Okay, what are you trying to do with the next 5 years of your life?
For the next 4, college shit, and if I end up pursuing business like I am planning on, hopefully I'll have a lot of experience from internships by the time I graduate, and in a perfect world, I'll be able to hop on the marketing team at a videogame studio in Seattle.
I'm majoring in Bio right now. I am going to be working at a regional medical center near me over this summer and hopefully work myself up to work involving direct patient contact over the next 3 summers. Hopefully I will get at least a 3.5 undergrad GPA (though I'm shooting for a 3.8) and get lots of health care experience. Then some time after graduation I'm going to apply to PA school. I want to be a PA working in either pediatrics, or neonatology in a hospital.
I will hopefully be graduating from a 4 year university in the next 5 years with a degree in biology. I will get some internships preferably in zoos so that I can get job experience and have an easier time finding work. By this point I am hope to be living on my own or with a roommate in an apartment.
First, graduating from BSU with a BFA in Creative/Professional Writing. Then, moving to Texas, starting my life with Henny, and from there I'm not sure of what order things will fall in, but here's the idea: get a job, whatever works at first to at least pay the bills but ideally something in publishing or something, and in the meantime, decide where to go for a possible master's program in writing at another school, and in addition, perhaps do a little more schooling to get a teacher's license
and of course, during all that, be writing and sending things off and hopefully making some extra money that way
Fail at life spectacularly.
Quote from: DAVID DOWNER on May 23, 2010, 03:57:29 PM
Fail at life spectacularly.
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I was expecting the reply to that post to have something that relates to Kaz in it. girl;
But I was more of waiting for one of his, 'Gee, I didn't expect that from you.' comments. n_u
I have no ideas what I want from life at the moment so my only real goals involve not being seen as a failure by my parents girl;
nothing
Quote from: YPR on May 23, 2010, 08:41:30 PM
I have no ideas what I want from life at the moment so my only real goals involve not being seen as a failure by my parents girl;
I think this underlies everything that just about every does.
I really don't know, and it's been bugging the piss out of me lately. Right now I don't really have a direction in my life; I just lay around and watch TV, play video games, and post on Internet forums. I don't feel like I'm accomplishing anything. I'm going back to school in the fall but any progress there seems so far off that it doesn't do anything to comfort me.
Quote from: FDR on May 24, 2010, 11:36:46 PM
what if something happened and you and hensa broke up? you seem very dependent upon her, seems like a problem to me.
if that were to happen, then i'd do everything else i posted, but probably do it in california instead
however, it's pretty doubtful at this point that we'd ever break up, considering we've been together almost 5 years and have plans to marry
Perfectionism and self-destructiveness will be the end of me in the next 3 years. bassir;
Anyways, perhaps over the summer I may re-locate myself (Though, such decision requires special planning--will I be able to continue my education in my terrible community college, or can I just transfer myself out after the first semester and go to another school that's in my new area? How and who would I go to, to speak of transferring credits from my eclep scores? If I get that straighten out, then I will definitely move out from here.)
If I keep my decision, then I will cut off all of my friends that I've ever made (Except, for two. They're too much of a rarity to give up) and restart my life without any support, as my parents are leaving out of the country and I will not have anyone to rely on for support. :3 My grandparents from both sides are leaving with them, so I will not have any family (This is incredibly dangerous, I start off with nothing nor would I have a place to fall back on, but I'm confident that my teacher who has taken me into their home will provide that--unless they succumb to terminal illness. If that happens, then I'm done for, unless perhaps, I go to my alternatives that don't seem that bad, but they sure will give me a bad image if I spoke of it.)
For schooling, I'm planning to major something in ethics or biology/medicine. None of them seem like a job I might pursue in, but they're incredibly interesting. I have no plans for a job, I refuse to partake in a career where I'm not allowed to fully "express" myself through my work. Some jobs I may like should include some form of healing occurring for individual, or for groups of people--healing done through the mind/spirit, or through physiological means (Although, I plan to combine both the mind and body to make this process easier)
The shitty thing is that I also want to pursue a career in animation, cinematography and design. I'm not sure how to pursue such different desires in education. Artistic classes are usually done in schools of Art, and I certainly won't find a class of bioethics or microbiology in an Art School. akudood;
Suicide is also an alternative path. bassir;
Quote from: Analysis Paralysis on May 29, 2010, 05:53:00 PM
Suicide is also an alternative path. bassir;
Oh I don't think so. Also, you wont really be 'alone'. ;)
Quote from: Socks on May 29, 2010, 08:05:40 PM
Oh I don't think so. Also, you wont really be 'alone'. ;)
Are you going to euthanize me? cjlubdoods;
Use the nitrogen bags, they work best!
Quote from: Analysis Paralysis on May 30, 2010, 06:08:54 AM
Are you going to euthanize me? cjlubdoods;
Very, very slowly.
In 5 years I will be 23.
* Hopefully I will have finished Oberlin college by then, though I'm fine with not graduating in four years. My current plan is a Math/Music double major, but that math could turn into Physics or Compsci hopefully. It's ambitious, but I think I can handle it.
* Hopefully I will have spent free time recording music and posting albums/songs on a website, just gaining experience and always, always playing.
* I plan to be married. There is a religious conference on Star Island that my girlfriend and I go to every year, and she wants to propose to me there. The maximum age is 22, and since she's a year older than me, she'd propose at latest when I'm 21, 3 years from now. We will have been together for a little less than 5 years, and by 23, engaged/married for 2 years.
* My medical transition will be pretty far along. Hopefully I'll have been on hormones for 3-4 years, meaning that most major changes are midway through (breasts take the longest). Surgery may or may not have happened, I'm playing that one by ear.
Work, whether it be day job or music performance, is all up in the air, and I want it to stay that way. These are my only 4 goals for the next five years: finish college in music/computational thing, have done a lot of recording I'm proud of, get married, get far along in transition.
Quote from: FDR on May 24, 2010, 11:36:46 PM
5 years from now i'll be 22. if things go well i'll have a shit damn wikipedia page and i guess i'll be dead, i dunno. hopefully i'll have saved a couple of lives in the process, that would be a nice bonus.
Can you explain this to me again? Especially how you plan to get past the threshold of notability. Dearie, though, if it happened, I'd write it for you.
oh i just want to make a name for myself. i'd like to be immortalized through a textbook or something like that, but that won't happen so i've settled for a wikipedia page
Quote from: FDR on May 30, 2010, 10:07:25 PM
oh i just want to make a name for myself. i'd like to be immortalized through a textbook or something like that, but that won't happen so i've settled for a wikipedia page
i'll become a serial killer and hold you hostage and kill you then myself
WE WOULD GO DOWN HISTORY
2 more years if high school
Then I am going to africa to recruit natives for my new army. We are going to take over the world, and make the place a little better for the strong, beautiful, smart, and richall
Quote from: BlackDS on June 06, 2010, 05:59:43 PM
2 more years if high school
Then I am going to africa to recruit natives for my new army. We are going to take over the world, and make the place a little better for the strong, beautiful, smart, and richall
you posts remind me of a 12 year old kid with add
I really don't know... Shoooot.
Perhaps I'll work in a lab somewhere. Who knows?
Quote from: Potty Mus on June 06, 2010, 08:28:13 PM
I really don't know... Shoooot.
Perhaps I'll work in a lab somewhere. Who knows?
What type of lab? O_0
Quote from: BlackDS on June 07, 2010, 12:45:52 PM
meth lab obviously
This.
And a hydrology lab. baddood;
But probably not.
in school right now, final year of liberal arts associates begins in September, then transferring schools, 2 more years, Economics or Accounting or Finance major, and moving to Tokyo. at least that's the game plan.
Quote from: Hippopo on June 06, 2010, 08:28:13 PM
I really don't know... Shoooot.
Perhaps I'll work in a lab somewhere. Who knows?
THE ARMY IS NOT A LAB
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Quote from: Hippopo on June 06, 2010, 08:28:13 PM
I really don't know... Shoooot.
Perhaps I'll work in a lab somewhere. Who knows?
THE ARMY IS NOT A LAB
he's in the air force :|
Quote from: antmaster5000 on May 23, 2010, 01:59:19 PM
Okay, what are you trying to do with the next 5 years of your life?
For the next 4, college shit, and if I end up pursuing business like I am planning on, hopefully I'll have a lot of experience from internships by the time I graduate, and in a perfect world, I'll be able to hop on the marketing team at a videogame studio in Seattle.
HAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA
working with my best friend toward becoming loan masters, businessmen and hopefully financial moguls.
i jsut wanna make websites
Quote from: YPR Classic on May 23, 2010, 08:41:30 PM
I have no ideas what I want from life at the moment so my only real goals involve not being seen as a failure by my parents girl;
Y'see guys, you set low goals for yourself and you can never be disappointed
Successsssssssssssss
Quote from: Sakura Kinomoto on May 25, 2010, 12:26:24 PM
Quote from: FDR on May 24, 2010, 11:36:46 PM
what if something happened and you and hensa broke up? you seem very dependent upon her, seems like a problem to me.
if that were to happen, then i'd do everything else i posted, but probably do it in california instead
however, it's pretty doubtful at this point that we'd ever break up, considering we've been together almost 5 years and have plans to marry
lmaaaaaaoooooooo
didn't want to point it out smithicide;
I feel bad for bumping the thread now.
jmv: bringing back bad memories and failed amibitions. this is boyah 2.0
sad thread saddood;
im sure glad i didn't post in this thread or i'd have egg on my face xD lol hahaah :)
Quote from: Chyme on April 09, 2016, 12:01:38 PM
didn't want to point it out smithicide;
i don't mind. us breaking up needed to happen, and i'm glad that it did
Quote from: Khadafi on March 23, 2016, 11:30:45 AM
Quote from: Hippopo on June 06, 2010, 08:28:13 PM
I really don't know... Shoooot.
Perhaps I'll work in a lab somewhere. Who knows?
THE ARMY IS NOT A LAB
FUUUUUCK, it isn't?
military is mostly lab?
Quote from: SVT on April 21, 2016, 04:40:14 PM
military is mostly lab?
Depends on yor perspective I guessss
r and development?
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on May 31, 2010, 08:33:17 AM
i'll become a serial killer and hold you hostage and kill you then myself
WE WOULD GO DOWN HISTORY
wtf clucky you lied to me
how is the band Steal?
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dope shit right?
Quote from: the shortest route to the sea on May 30, 2010, 04:41:13 PM
Quote from: FDR on May 24, 2010, 11:36:46 PM
5 years from now i'll be 22. if things go well i'll have a shit damn wikipedia page and i guess i'll be dead, i dunno. hopefully i'll have saved a couple of lives in the process, that would be a nice bonus.
i actually accomplished this (probably). neat. when i was 22 i was interviewed by the ap and the new york times, so at the very least my name is in history, it actually ended up being an interview for an important issue so most likely it will be relevant. then i was pretty involved in the relief efforts with ebola in 2014 so (hopefully) i saved at least one life. and i havent really done anything this year other than collect the residuals of the work i put in up to pretty much 2014 plus about half of 2015, so, im basically dead cause 2017s going to be a dry year because i did pretty much nothing except lie in bed this year. from january thru december. back to back disability level illnesses. so thats like being dead. and in 2016 i was 22 for half of the year.
so basically i can see the future.
You'll get back on your feet man you're a smart dude
I'm enjoying my work in the specialty coffee biz. Decent money and it is pretty interesting for now. Will soon have a place in downtown Seattle. Am maybe slightly more successful than I thought I'd be post graduation but still not "successful" I guess. I think I'll be content with this lifestyle for a couple years at least.
i just need to start over and put things back together but i have no idea what to do. feels like i lost all of the benefits of momentum and am now just another joe blow with nothing to do, no places to go or projects to work on.
2017s gonna be a tough year, even if i stay healthy, just cause i really cant expect anything to happen cause i havent done anything :\
Quote from: Khadafi on April 11, 2016, 03:49:16 PM
im sure glad i didn't post in this thread or i'd have egg on my face xD lol hahaah :)
me2
Quote from: YPargh on May 23, 2010, 08:41:30 PM
I have no ideas what I want from life at the moment so my only real goals involve not being seen as a failure by my parents girl;
hey I did it doodella;
Quote from: reefer on February 08, 2017, 12:20:13 AM
Quote from: Khadafi on April 11, 2016, 03:49:16 PM
im sure glad i didn't post in this thread or i'd have egg on my face xD lol hahaah :)
me2
are you really living rn
Well, I've been quiet ever since 2017 started. I am pretty insecure about all of this...but, at the same time, I feel like I just gotta stop keeping the bottle closed off.
[spoiler]After I finished those classes I had in mid December, well, I completely lost all momentum. I realized social work probably isn't for me with how recently I've been emotionally fragile, and plus the curriculum was so fucking half-assed, I just could not fathom being taught under such a rushed curriculum and the quality of professors just absolutely turned me off as well. It's really hard for me to consider college now, because I almost have no interest in anything aside from just art, which is completely nothing. I would still love to be a school social worker, but it's just so competitive still and regarding other social work fields you'd really have to give up your life for such mediocre pay and the thing is that with helping people, it's really up to them, so I'd be blamed for patients who wouldn't even think of helping themselves. Social worker professors really put it out there how rough it can be, and that if you for one instance think the profession isn't for you, then it probably isn't. And I did take these courses for the sake of knowing more about the major overall, so it wasn't a complete waste, and I at least maintain a 3.5 GPA there despite how lame I thought of the classes there.
Anyway, yeah, I've been at a complete loss with what to do now. I've never felt or been this low in my entire life, mostly because I don't know what the fuck to do anymore, my ideal job just out of the picture, art being a complete gamble, and just don't feel like I could offer anything to the world to be of actual use aside from some basic skill jobs. My self-esteem has been so terrible. My family has been concerned, I've been staying in my room mostly silent, but I try to keep up a good mood in front of family, and of course try to help with caretaking for my parents in general and helping them at appointments and just basic shit around the house. Or I'll tutor my niece and nephews when they need it because somehow they don't get some shit. But I get a talk here and there with my parents and my older sister- I know I have to do something and can't keep being down. An adviser at my CC who kept in touch with me, well, I haven't messaged him in some time. He told me to just get a job, in which I should. But I've just been so fucking out of it. I know, it's barely an excuse. Haven't talked to him in a while, or anybody about anything much. I still have a few friends I confide in and do shit with at the very least. One of them has told me if they think I'm ready, they suggested I apply at a hardware shop and they'd give me a good word in. So there's that, even if not guaranteed.
Another thing is that my driving permit expires in a month, and the DMV thought it was suspicious about me having so many driving permits. I just never really had anyone to teach me how to drive. Everyone's just too nervous about me, and I just am scared. I feel like I'd pass it, but my anxiety while driving is so bad that I forget a lot of basic shit. But I feel like I should just take advantage of anything. I need to not let these emotions get to me so much like they have been. Even if I got the job I mentioned, it wouldn't be so bad, since the job is literally across the street. But I still should do it.
In the end, I feel like I'm stuck right now, physically, mentally. It's like another existential crisis. I honestly lost my will for a lot of things now. But there's still some sort of fire in me to do something, but...I just don't know. I just can't help but feel like I'm just the most pathetic piece of shit in the world, especially to my parents. The worst thing is that I acknowledge this but keep letting myself go further and further into depression and bad anxiety.
Honestly, I wouldn't mind just offing myself right now. But I can't fathom that, there are still people that would be affected no matter how small it'd be. Depression's been pretty bad, which means escapism has been awful for me. The only thing that ties me back to reality, is literally the Hotel Dusk 215 soundtrack of all things. And I've been listening to it and have been gradually just been thinking differently.
But yeah, that's what I've been not doing.
Lol, the only thing that's been on my mind is coding (probably a big gamble, too but I'm willing to try anything new), but I've yet to start shit. If anybody wants to help me delve into it, PM me with some stuff I can start out with, please. [/spoiler]
Honestly, I feel that. When I was in college, it was to make my family happy and because I figured it might help me figure out what I wanted to do. Well, I graduated with a pretty useless degree and realized I didn't really want to do anything that wasn't writing. I then opted to try going for a teaching license. And discovered that I hated the classes and curriculum involved in the process, and didn't really like kids much either. I failed every class that semester out of not going to class because I was just that fucking lost and depressed. And have never gone back to school since.
I pretty quickly realized I needed a job though. So I've been working lame retail jobs since. And I've kinda come to terms with the idea of just working wherever seems the least painful, because unless I can make it writing, I'll probably never have an ideal "career."
But honestly I'm pretty ok with that. I have very small needs in life. I still have fun doing my own thing and I take it easy at work and still get paid so whatever lol
fwiw i feel the same way applying for jobs. i can volunteer til my ass turns blue but i need a career. why don't he want me man. im sick of myself, sick of family, sick of the place i live, sick of people, i should probably "recharge" but that's easier said than done.
im not breaking yet. but i dont like being totally out to sea with my career. i worked too hard to not be anywhere.
something's gotta come. i don't get why it wouldn't. but here i am with barely any interviews.
i know it's the school i went to, because every job ive ever had has been working with uc berkeley, sf based colleges and ivy leagues. never anybody from my school. but wtf can i do not my fault i was poor.
even when i volunteer on side projects im working with people from cornell and sequoia capital. like wtf. and then ask, hey um can u give me a job and then they never speak to you again lol.
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Quote from: Khadafi on April 11, 2016, 03:49:16 PM
im sure glad i didn't post in this thread or i'd have egg on my face xD lol hahaah :)
me2
are you really living rn
im ok just making those dollars right now. boyahbby
i'm struggling but trying to get three summer classes done online through my community college and try to go back to my university when possible, so I can get a degree and try to get a real job for once
I know a film degree is somewhat worthless but it should at least give me enough experience and possibly some small projects in order to get an actual job in film somehow
Taking a role as a Housekeeping Supervisor in Wyoming. I'm in a California park now, and my role as Front Desk Supervisor was eliminated due to COVID. I'm hoping to continue building my resume in hotels and parks until eventually I can become a Hotel Manager at Crater Lake. I was an Assistant Manager prior, and am trying to regain that fine balance between power and freedom.
Outside of work, taking seasonal jobs across the country to see more of the US and hike in more places. I use the National Parks I live in a a springboard to explore the surrounding states. I started collecting animal bones back in Utah and making them into things, so trying to get better at that. My family asks when I'm going to settle down, and I think they're starting to worry I won't. The most frustrating thing about it is that I love this and explaining it to other people only gets indirect questions towards the things that they perceive I don't have. If I tell people that I plan on remaining single I get these responses like "That's very brave of you." and "I'm glad you've made peace with that" like I'm terminally ill. If I tell them I don't plan on becoming a Director or General Manager, there's this assumption that I'm not ambitious enough. I have built my life to this exact end, engineered it to the best of my ability, and they're complaining about the aesthetic.
Two of my players from the D&D campaign I DM'ed are getting married in October. I'm going to drive back out to Kentucky and visit them and run the gauntlet of old friends. Two of my friends here are going to piggyback with me on a roadtrip as I drop them off at their respective homes. Overall, I live a good life. I think I'll continue park hopping for a bit before bidding for another salary position. Eventually, I'd like to buy land out in the woods near a wilderness area. I'll hang birdhouses made of animal bones around a wilderness shrine to Hecate, where screaming fowl of every creed will nestle in the hollowed ribs of dead deer. I'll have a rustic cabin heated by an iron stove and I'll explore the woods in my free time. I think I'd like that.
Quote from: JohnnyRingo2 on October 15, 2020, 10:49:03 AMTaking a role as a Housekeeping Supervisor in Wyoming. I'm in a California park now, and my role as Front Desk Supervisor was eliminated due to COVID. I'm hoping to continue building my resume in hotels and parks until eventually I can become a Hotel Manager at Crater Lake. I was an Assistant Manager prior, and am trying to regain that fine balance between power and freedom.
Outside of work, taking seasonal jobs across the country to see more of the US and hike in more places. I use the National Parks I live in a a springboard to explore the surrounding states. I started collecting animal bones back in Utah and making them into things, so trying to get better at that. My family asks when I'm going to settle down, and I think they're starting to worry I won't. The most frustrating thing about it is that I love this and explaining it to other people only gets indirect questions towards the things that they perceive I don't have. If I tell people that I plan on remaining single I get these responses like "That's very brave of you." and "I'm glad you've made peace with that" like I'm terminally ill. If I tell them I don't plan on becoming a Director or General Manager, there's this assumption that I'm not ambitious enough. I have built my life to this exact end, engineered it to the best of my ability, and they're complaining about the aesthetic.
Two of my players from the D&D campaign I DM'ed are getting married in October. I'm going to drive back out to Kentucky and visit them and run the gauntlet of old friends. Two of my friends here are going to piggyback with me on a roadtrip as I drop them off at their respective homes. Overall, I live a good life. I think I'll continue park hopping for a bit before bidding for another salary position. Eventually, I'd like to buy land out in the woods near a wilderness area. I'll hang birdhouses made of animal bones around a wilderness shrine to Hecate, where screaming fowl of every creed will nestle in the hollowed ribs of dead deer. I'll have a rustic cabin heated by an iron stove and I'll explore the woods in my free time. I think I'd like that.
Very cool. You're just getting boomer reactions lol
Quote from: ?????? on May 30, 2010, 06:08:54 AMQuote from: Socks on May 29, 2010, 08:05:40 PMOh I don't think so. Also, you wont really be 'alone'. ;)
Are you going to euthanize me? cjlubdoods;
Use the nitrogen bags, they work best!
This is what the C*nadaisn ACTUALLY believe.