I fucking hate family gatherings. It's always awkward for me.
I had to go to a family gathering for a cousin's graduation celebration. And lol, I just sat in a corner waiting for the party to end. I'm always my most anxious with them, specifically. Everyone just seems to have it all figured out there, and I can never engage in a conversation with them about...anything. It'll all be small talk. For some reason I just can't be my comfortable self with them. I just wanted to go because I wanted to be there for my cousin, who really struggled progressing with education. Though, I think maybe I should have just signed a card and told my brother to give it to her lol. But yeah, it's not like I have anything against anybody there. But these gatherings seem so forced, I just can't approach them naturally.
I think I'm just going to go with Christmas gatherings and that's it.
its hard for me bc my family is white and i am black