i have to admit something guys

[Mando Pandango]

kaz

aren't you a writer

i'm pretty sure you're more eloquent than you give yourself credit for

[Kalahari Inkantation]

like seriously

it's extremely evident in his speech, especially

[Samus Aran]

it doesn't feel that way to me

[rdl]

I'm borderline retarded so at least you're smarter than someone

[bluaki]

related: guys how is bluaki such a genius???

I think we can all agree bluaki is smarter than almost any of us though

I don't even remember doing anything that demonstrates my knowledge here. What makes you all think I'm such a genius?

That said, I am pretty capable with at least STEM academic stuff and with computers and technology in general.

When it comes to knowledge that isn't taught in school, I'm a completely clueless moron. For food, nutrition, cooking, fashion, etiquette, socializing, cleaning, and other household tasks I'm barely functional with my very limited knowledge. I'm clueless about media stuff too like music, TV, and celebrities. Religion too. I guess, since I never really had friends, I've always focused on nothing but school stuff and the technology things I had at home and whatever I happen to stumble on in the internet.

I feel like an elementary school child when I come across a food item or type of clothing that's apparently super common which "everybody" knows about but which I don't even know the name of

I've had a few occasions where I find out a word that I've known forever actually has a very different pronunciation than I thought since I have so little exposure to spoken English. I had this happen a few months ago for "epitome".

[silvertone]

never saw it that way OP, thanks.

[Kalahari Inkantation]

I don't even remember doing anything that demonstrates my knowledge here. What makes you all think I'm such a genius?

That said, I am pretty capable with at least STEM academic stuff and with computers and technology in general.

i personally am most impressed by, and most respect, deep technical knowledge of the purest academic fields (math/hard sciences/logic (a direct derivative of which are the computer sciences))

and to be brief, you have demonstrated a vast, intimate understanding of these subjects on countless occasions

it goes beyond understanding, actually, it seems to be natural intuition for you

weren't you working on some sort of a miniature wolfram alpha type program at some point

entirely on your own

i'm pretty sure you've mentioned something like that here before

and that's freakishly impressive

and before things went south at your old job, you were making a six figure salary at age 23, entirely based off a fundamental understanding of numbers and logic that's ~well~ beyond the abilities of the average university grad, let alone the average person

[spoiler]

tbqh, i seriously envy that particular quality of yours lol

i look up to stem majors :'([/spoiler]

When it comes to knowledge that isn't taught in school, I'm a completely clueless moron. For food, nutrition,

you may be terribly ignorant when it comes to food and nutrition, but 1. so is everybody else in america, and 2. it's not exactly a hard problem to fix

but otherwise,

When it comes to knowledge that isn't taught in school, I'm a completely clueless moron. For food, nutrition, cooking, fashion, etiquette, socializing, cleaning, and other household tasks I'm barely functional with my very limited knowledge. I'm clueless about media stuff too like music, TV, and celebrities. Religion too. I guess, since I never really had friends, I've always focused on nothing but school stuff and the technology things I had at home and whatever I happen to stumble on in the internet.

same for me on all counts

I feel like an elementary school child when I come across a food item or type of clothing that's apparently super common which "everybody" knows about but which I don't even know the name of

this happens to me too

I've had a few occasions where I find out a word that I've known forever actually has a very different pronunciation than I thought since I have so little exposure to spoken English. I had this happen a few months ago for "epitome".

lol

but this happens to me too

it means you probably read at a higher level than your peers speak

so i'm just as clueless as you are about most of those things, yet i don't have the scientific/mathematical ingenuity to make up for it

[Kalahari Inkantation]

i am also generally stupid when it comes to related fields like most sciences or technological stuff

also this is false

you've demonstrated a remarkable understanding of zoology on multiple occasions

[Daddy]

there's times i feel like i dont know a lot even in my field of profession but then attending industry events and shit i realize that i'm pretty knowledgable and talented.

I think it's just a normal psychological effect that, unless someone has a major ego problem (and usually actually knows nothing), they feel like they are really dumb in a subject.

[Thyme]

there's times i feel like i dont know a lot even in my field of profession but then attending industry events and shit i realize that i'm pretty knowledgable and talented.

I think it's just a normal psychological effect that, unless someone has a major ego problem (and usually actually knows nothing), they feel like they are really dumb in a subject.

yup

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impostor_syndrome

[Travis]

related: guys how is bluaki such a genius???

I think we can all agree bluaki is smarter than almost any of us though

I don't even remember doing anything that demonstrates my knowledge here. What makes you all think I'm such a genius?

That said, I am pretty capable with at least STEM academic stuff and with computers and technology in general.

When it comes to knowledge that isn't taught in school, I'm a completely clueless moron. For food, nutrition, cooking, fashion, etiquette, socializing, cleaning, and other household tasks I'm barely functional with my very limited knowledge. I'm clueless about media stuff too like music, TV, and celebrities. Religion too. I guess, since I never really had friends, I've always focused on nothing but school stuff and the technology things I had at home and whatever I happen to stumble on in the internet.

I feel like an elementary school child when I come across a food item or type of clothing that's apparently super common which "everybody" knows about but which I don't even know the name of

I've had a few occasions where I find out a word that I've known forever actually has a very different pronunciation than I thought since I have so little exposure to spoken English. I had this happen a few months ago for "epitome".

um didnt you like buy a house at age 23 or something

that's unbelievably amazing

[Daddy]

have you seen housing prices in florida

[bluaki]

i personally am most impressed by, and most respect, deep technical knowledge of the purest academic fields (math/hard sciences/logic (a direct derivative of which are the computer sciences))

and to be brief, you have demonstrated a vast, intimate understanding of these subjects on countless occasions

it goes beyond understanding, actually, it seems to be natural intuition for you

Yeah, I guess that's pretty accurate, but I don't really remember saying or doing stuff here that shows it. Maybe I just don't remember a lot of the stuff I say.

weren't you working on some sort of a miniature wolfram alpha type program at some point

entirely on your own

i'm pretty sure you've mentioned something like that here before

and that's freakishly impressive

No, I haven't done anything remotely like wolfram alpha. I don't remember ever planning to do anything like that either.

I did make a scientific calculator at least, and I did work on making it do graphing and arbitrary-precision rationals but I don't think I ever finished those things because I got bored.

and before things went south at your old job, you were making a six figure salary at age 23, entirely based off a fundamental understanding of numbers and logic that's ~well~ beyond the abilities of the average university grad, let alone the average person

You really overestimate it. I was making $68,000/yr. I doubt I'll ever have a salary that's six figures worth of today-dollars.

I expect my starting salary will be within the realm of $70k+-$5k at whatever job I go to next.

and yeah, I'm well aware my abilities have been well above the average university CS grad. I've always been effortlessly at the top of my class. It wasn't until getting that job that I actually saw some peers being better than me at this stuff, and I doubt I'll see much of that at other companies.

have you seen housing prices in florida

My house was $235k at closing. 3 bed (big enough for 4-5 if walls were added), 2 bath, 2440 sqft, built in 2003, pretty good location in a safe suburb pretty close to the things that matter in this city

[Kalahari Inkantation]

well if i wanted to be extremely reductive i could very well claim that wolframalpha is, at its base, a highly advanced scientific calculator

yes, i believe the calculator you described is what i had in mind

and yes, i figured you hadn't finished it, otherwise you would have mentioned it

[Kalahari Inkantation]

um didnt you like buy a house at age 23 or something

that's unbelievably amazing

Also, this.

[spoiler]

and didn't you grow up relatively poor in the household of an overburdened single mother with few math or computing skills

as in, you first developed your talents almost entirely on your own[/spoiler]

[spoiler]

and then there's the whole trans struggle that you have to contend with on top of everything else

what you've managed to accomplish in spite of what i would say are less than favorable life circumstances is nothing short of astonishing, actually[/spoiler]

[spoiler]

Now please don't jeopardize your great achievements by getting complacent and losing your highly lucrative, highly competitive, highly coveted job. [/spoiler]