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[Mobius135]

I don't really drive down that avenue. But sometimes I'll make a wrong turn or get lost on a detour and before you know it, my internal navigation is all out of whack.

A nice way of putting it.

I went down that road, I went fairly far too. It was mostly akin to the people I was with at the time, which being in an failing and highly unstable relationship did not help. I've played with oxys, percs, kpins, xanys, and adderall. It was a high, with certain indescribable properties. But I also felt it was an unnatural one. The process of coming down was strange, it left almost a hungover feeling. I felt this was because of it being synthetic. Through a strong will I quit. Completely. I stick to marijuana now, because I know where it comes from and how natural the high is. Even coming down, I feel blissful and happy. Not sick and aggravated.

[Socks]

I went down that road, I went fairly far too.
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Through a strong will I quit. Completely. I stick to marijuana now, because I know where it comes from and how natural the high is. Even coming down, I feel blissful and happy. Not sick and aggravated.

I went through something fairly similar. I am back to 'normal' now and did not realize for how much and how long I was living in this altered state of mind and perception. While I certainly experienced things that are absolute and amazing, I have difficulty now relating to some of the ideas and thoughts that I wrote back then. They seem too fantastic, and while true, I have only a vague feeling of what they meant and conveyed, and no longer the crystal clear conviction of my every word and letter, both in spirit and beyond.

I also see why someone said disregard everything you ever stood for before the age of 25.