It's funny, I've never told anyone mine.
So I always just go with losing everyone I love.
But I think that's too general to count.
Whats yours?
Being forgotten
Heights.
being disowned, i'm like an inch away from it
Becoming cynical.
Sharks. No joke. I live on a small lake and if I'm ever swimming by myself I freak out even though it is stupid.
Oh and rejection, which I have been facing a lot of lately.
Not being able to finish my se
Quote from: Veal on December 02, 2009, 03:31:04 PM
Becoming cynical.
It's not nearly as bad as you think, honey.
Quote from: Slim on December 02, 2009, 03:50:06 PM
It's not nearly as bad as you think, honey.
LOOK AT HOW MISERABLE YOU CLEARLY ARE
losing a certain someone in any way
Quote from: Veal on December 02, 2009, 03:31:04 PM
Becoming cynical.
steer clear of the chat thread then
Quote from: Veal on December 02, 2009, 04:23:55 PM
LOOK AT HOW MISERABLE YOU CLEARLY ARE
FUCK YOU I COULDN'T BE HAPPIER DAMN IT. I LOVE MY LIFE.
I JUST... I... OH GOD HUG ME VEAL... I THINK I NEED A HUG. :'(
Gay people.
the unseen demons that inhabit the shadows of blackness that engulf my house at night
Being alone. It gives me shivers thinking about it.
Quote from: Thyler on December 02, 2009, 10:44:18 PM
Being alone. It gives me shivers thinking about it.
You're never alone when I'm around. giggle;
Any kind of bird.
Quote from: l a c e y on December 03, 2009, 04:17:13 AM
Any kind of bird.
this statement clearly needs to be clarified. as i recall you're quite fond of sucking dick
losing my other half.
Quote from: StrongBad007 on December 02, 2009, 03:34:47 PM
Sharks. No joke. I live on a small lake and if I'm ever swimming by myself I freak out even though it is stupid.
Oh and rejection, which I have been facing a lot of lately.
I AM TERRIFIED OF SHARKS. Crocodiles/alligators too. But I live nowhere near those.
I'm not sure what my worst fear is... I would say losing my cat, considering he's my best friend... but oh hey, that happened.
i think my worst fear might be that i'm unaware of how others treat me. like if everyone wanted me to leave them alone but I didn't realize it. I worry about stuff like that a lot.
Quote from: Sam on December 03, 2009, 05:02:24 AM
I AM TERRIFIED OF SHARKS.
ME TOO.
also, im sorry about your kitty
thats so sad. :(
Quote from: Sam on December 03, 2009, 05:02:24 AM
like if everyone wanted me to leave them alone but I didn't realize it. I worry about stuff like that a lot.
just offer free hand jobs to anyone you might have annoyed
Quote from: Socks on December 03, 2009, 05:05:15 AM
just offer free hand jobs to anyone you might have annoyed
hm, nah
Quote from: Socks on December 03, 2009, 05:08:44 AM
but unemployment is at an all time high
what does that have to do with anything?
Quote from: Socks on December 03, 2009, 04:58:29 AM
this statement clearly needs to be clarified. as i recall you're quite fond of sucking dick
what does that have to do with birds?
Quote from: l a c e y on December 03, 2009, 05:13:05 AM
what does that have to do with birds?
You know, you have to be pretty dumb to not think to yourself "oh, hmm, it must be slang for penis. Even if I haven't heard it used that way, I get it because of the context of what Socks is saying."
Common sense goes a long way, as does Google.
Edit: This post was actually made with "bird" and "pecker" in mind, totally forgetting about "cock." The former two can also be slang for peepees. But I'm willing to bet Socks was alluding to roosters/cocks.
They've managed to combine the two scariest things imaginable.
(http://15.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_krmwea1RFx1qzrak0o1_400.jpg)
Spiders
Death
Being an outcast
y'know, the usual
Quote from: Lain on December 03, 2009, 05:15:22 AM
But I'm willing to bet Socks was alluding to roosters/cocks.
throbbing roosters and cawing cocks, yes
Quote from: Man of Popsicle on December 02, 2009, 03:22:18 PM
Heights.
This, probably. Every time I am high up I feel like I surrounded by DEATH.
Quote from: Walter on December 03, 2009, 07:27:01 AM
This, probably. Every time I am high up I feel like I surrounded by DEATH.
I'm not afraid of heights, but if I'm ever on a tall building I'll look down and imagine myself jumping down for some dumb reason, then I get scared.
Losing my sense of sight.
I'd be devastated to lose any other sense as well, but sight would just be the worst of them. I know touch is actually more important, but I'm more scared for sight.
I worry a little about my sense of hearing, and spiders freak me out.
I guess my worst fear has always been becoming insane, losing touch with everything, being controlled. But that kind of fear is just borne out of pride and selfishness, and I recognize that, so I try not to sweat it. In fact, I'm sort of scared of a lot of things, but at the end of the day, I consider almost everything pretty worthless. So I don't sweat it in a nihilistic sort of way? I'm not THAT negative.
As awful as it sounds, being judged is really scary to me for some reason. awdood;
Quote from: DAVID DOWNER on December 03, 2009, 09:49:18 AM
As awful as it sounds, being judged is really scary to me for some reason. awdood;
Oh man, this. Part of the reason I'm so polite to strangers is that I'm scared of their judgements.
Again, though, I'm trying my hardest to chill out.
You guys reminded me of something that isn't really a fear but whatever. Sometimes I feel like in a lot of my groups of friends that I'm unwanted, and that they would rather hang out without me. Whenever I show up they're disappointed and their good time is ruined.
I know in a couple of groups that this isn't true, and I'd like to think most of the time it isn't true at all, but it's just something I think of really often.
fear of the universe
Yeah. Every time Im high up I imagine myself on the edge getting pushed, or something of that nature.
Losing my sanity. In junior high I was really fucking weird. I think I'm doing better now :)
Quote from: TheSequel on December 05, 2009, 10:57:01 PM
Losing my sanity. In junior high I was really fucking weird. I think I'm doing better now :)
Amen!
Or in your case:
Ay, men.
Quote from: Alyssa the Glowing Sole on December 05, 2009, 11:12:24 PM
Amen!
Or in your case:
Ay, men.
Lulz I'm not really sexist. So what made you think you were going crazy? I wouldn't talk to anyone and the only friends I had were only in classes. I had only one group of friends I hung put with. And in the 9th grade geometry sucked. I didn't have any friends in that class at all. I think the root of all this might have been me being shy.
Losing existing memories and/or the ability to form new ones.
Quote from: TheSequel on December 05, 2009, 11:16:12 PM
Lulz I'm not really sexist. So what made you think you were going crazy? I wouldn't talk to anyone and the only friends I had were only in classes. I had only one group of friends I hung put with. And in the 9th grade geometry sucked. I didn't have any friends in that class at all. I think the root of all this might have been me being shy.
Well, up until 7th grade I had one friend. And then I had 4 and a few acquaintences. I was pretty isolated from the get-go. I started self-abusing a bit because I felt isolated and worthless. But that wasn't the insanity part. That happend when I fell in love and got rejected very quietly. Something about what happened really pushed me hard, and then I ended up all sorts of fucked up: panic attacks and crying spells, total apathy and emptiness, these terrible mesmerizing dreams, nervous twitching, talking to myself, more self-abuse. I was pretty sure I was developing schizophrenic symptoms.
I hung on just enough until last year, when things got easier.
Yeah my problem was changing school districts. The only reason I had friends in elemenantary was because I was smart and gave kids answers. I didn't want to do that again, it feels bad knowing people only like you for cheating. Now I have some good acquaintances and friends. Riding the bus makes friends easier because there's so much more time for interacting. I've always been shy, my teachers always told my mom that. I've onl had friends over like 5 or 10 times. My parents dont speak english as their first language, so I thought that would be awkward. My mom didn't really let me hang out much when I was younger. I think she tried to avoid having to speak english, she gets nervous about sounding like an idiot.
It's nice to vent. :)
Quote from: TheSequel on December 05, 2009, 11:27:06 PM
Yeah my problem was changing school districts. The only reason I had friends in elemenantary was because I was smart and gave kids answers. I didn't want to do that again, it feels bad knowing people only like you for cheating. Now I have some good acquaintances and friends. Riding the bus makes friends easier because there's so much more time for interacting. I've always been shy, my teachers always told my mom that. I've onl had friends over like 5 or 10 times. My parents dont speak english as their first language, so I thought that would be awkward. My mom didn't really let me hang out much when I was younger. I think she tried to avoid having to speak english, she gets nervous about sounding like an idiot.
It's nice to vent. :)
I changed districts too, but by choice (which was stupid, I was only in 4th grade, I left what tiny bit of friends I had) and then ended up starting middle school and switching schools again. I never helped with cheats, and bus rides were always awful. I bike now, or get driven. It's peaceful.
The language barrier would be really hard, but there are a lot tougher things to get over in a friendship.
It is! That's why I go to therapy and post on Boyah.
Quote from: Alyssa the Glowing Sole on December 05, 2009, 11:19:51 PM
Well, up until 7th grade I had one friend. And then I had 4 and a few acquaintences. I was pretty isolated from the get-go. I started self-abusing a bit because I felt isolated and worthless. But that wasn't the insanity part. That happend when I fell in love and got rejected very quietly. Something about what happened really pushed me hard, and then I ended up all sorts of fucked up: panic attacks and crying spells, total apathy and emptiness, these terrible mesmerizing dreams, nervous twitching, talking to myself, more self-abuse. I was pretty sure I was developing schizophrenic symptoms.
I hung on just enough until last year, when things got easier.
I'm pretty sure that's called life.
Bus rides sucked at first... Oh god I remember my first friend. I just walked really close to this group until they started talking to me, I was so pathetic. Why did you change districts? I changed because we moved.
Btw my mom does know English she just has an accent and it takes a while for her to translate what she thinks into English. IMO it's just an irrational fear I dont think she's that bad.
Also once you get over something depressing you feel so fucking good afterwards. Makes you feel like a stronger person and like you can dick anyone. The realization phase sucks too. You know, when you realize you're weird. It also suck when everything was awkward to me, I couldn't talk. Everything was so weird.
Also @ Socks: didn't seem like everyone had my problems.
I changed because we moved, and I had the chance. I didn't know what it meant...I was picked on at my first school too.
I...never got over my depression, I relapse when things go wrong. The cause of a lot of it is still sort of unknown to me, and yet I'm getting there. Something's gonna happen!
I got over my depression when I realized everyone wasn't out to get me.
Once I realize that some people are, I'll have a bit more difficulty. Ah well.
Quote from: Alyssa the Glowing Sole on December 05, 2009, 11:54:23 PM
Once I realize that some people are, I'll have a bit more difficulty. Ah well.
Do you get picked on or something? If so why, you seem like a great person?
I got over my depression when... nah, jk, I've never had depression because I'm not a loser ROFL. xDD
Quote from: TheSequel on December 05, 2009, 11:38:01 PM
Also @ Socks: didn't seem like everyone had my problems.
NOBODY CAN UNDERSTAND ME!
Oh Slim, you're so perfect giggle;
Also @ Socks: lol no I didn't mean it that way, I meant that no one else was as shy as me but oh well
Quote from: Alyssa the Glowing Sole on December 03, 2009, 09:47:49 AM
I worry a little about my sense of hearing, and spiders freak me out.
I guess my worst fear has always been becoming insane, losing touch with everything, being controlled. But that kind of fear is just borne out of pride and selfishness, and I recognize that, so I try not to sweat it. In fact, I'm sort of scared of a lot of things, but at the end of the day, I consider almost everything pretty worthless. So I don't sweat it in a nihilistic sort of way? I'm not THAT negative.
You're already insane. cjlubdoods;
I fear uh, losing one of my senses as well. (My eyes got dilated and I started to get extremely anxious with
"What if I'm blind FOREVER". Basically anything that causes my body to get destroyed is my fear, but whenever it does happen I tend to not give a shit and put more focus somewhere else on my body. happydood;
Quote from: TheSequel on December 05, 2009, 11:57:30 PM
Do you get picked on or something? If so why, you seem like a great person?
Thanks, dear. I do get picked on at my school, but they don't really know me. It's a trans thing. There's an anti-trans hate crime killing once every two days, and are numbers aren't that large in the first place. It's mostly in South America, but in the city, anything can happen.