mine is okay i'm a project coordinator for a fintech company and i basically just make sure that our very large network of web scrapers are working okay and assign work to our developers if they aren't

i almost left the company last year to focus on some contract programming work that i was doing but they convinced me to stay by offering me slightly more money than my remote work and agreeing to "put me on a path to developer." the latter has been not super true and while i have some "developery" tasks here and there (usually data visualization related), i don't feel like i'm where i want to be yet. someone in a similar role to me but for a different product quit recently and all their work got moved to me "temporarily" (my manager told me to not say "it's going well" if people ask how my new responsibilities are going so i don't get stuck lol). nice having various corporate perks, though.

toying with the idea of quitting in like 6 months to do another bike trip and then hitting the interview/pretending-to-be-a-developer grind again

been looking for a job for like a month. i received my AS in computer science but i decided i do not want to program for a living nor do i have any aptitude for programming so i've decided to switch to IT. so now i'm studying for entry level IT certifications (hopefully gonna take my first one in like a month) and applying to entry level IT shit. idk man

IDK I kinda work for the monsanto of weed but I got a raise today and they're talking about making me a lead so I guess it's going ok. I still feel like a sellout tho.

The company has options as one of the benefit,s so if I stay there for 3 more years I get 100k options which could be really cool or not worth shit lol. So my plan rn is to hang on to this job til i get my full vestment and then peace out.

I'm still working for the guberment doing city planning and I'm tired of everyone's incompetence/lack of support for employees that actually do things and think maybe I should try to do something else but idk what. I can't afford to take a paycut to try something new so I feel stuck

mannn i really want to move on
retail life is just...boring lol
recently had a falling out with a supposed best friend thats also my manager (we go way back kinda).  actually something i prob will vent about soon, bc it's been kinda ass. 

i want a job that challenges me yet i really dont have shit aside from my AA degree lol
actually i was offered a data entry plan but uhhh lmao im not about that commute life. 

man tbh
ive been in a bit of a rut (happens like every 2 months now i lmao) and i feel like im just so limited atm

I literally just wanna draw for a living but lol i can't focus on practicing much.  but whatever im still pushing it whenever I can and when I'm not, I can at least say I think about it all the time- anything that I can apply that's in front of me that I could apply to paper.  Like I'm mentally drawing.  Feels weird bc when I study ppl I realize it could seem like I'm checking them out.  only guys i rly check out are old snow bearded contractors lmao

i also want an art friend tfw
you know, i really need some new friends or maybe catch up with osme old ones idk
i realize im just so...immersed into my own hobbies so much and i only just lurk any forums i visit now

tbh im just kinda sad about...everything. 

tfw recently turned down data entry job that was in my grasp
it was good for $14/hr, full time, 8-4pm or 9-5
but the long commute would water that down

alright update on the falling out with best fr
he approached me about casual shit, and we slowly got to talking like it was normal
eventually, I called him out- bc i couldn't just ignore everything like nothing happened when it all stemmed from him scolding at me for something out of my control at work.
turns out there was a huge miscommunication (aside from the scolding)...and that he also expressed some tense/stern vibes, bc personal quarrels
this standoff lasted almost 3 weeks. 

now it's like someone opened a fucking window and we're just chill now and updating ever since that shit

i never really say some corny shit
but this guy- although we have so many differences, borderline opposite.  he is kinda like family to me a bit.  but if we didn't straighten out wtf was going on, i'd ditch him straight out though.  he has an aggro demeanor that he just does not know how to control sometimes, and I've been presented with the same behavior multiple times through various people, and I just have no patience for people who don't want to reflect on it when it happens. 

Quote from: 6M69I69B9 on February 21, 2020, 06:14:12 PMalright update on the falling out with best fr
he approached me about casual shit, and we slowly got to talking like it was normal
eventually, I called him out- bc i couldn't just ignore everything like nothing happened when it all stemmed from him scolding at me for something out of my control at work.
turns out there was a huge miscommunication (aside from the scolding)...and that he also expressed some tense/stern vibes, bc personal quarrels
this standoff lasted almost 3 weeks. 

now it's like someone opened a fucking window and we're just chill now and updating ever since that shit 

good for you man, this stuff is so hard for me since path of least resistance is to just let the friendship die. one time i called out a good friend of mine who being a dick to me for like a month and he thought about it, owned up to it, and then apologized for it. sounds so basic the fact that he actually listened and changed his behavior helped cement him as a one of my best friends.

its aight, i'm finally getting paid decently and once my wife gets a job hopefully, we will be in a pretty solid place and might actually be able to pay off her debt and get a house/condo (ie new debt ayyy) in the next couple years.

that said they laid off one of my good work friends last month and it kind of seems like our operating budget is becoming more and more untenable 

tho idk maybe thats just nonprofit work in 2020 

i mostly just have an unrealistic amount of work that feels like i am constantly drowning and i'm kind of burnt out. its a comfortable gig but i feel like i really need to get out soon so i dont lose my fucking mind but its kinda shitty cuz i know this places web output will go down the shitter once i leave lol also i feel bad for the chump who has to come in after me and digest code i wrote 6 years ago as a fucking idiot kid who didnt know what he was doing lol good luck pal

its kewl

i fucking despise my job, $13/hr 30-35 hours a week to have 25 children kick me and scream all day and then clean up their piss off the floor
fuck i hate my job and if anyone here can claim to have a worse job i will fight you

Nah dude you win. Even if I include the mass shooting at my work last year you still win

hahahahaha this guy cleans up piss

got an email to set up a phone interview at a computer company 

ull be making sigs with the big boys now travis