't there I do not want to wait forever and today I listened to the most wonderful album. I slept so long I feel ill and now my dad expects me to go to my last two classes, which I won't. I'll go the opposite way.
Go to Mom's. I have some stuff. Sleep some more. Watch Ghost World and forget about everything.

[Boyager]

I am the world's biggest loser.

[Boyager]

The reason I try to find out stuff isn't for purposes that she'd expect.
I guess it's a difference in though processes.
It's not to try stalking, or anything.

I just know so little, that even learning the smallest thing--a name, a color, a location, a number, a picture, and such--feels like an accomplishment and it makes me happy.

She may think it's more sneaky than that, but it really is just an innocent thing where I enjoy learning about her, her life, and people she talks to.

[Boyager]

I am the world's biggest loser.

um no

[Boyager]

um no

what makes you think that :'(