You're all still here.
Tonight I woke up in a west village apartment and then found my glasses under a dildo. Tinder, alcohol, coke, and pretty hair will throw you into weird situations.
How are you guys doing?
also a girl from hong kong that I had been dating for a year broke up with me a few weeks ago AND DESTROYED MY HEART ARGH
hi
i'm sorry mang :(
im good i live in thailand now and strive for 100% quota
Quote from: antmaster5000 on June 04, 2016, 02:05:03 AM
i'm sorry mang :(
im good i live in thailand now and strive for 100% quota
what
really?
I'm enjoying this halal food but I think it's just because it's drenched in whatever that white sauce they use is
yeah famy also lives in thailand soon it will be all of boyah
i am sorry about the sauce but i cannot emphasize because usually i love food drenched in sauce :(
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:13:41 AM
I'm enjoying this halal food but I think it's just because it's drenched in whatever that white sauce they use is
is it tzatziki?
Quote from: SVT on June 04, 2016, 02:18:01 AM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:13:41 AM
I'm enjoying this halal food but I think it's just because it's drenched in whatever that white sauce they use is
is it tzatziki?
No, that's Greek people. Like me.
I hate Greek food.
I now work in a very expensive Japanese restaurant where we have to yell "Irrashaemasse" and place our orders in japanese and my manager like to just randomly smack me on the back and I hate it
am I weeaboo yet
sry, i mean Cacık?
I don't wanna look back at my post history because I feel like I would just end up hating my past self more than I hate my current self
I guess that's an improvement???
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:23:43 AM
I don't wanna look back at my post history because I feel like I would just end up hating my past self more than I hate my current self
I guess that's an improvement???
i have never thought of it that way but now i realized i too have improved
thank u
you still need to get rid of that sig to rid yourself of your adolescence lol
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:22:17 AM
I now work in a very expensive Japanese restaurant where we have to yell "Irrashaemasse" and place our orders in japanese and my manager like to just randomly smack me on the back and I hate it
am I weeaboo yet
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hey man ! Keep posten !
and i just thought steve had forgotten about us after all these years
shit is that what they say? irasshymashey?
Quote from: David on June 04, 2016, 11:22:11 AM
and i just thought steve had forgotten about us after all these years
i did
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 12:32:15 PM
Quote from: David on June 04, 2016, 11:22:11 AM
and i just thought steve had forgotten about us after all these years
i did
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hi
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 12:32:15 PM
Quote from: David on June 04, 2016, 11:22:11 AM
and i just thought steve had forgotten about us after all these years
i did
but you remembered, that's the important part
tell me more about hong kong girl
Quote from: Khadafi on June 04, 2016, 02:28:05 PM
tell me more about hong kong girl
I met her on tinder a year ago. She left me because she couldn't get over some other guy.
She's only lived in the U.S. for a year. 22 years old. Ran away from her dad in California (once they moved from hong kong and got her green card and all that) to New York City as soon as she could and has been living on her own since.
Cool girl. We were genuinely considering moving in together, Miss her very much and feel worthless now
awesome
Cried uncontrollably on the train the day she broke up with me, then I learned everyone just stares at the person crying on the train but does nothing
I guess having an emotional breakdown in public is one of the things you need to do before you're considered an adult???
My emotional breakdowns have usually been in private
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:02:57 AM
also a girl from hong kong that I had been dating for a year broke up with me a few weeks ago AND DESTROYED MY HEART ARGH
hi
hi
sounds like a perfect life juncture to return to boyah n_u
Quote from: YPargh on June 04, 2016, 02:54:10 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:02:57 AM
also a girl from hong kong that I had been dating for a year broke up with me a few weeks ago AND DESTROYED MY HEART ARGH
hi
hi
sounds like a perfect life juncture to return to boyah n_u
ha ha
You guys haven't heard most of the shitty things that have happened in my life since I stopped being active here. The coping process after my mom died that lasted years, dealing with my absolutely shitty and abusive father that helped destroy my self esteem after her death, dropping out of college, being so depressed for a year that I could barely get out of bed and thought about suicide daily, me hiding everything from my family, me going to audio school in some weird and lost attempt to just get out of my house and do something other than just work the shitty job I had, me having my hopes of accomplishing anything crushed when I couldn't even get an internship or entry level job in any live venue, recording studio, or post-production house, me going back to college for just straight up electrical engineering because I gave up on trying to do something that will make me happy and just settled for something that'll make me money (and I'm damn good at math so why not), my first girlfriend that was an ex-heroin addict that cheated on me all the time, my time going to punk shows all over new york and having photos of me taken while taking a swig of a bottle of vodka onstage, my extreme stress from being an engineering major, the new job I got at the japanese restaurant where I felt like all my coworkers hated me (and they all thought I was gay at first for some reason), the girl from hong kong that I met and hand an absolutely wonderful relationship with for a year (even if it also had really bad times like when she threw all of my shit out of her apartment one morning and didn't speak to me for three days), when I started doing hard drugs and drinking a lot, etc; etc; etc;.
It's been a weird ride but I've just been trying to keep myself busy.
How have you guys been doing?
also there are four dogs and a child living in my house right now. My room is in the basement, with the window facing the backyard and it's at ground level. A few nights ago one of the dogs ran up to my window scratching at it and woke me up. Saw just a random figure at my window while in my half asleep state and nearly shit myself. Fucking dog wanted to get in my room to cuddle with me.
That dog is so fucking cute and I can't be mad at her but damn I couldn't get back to sleep for awhile.
>dropping out of college, abusive father making you suicidal
I can relate to this
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 03:19:50 PM
>dropping out of college, abusive father making you suicidal
I can relate to this
Yes! Fuck my dad, his shitty abusive comments, and his fucking middle school education. How the hell does he have the balls to call me worthless when he couldn't even complete high school? The absolute fucking minimum amount of education that society demands from you?
I think this thread just kind of turned into the thread where I get you all up to speed on my sad life while I'm drunk at 6pm.
I think I'm just going to go see Guerilla Toss later in Brooklyn. I got these new earplugs and everything yesterday so I could go to shows without having my hearing destroyed. Punk shows are fucking loud. Like, there's no reason for them to be that loud. It's a small venue and no matter where you are you can hear perfectly fine at a lower volume and still get a great view of the band. Unless you're stuck behind the column.
The new earplugs I have are really nice. My friend told me they look like buttplugs for my ears
http://www.amazon.com/Etymotic-Research-ER20XS-SMF-P-High-Fidelity-Earplugs/dp/B00RM6Q9XW/ref=sr_1_2_a_it?s=office-products&ie=UTF8&qid=1465079104&sr=8-2&keywords=earplugs+etymotic
They're really, really nice and bring all frequencies down by a few dB instead of just making everything sound muffled and shitty like those 99 cent earplugs do.
And of course if you're a crazy person you can get a pair of those $200 earplugs that are custom molded to the shape of your ears.
Those are a bit much and really only for professional audio techs and musicians, tho. Would probably still be fun to get a pair if I had too much money one day and wanted to just spend it frivolously.
I dream small so that I'm not disappointed often.
yeah i have etymotics too they're nice
Hey, is Lawlz still alive?
I think I liked him back when I was in high school but if he is around and still the same insufferable person he used to be I would probably fucking hate him now.
I remember he made me mod once (even tho I didn't do much on boyah) because he liked me for some reason. Then he became obsessed with Persona 4 and maybe at this point I'm afraid that we might've lost him to the world of waifus and body pillows.
Quote from: Sakura Kinomoto on June 04, 2016, 12:49:39 PM
hi
Oh shit, Kaz!!! How are you? I remember you were an English major in college? Did you finish? Did you ever get good at guitar like you wanted to? I actually got this travel guitar made by Martin last week. I found it in a garage sale for $20. It needs new strings and a new bridge but that's easy to replace. It retails for at least $300 new so I'm so happy about getting it for so damn cheap! Even if everyone that sees it mistakes it for a lute due to it's really weird shape (it's called the backpacker by Martin, if you wanna look it up).
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 03:30:23 PM
Hey, is Lawlz still alive?
I think I liked him back when I was in high school but if he is around and still the same insufferable person he used to be I would probably fucking hate him now.
I remember he made me mod once (even tho I didn't do much on boyah) because he liked me for some reason. Then he became obsessed with Persona 4 and maybe at this point I'm afraid that we might've lost him to the world of waifus and body pillows.
he is
he made a game that was crypto-mra bullshit that sold relatively well and moved to japan
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 03:35:16 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 03:30:23 PM
Hey, is Lawlz still alive?
I think I liked him back when I was in high school but if he is around and still the same insufferable person he used to be I would probably fucking hate him now.
I remember he made me mod once (even tho I didn't do much on boyah) because he liked me for some reason. Then he became obsessed with Persona 4 and maybe at this point I'm afraid that we might've lost him to the world of waifus and body pillows.
he is
he made a game that was crypto-mra bullshit that sold relatively well and moved to japan
Wait, what? He moved to Japan? Really? Like, got a visa or moved there to teach English or something like a lot of weeaboos do?
Also I haven't used the screenname "Placebo Headwound" in a long time. This is weird. I usually use "Professor Dreamfunk" or some variant of that now.
The story behind that name is that I was just naming fake genres of music and my friend misheard me when I said "Progressive Dreamfunk." Then I just loved his mishearing so much that I decided to immortalize it with every internet account that I make.
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 03:35:16 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 03:30:23 PM
Hey, is Lawlz still alive?
I think I liked him back when I was in high school but if he is around and still the same insufferable person he used to be I would probably fucking hate him now.
I remember he made me mod once (even tho I didn't do much on boyah) because he liked me for some reason. Then he became obsessed with Persona 4 and maybe at this point I'm afraid that we might've lost him to the world of waifus and body pillows.
he is
he made a game that was crypto-mra bullshit that sold relatively well and moved to japan
"it's really about transrights and TERFS" - lawlz
"women are whorez i haet them" - lawlz
welcoem back thiefy
Quote from: Khadafi on June 04, 2016, 03:58:11 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 03:35:16 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 03:30:23 PM
Hey, is Lawlz still alive?
I think I liked him back when I was in high school but if he is around and still the same insufferable person he used to be I would probably fucking hate him now.
I remember he made me mod once (even tho I didn't do much on boyah) because he liked me for some reason. Then he became obsessed with Persona 4 and maybe at this point I'm afraid that we might've lost him to the world of waifus and body pillows.
he is
he made a game that was crypto-mra bullshit that sold relatively well and moved to japan
"it's really about transrights and TERFS" - lawlz
"women are whorez i haet them" - lawlz
welcoem back thiefy
The thing is that I can't really tell if those quotes by Lawlz are serious or sarcastic. I always had that kind of odd feeling about him where I couldn't tell if he was genuinely stupid/ignorant or if he just thought it was fun to piss people off.
i think it's a bit of both because lawlz supposedly hired this trans writer that doesn't seem to exist
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 04:21:38 PM
i think it's a bit of both because lawlz supposedly hired this trans writer that doesn't seem to exist
What?
I missed all this insane drama, apparently. Imagine all the shitty, sarcastic comments I could've made if I was around while this stuff was happening.
JMV, you did programming or web security or something, right?
How has that been? I'm in a community college for electrical engineering right now (on the dean's list, honors classes, and almost all straight A's so thank god for all he transfer scholarships I've been offered), but I was thinking of doing computer science or something as a minor once I'm in a four year (City College, most likely).
I have to take C++ for Engineers over the Summer and I hope it doesn't end up being a hellish experience like most summer classes are.
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 04:21:38 PM
i think it's a bit of both because lawlz supposedly hired this trans writer that doesn't seem to exist
they were both paraphrased but generally his real comments.
When Nyerp pointed out how it was just an extension of his sexism, he gave some excuse about how TERFS were the villains because they oppressed his trans-poc-woman protag.
and he went on the whore ran after his gf left him
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 04:34:51 PM
JMV, you did programming or web security or something, right?
How has that been? I'm in a community college for electrical engineering right now (on the dean's list, honors classes, and almost all straight A's so thank god for all he transfer scholarships I've been offered), but I was thinking of doing computer science or something as a minor once I'm in a four year (City College, most likely).
I have to take C++ for Engineers over the Summer and I hope it doesn't end up being a hellish experience like most summer classes are.
Yeah, I do information security.
it's been k. I've been trying to rack up certifications because my pay is shit for what it should be and I'm prepping to jump ship if that doesn't change. A request for a raise was put in a few months ago and I'm expecting to hear back this month (fiscal year shit).
Short/Medium term, I could also see a bump in my title which should help to pull in more money.
also i got them to pay for me to go to seattle for a week baddood;
You should definitely jump ship if you feel like they're using you and you're able to find something else.
My manager actually gave me a really bad performance review a few months ago (on a scale of 1 to 5, he gave me a 1 for being helpful during dinner service, a 2 for writing down information accurately, and 1/2's in a few other things). I was actually really offended and angry (he gave me an insultingly low tip percentage raise at only 2%) and I've been looking for a new job since. It's hard, tho. It just sucks when my manager seems to dislike me for no reason.
And just as a point of reference: my coworker who started literally a day after I did got a 20% tip percentage raise after our performance reviews. So fuck my manager. Seriously.
I'm tried of trying to sell $200 bottles of sake to rich assholes anyways.
Quote from: Khadafi on June 04, 2016, 05:37:07 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 04:21:38 PM
i think it's a bit of both because lawlz supposedly hired this trans writer that doesn't seem to exist
they were both paraphrased but generally his real comments.
When Nyerp pointed out how it was just an extension of his sexism, he gave some excuse about how TERFS were the villains because they oppressed his trans-poc-woman protag.
and he went on the whore ran after his gf left him
i would like to think his stance against women was a joke like his stance against mathematical facts
but it's still awful even if he expressed it ironically
tfw you made your manager cry after he gave you the only entirely positive review of all the employees xiapproves;
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 05:59:46 PM
i would like to think his stance against women was a joke like his stance against mathematical facts
but it's still awful even if he expressed it ironically
his girlfriend left him after spending several days with another guy to be with him or something.
he was serious and bitter akudood;
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 05:59:11 PM
You should definitely jump ship if you feel like they're using you and you're able to find something else.
My manager actually gave me a really bad performance review a few months ago (on a scale of 1 to 5, he gave me a 1 for being helpful during dinner service, a 2 for writing down information accurately, and 1/2's in a few other things). I was actually really offended and angry (he gave me an insultingly low tip percentage raise at only 2%) and I've been looking for a new job since. It's hard, tho. It just sucks when my manager seems to dislike me for no reason.
And just as a point of reference: my coworker who started literally a day after I did got a 20% tip percentage raise after our performance reviews. So fuck my manager. Seriously.
I'm tried of trying to sell $200 bottles of sake to rich assholes anyways.
yeah that sucks
fortunately my boss and the CIO both gave me a great review and wrote letters requesting a raise. unfortunately, it's very bureaucratic and they don't make the decision
Quote from: Khadafi on June 04, 2016, 06:05:30 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 04, 2016, 05:59:46 PM
i would like to think his stance against women was a joke like his stance against mathematical facts
but it's still awful even if he expressed it ironically
his girlfriend left him after spending several days with another guy to be with him or something.
he was serious and bitter akudood;
well he went through some extraordinary crazy fam drama and she put him in the middle of it
i would not be surprised about that reaction tbh
lawlz's story is why i thank god i am gay
like he dated a girl with crazy overprotective parents that followed them 24/7 and harassed them all the time
and then broke into his apartment and trashed his belongings
and then the girl was like i'm not into you anymore kthxbai
i would be bitter if someone put me through that hell tbh
(he should have left her when it started though tbh)
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 03:32:58 PM
Quote from: Sakura Kinomoto on June 04, 2016, 12:49:39 PM
hi
Oh shit, Kaz!!! How are you? I remember you were an English major in college? Did you finish? Did you ever get good at guitar like you wanted to? I actually got this travel guitar made by Martin last week. I found it in a garage sale for $20. It needs new strings and a new bridge but that's easy to replace. It retails for at least $300 new so I'm so happy about getting it for so damn cheap! Even if everyone that sees it mistakes it for a lute due to it's really weird shape (it's called the backpacker by Martin, if you wanna look it up).
i'm pretty good. yeah i finished college, but i've done fuck all with my useless degree lmao
you know, i kinda just stopped playing guitar after a while and have pretty much lost any progress i made. not that it was much, but still. i should really actually try to learn for real sometime though.
i have actually seen one of those backpackers before, my friend and i went to a guitar store once to try to sell his. i don't remember if he got much of anything for it
Hi. giggle;
Do you know how I overcome public crying? giggle;
Quote from: Classic on June 04, 2016, 07:10:03 PM
Do you know how I overcome public crying? giggle;
how
I overeat and do drugs.
You should tryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. giggle;
Hey Thief! How've you been? I haven't seen you in forever. I think I joined around when you disappeared?
Quote from: Classic on June 04, 2016, 07:18:10 PM
I overeat and do drugs.
You should tryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. giggle;
I do the drugs part but honestly I don't think I could bring myself to overeat too much.
I just sad and tired and bored and sad and sad and sad at home right now.
This sucks.
Bursting into tears randomly when you're alone sucks.
where in the west village
i live there on 12th and washington
and what Japanese restaurant!
i wonder if you slept with this girl that one of my dates (he was bisexual) slept with
she too, liked coke and lived in the west village
i only do adderall on my gym days and smoke w33d on most nights cos my roommate just smokes tons a day
i don't drink cos it makes me feel really shitty
i'd definitely rather just take molly but i get paranoid i'd might get bath salts instead or it being cut with something speedy
i wish i could get shrooms or lsd but i can't find any for reasonable prices :'(
also i too, cried on the subway once cos my ex finalized things with me lol
i have to move near the 15th of june cos my lease is up and my roommate is leaving to live in tudor city
i can't decide where to live
for manhattan i'm only interested in bowery or chinatown area cos they seem kinda neat
for brooklyn sunset park, clinton hill or bedford jefferson stop seem neat too
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 03:09:02 PM
Quote from: YPargh on June 04, 2016, 02:54:10 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 04, 2016, 02:02:57 AM
also a girl from hong kong that I had been dating for a year broke up with me a few weeks ago AND DESTROYED MY HEART ARGH
hi
hi
sounds like a perfect life juncture to return to boyah n_u
ha ha
You guys haven't heard most of the shitty things that have happened in my life since I stopped being active here. The coping process after my mom died that lasted years, dealing with my absolutely shitty and abusive father that helped destroy my self esteem after her death, dropping out of college, being so depressed for a year that I could barely get out of bed and thought about suicide daily, me hiding everything from my family, me going to audio school in some weird and lost attempt to just get out of my house and do something other than just work the shitty job I had, me having my hopes of accomplishing anything crushed when I couldn't even get an internship or entry level job in any live venue, recording studio, or post-production house, me going back to college for just straight up electrical engineering because I gave up on trying to do something that will make me happy and just settled for something that'll make me money (and I'm damn good at math so why not), my first girlfriend that was an ex-heroin addict that cheated on me all the time, my time going to punk shows all over new york and having photos of me taken while taking a swig of a bottle of vodka onstage, my extreme stress from being an engineering major, the new job I got at the japanese restaurant where I felt like all my coworkers hated me (and they all thought I was gay at first for some reason), the girl from hong kong that I met and hand an absolutely wonderful relationship with for a year (even if it also had really bad times like when she threw all of my shit out of her apartment one morning and didn't speak to me for three days), when I started doing hard drugs and drinking a lot, etc; etc; etc;.
It's been a weird ride but I've just been trying to keep myself busy.
How have you guys been doing?
I can't tell if you need to move the hell away from New York or if I need to move to it huhdoodame;
I'd go crazy with boredom living anywhere but New York.
also thanks random trembling
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on June 04, 2016, 10:18:35 PM
where in the west village
i live there on 12th and washington
and what Japanese restaurant!
i wonder if you slept with this girl that one of my dates (he was bisexual) slept with
she too, liked coke and lived in the west village
i only do adderall on my gym days and smoke w33d on most nights cos my roommate just smokes tons a day
i don't drink cos it makes me feel really shitty
i'd definitely rather just take molly but i get paranoid i'd might get bath salts instead or it being cut with something speedy
i wish i could get shrooms or lsd but i can't find any for reasonable prices :'(
also i too, cried on the subway once cos my ex finalized things with me lol
i have to move near the 15th of june cos my lease is up and my roommate is leaving to live in tudor city
i can't decide where to live
for manhattan i'm only interested in bowery or chinatown area cos they seem kinda neat
for brooklyn sunset park, clinton hill or bedford jefferson stop seem neat too
Bleecker st. Right next to the IFC theater.
Not saying where I work~
Probably not the same girl unless she was a tattoo artists in her 30s thats covered head to toe in tattoos.
Haven't done adderal. Done mushrooms twice before and currently trying to get them again
Did molly for the first time when a randiom stranger came into my job and offered me one in exchange for time to charge his phone
The west village is like a goddamn catacomb where tourists go, get lost, and then starve to death because they never found their way out and all the hip restaurants/bars were too intimidating to go into.
me and cluck should get together sometime and do drugs that will destroy our bodies and cry uncontrollably together
Can I have a rank that doesn't constantly remind me of my self loathing
also officially designated as the thread where I go to cry when I'm drunk or on something
are others allowed to join?
can i leave my bag here
Quote from: C.Mongler on June 05, 2016, 05:15:55 AM
can i leave my bag here
unattended bags will be reported to the police
i don't get smashed on a nightly basis anymore >.<
Quote from: Khadafi on June 05, 2016, 08:05:03 AM
i don't get smashed on a nightly basis anymore >.<
welcome to adulthood
Quote from: Khadafi on June 05, 2016, 08:05:03 AM
i don't get smashed on a nightly basis anymore >.<
casual
Yeah, if you're all sad and drunk I invite all of you to cry and complain in this thread.
You're all wonderful and this is a safe place to be sad. <3
I actually have this genuine fear that people find me boring when I'm sober.
I've probably also become more outspoken, weird, and cynical since I was last active here.
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 05, 2016, 03:00:22 PM
I've probably also become more outspoken, weird, and cynical since I was last active here.
The truth is we all have.
thief come chill with me in jerz
cuz u dont text me thiefy steve
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 05, 2016, 12:27:52 AM
me and cluck should get together sometime and do drugs that will destroy our bodies and cry uncontrollably together
i dont have anything to cry about anymore lol
and people get lost in the west village because of west 4th mysteriously appearing out there in the blue
do you live uptown
I used to think i needed a bit of a buzz to enhance sociability but now i know that if there's tension it's usually the other person's fault for not knowing how to deal with a bit of silence
but its pretty intimidating when someone sober wants to hang and you can't immediately drug them and they start criticizing w33d
also at the moment life isn't so sad, spending all of july looking for a job will be a different story though
I went to the 124 Rabbit Club in the west village and it was like a rape dungeon in someone's basement where they decided to sell beer.
hocuspocus;
Quote from: Khadafi on June 05, 2016, 09:33:51 PM
I went to the 124 Rabbit Club in the west village and it was like a rape dungeon in someone's basement where they decided to sell beer.
That sounds about right.
that night was weird
I had to pick my girlfriend up from JFK at like 8am (cheaper for me to drive to nyc and have her land at jfk than it was for her to fly to boston) so I stayed the night and met up with people from THE INTERNETS and we hit up some bars (pony bar in hells kitchen then rape dungeon rabbit in west village) and i drank more than i remembered and was a little hungover the next morning
i put too much money on my mta card and now it expired :(
and some guy gave me a cd but wanted a donation and then he took it away from me lol
Quote from: Khadafi on June 06, 2016, 02:44:54 PM
and some guy gave me a cd but wanted a donation and then he took it away from me lol
sounds like the guy singing in spanish at santa monica pier
new routine: go home get high and spending the whole evening in internet loops and then go to sleep unsatisfied and wake up well rested
hocuspocus;
Quote from: antmaster5000 on June 06, 2016, 05:29:01 PM
new routine: go home get high and spending the whole evening in internet loops and then go to sleep unsatisfied and wake up well rested
hocuspocus;
this is what i want my life to be
oop i meant wake up not well rested
but yeah it is pretty nice i am really doing what i thought i'd be doing at this stage of my life
Quote from: Khadafi on June 06, 2016, 02:44:54 PM
and some guy gave me a cd but wanted a donation and then he took it away from me lol
i got a few cds like that. most of them are antisemitic rappers
you need to recycle those cds as soon as possible for bernie
yah
Today my ex called me a shitty person and loser for my drug use~~
Coming from the person who told me last week about her night where she did "a lot" of coke, got piss drunk, got high, and then did mushrooms all in the span of a few hours.
~~Thanks Liz and your shitty, condescending tone. Turns out everyone was right and this was totally an abusive relationship~~
:(
fuck dat bitch
Can I have a rank that doesn't call me retarded yet
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 06, 2016, 10:27:55 PM
Can I have a rank that doesn't call me retarded yet
agreed make it more pc
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 06, 2016, 06:42:46 PM
you need to recycle those cds as soon as possible for bernie
they already were lol
Turns out Serotonin Syndrome is horrible.
All I've got is nausea, light-headedness, mild hallucinations, stomach pain, and constant muscle twitches.
I didn't take a million pills to survive what is this crap
how did you get that? from my understanding it is pretty avoidable unless you do something dumb like mix mdma and dxm
but i'm sorry that blows dude
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 30, 2016, 01:06:50 AM
Turns out Serotonin Syndrome is horrible.
All I've got is nausea, light-headedness, mild hallucinations, stomach pain, and constant muscle twitches.
I didn't take a million pills to survive what is this crap
this is why I don't take SSRIs lol
Quote from: antmaster5000 on June 30, 2016, 01:56:22 AM
how did you get that? from my understanding it is pretty avoidable unless you do something dumb like mix mdma and dmx
but i'm sorry that blows dude
by swallowing about 100 pills
what kinds of pills?
that blows though i'm sorry :(
boyah is the only reason i'm clinging to life
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 30, 2016, 03:04:24 AM
Quote from: antmaster5000 on June 30, 2016, 01:56:22 AM
how did you get that? from my understanding it is pretty avoidable unless you do something dumb like mix mdma and dmx
but i'm sorry that blows dude
by swallowing about 100 pills
HEY BROTHER
I did like a week's worth i forget how many pills that was
Quote from: Khadafi on June 30, 2016, 06:57:08 AM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 30, 2016, 03:04:24 AM
Quote from: antmaster5000 on June 30, 2016, 01:56:22 AM
how did you get that? from my understanding it is pretty avoidable unless you do something dumb like mix mdma and dmx
but i'm sorry that blows dude
by swallowing about 100 pills
HEY BROTHER
I did like a week's worth i forget how many pills that was
Didn't you mention that to someone and get thrown in the psych ward for it
:(
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on June 06, 2016, 10:27:55 PM
Can I have a rank that doesn't call me retarded yet
Only way out is posting saddood;
Can I switch accounts with thief
Quote from: squirrelfriend on June 30, 2016, 12:51:56 PM
Can I switch accounts with thief
I'm going to tell you what I tell residents of Yuma
No but if you do it and don't get caught then good for you
Had a failed suicide attempt. Literally hasn't even been 24 hours since I left the psych ward and I've had a mental breakdown and want to go back
holy fucking shit
literally within the hour after I left I burst out crying fuck
thief u can text me if u feelin sad, fam
be safe bruh
Hang in there Thief. We all care.
Damn go back if you have too.
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on July 04, 2016, 03:46:31 AM
Had a failed suicide attempt. Literally hasn't even been 24 hours since I left the psych ward and I've had a mental breakdown and want to go back
holy fucking shit
we're all glad it failed bro. keep your head up
I seriously hate everyone pretending to give a shit like this.
Everyone only ever cares when things are insanely bad, when their egos demand that they care in order to preserve their self image of being a good person.
~~I really don't have anyone in my life and everyone who says they care about me right now will forget about me in just a few days~~
apparently the doctors think I have wasting and I might need to go to a nursing home if it gets worse? I can't cut out the stress from my mom and dad who just don't understand the magnitude of my illness. I tell them to back off but my dad beats me. I have nowhere else to live so I guess I have to suck it up?
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on July 05, 2016, 02:54:28 PM
I seriously hate everyone pretending to give a shit like this.
Everyone only ever cares when things are insanely bad, when their egos demand that they care in order to preserve their self image of being a good person.
i mean you left boyah for ages and came back and said thing werent well and people are instantly trying to be there for you
it's not like you've been here for a long time and people have just ignored things (that i know of)
>telling a suicidal person's thoughts they're bullshit
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on July 05, 2016, 09:02:15 PM
>telling a suicidal person's thoughts they're bullshit
Why don't you actually go help Thief since you live there and know what to do :O
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on July 05, 2016, 02:54:28 PM
I seriously hate everyone pretending to give a shit like this.
Everyone only ever cares when things are insanely bad, when their egos demand that they care in order to preserve their self image of being a good person.
~~I really don't have anyone in my life and everyone who says they care about me right now will forget about me in just a few days~~
I think you've lived in New York for too long if you think everything is about ego and appearances
I really think you could use a change of scenery. Especially if you don't have anyone what do you have to lose??
come to portland
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on July 05, 2016, 09:02:15 PM
>telling a suicidal person's thoughts they're bullshit
you're right that was unnecessarily harsh
they're not bullshit- it's just important to realize when people are being legitimate with their words for your own good
ypr has good advice. or go abroad
Quote from: YPargh on July 05, 2016, 09:23:50 PM
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on July 05, 2016, 09:02:15 PM
>telling a suicidal person's thoughts they're bullshit
Why don't you actually go help Thief since you live there and know what to do :OQuote from: Placebo Headwound on July 05, 2016, 02:54:28 PM
I seriously hate everyone pretending to give a shit like this.
Everyone only ever cares when things are insanely bad, when their egos demand that they care in order to preserve their self image of being a good person.
~~I really don't have anyone in my life and everyone who says they care about me right now will forget about me in just a few days~~
I think you've lived in New York for too long if you think everything is about ego and appearances
I really think you could use a change of scenery. Especially if you don't have anyone what do you have to lose??
i thought about smoking weed with theif but what if he doesn't like me :'(
theif wanna smoke weed and avoid conversation by eating and laying around
also theif's post isn't really about egos and appearances
it seems like he's yearning for stability (he mentions people are only there if he's in pain, he probably thinks people should also be there for him when he's normal. people coming to show genuine emotion when he's in real pain reminds him again that no one was ever there when he wasn't in pain, so he lashes out at you normies)
I didn't post yet so I am lashing free tyvm
- king of the normies
i probably would have posted on r/suicidewatch before boyah based on boyah's competence tbh
Sorry Thief. But you can't change the kind of person I am. I know what it is like to be surrounded by people but be lonely as hell. You should meet with Clucky.
Quote from: squirrelfriend on July 06, 2016, 02:02:45 AM
i probably would have posted on r/suicidewatch before boyah based on boyah's competence tbh
but those are strangers he likely has 0 connection to :O
Yknow for you and clucky having so much wisdom on the topic you sure don't share it n_u
None of us are trained crisis intervention professionals, so that's probably for the best
My answer though: Call 211 for a mental health professional in your area!
Good point we should all ignore Thief
He's already seeing a psychiatrist so that mental health professional seems to be going well
Quote from: YPargh on July 06, 2016, 12:29:25 PM
Good point we should all ignore Thief
He's already seeing a psychiatrist so that mental health professional seems to be going well
probably could help to talk to a counselor after hours though. A voice on the phone. They could also discuss CBT which may help some people and help you get out of never ending cycles. A psychiatrist will just prescribe more drugs if you talk to them about any inkling of suicidal tendencies.
211 can also help with programs in the area not necessarily related to mental health like financial assistance
Psychiatrists are a joke. No two can come up with the same answer unless there is a fail proof test.
it's like mental health is still an extremely fluid field or something
>implying general practitioners and doctors of all types don't do the same shit
i would get checked out by an endocrinologist before taking an antidepressant tbh
Thyroid problems are some of the greatest imitators
Quote from: C.Mongler on July 06, 2016, 02:09:58 PM
it's like mental health is still an extremely fluid field or something
>implying general practitioners and doctors of all types don't do the same shit
Some doctors don't even follow up with test results so yes they can be shit too.
Any psych should do a hormone panel anyhow
Quote from: squirrelfriend on July 06, 2016, 02:17:38 PM
i would get checked out by an endocrinologist before taking an antidepressant tbh
Thyroid problems are some of the greatest imitators
Good advice. Now I wonder if I should stop my antidepressants. My thyroid levels are checked regularly.
It's so weird being called Thief again after all these years.
I took a microdose of mushrooms earlier now I can't sleep
ugh
Enjoy the rideeeeeeee
not drunk but i sure have been feeling down on my life lately lmao
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on September 28, 2016, 12:47:36 AM
I took a microdose of mushrooms earlier now I can't sleep
ugh
how is that? microdosing seems to be a trendy thing nowadays
you should get some vitamin D supplements
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 28, 2016, 04:35:29 AM
you should get some vitamin D supplements
ive been meaning to do that for years actually
same
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 28, 2016, 01:43:25 AM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on September 28, 2016, 12:47:36 AM
I took a microdose of mushrooms earlier now I can't sleep
ugh
how is that? microdosing seems to be a trendy thing nowadays
People say it makes you more creative and happier over time. I'm mostly curious about it to deal with depression issues, since the three antidepressants I'm on don't seem to work.
do you work out? working out can help. cardio can make a difference over the course of maybe a month or so. i read an article that said 4 months of cardio is equal to the effects of most antidepressants.
my life is awesome!
Quote from: Shinobu Oshino on September 28, 2016, 01:29:48 AM
not drunk but i sure have been feeling down on my life lately lmao
Tell me about it.
Quote from: ADX on September 28, 2016, 09:51:19 AM
do you work out? working out can help. cardio can make a difference over the course of maybe a month or so. i read an article that said 4 months of cardio is equal to the effects of most antidepressants.
mmm endorphins
Quote from: YPargh on September 28, 2016, 02:10:04 PM
Quote from: ADX on September 28, 2016, 09:51:19 AM
do you work out? working out can help. cardio can make a difference over the course of maybe a month or so. i read an article that said 4 months of cardio is equal to the effects of most antidepressants.
mmm endorphins
I tried running a few times.
I always give up after my lungs hurt and every muscle in my body is sore
https://www.google.com/search?q=duke+university+4+months+exercise+antidepressants&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
i guess it doesn't have to be cardio. also if want to get better at running there's couchto5k, i did that when i was a freshman and it worked for me, i can run a few miles now without stopping. i prefer biking over running though, it fucks up your knees less.
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[spoiler]this is also a metaphor for existence![/spoiler]
>Guest Starring: Lance Bass
You mean his voice acting has improved from Kingdom Hearts?
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on September 28, 2016, 02:12:48 PM
Quote from: YPargh on September 28, 2016, 02:10:04 PM
Quote from: ADX on September 28, 2016, 09:51:19 AM
do you work out? working out can help. cardio can make a difference over the course of maybe a month or so. i read an article that said 4 months of cardio is equal to the effects of most antidepressants.
mmm endorphins
I tried running a few times.
I always give up after my lungs hurt and every muscle in my body is sore
i feel better mentally after lifting than i do with cardio (and i am a scrawny mothrfucker)
Quote from: C.Mongler on September 28, 2016, 02:18:16 PM
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[spoiler]this is also a metaphor for existence![/spoiler]
i love this show
Hi Steve, I hope you feel better bud. I went through a similar rough patch some years ago, sometimes time and self reflection will kick you in the teeth and sober you up a bit and then you finally feel a soothing calm and get to enjoy things again. happydood;
It's 5am I still studying for a calculus 2 test this afternoon i wanna die
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 28, 2016, 04:35:29 AM
you should get some vitamin D supplements
THIS
Luckily I live in illinois where the sun doesn't mostly shine, though tbh most ppl's vit d levels are low on average. mine considerably high, so they recommended a dosage of 50,000ui of vit d2 for me
it works wonders for me at least
Quote from: ADX on September 28, 2016, 02:17:26 PM
https://www.google.com/search?q=duke+university+4+months+exercise+antidepressants&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
i guess it doesn't have to be cardio. also if want to get better at running there's couchto5k, i did that when i was a freshman and it worked for me, i can run a few miles now without stopping. i prefer biking over running though, it fucks up your knees less.
i really wish i could run further. I can only do like half a mile before i start fucking up because i have this thing called "exercise-induced asthma" diagnosed. it's when you only experience asthma-like symptoms after exercising, but mostly when running. i feel like im choking up on my own phlegm so I have to walk in the middle regardless.
biking seems to be my only way of exercising the most efficiently.
yeah i used to be the same way but then i did c25k and i havent had the problem since. i got the inhaler too in hs, but idk running isn't that great for you anyway. biking also gives people back problems but i think that's only if you bike like more than 50 miles a week type thing. i just go to the gym to bike idk.
I've been having nonstop belching for a year and finally doctors decided it might be a neuro issue
please don't be MS, ALS, Parkinson's, peripheral neuropathy, Huntington's or myasthenia gravis
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 03:59:08 PM
I've been having nonstop belching for a year and finally doctors decided it might be a neuro issue
please don't be MS, ALS, Parkinson's, peripheral neuropathy, Huntington's or myasthenia gravis
its gonna be whichever one costs the most to treat
most profitable businesses are subscription based
thats why modern medicine is all about pills and managing conditions rather than cures
Quote from: ADX on September 29, 2016, 05:31:32 PM
most profitable businesses are subscription based
thats why modern medicine is all about pills and managing conditions rather than cures
that y we gotta legalize cannabis
Quote from: Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo on September 29, 2016, 05:08:23 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 03:59:08 PM
I've been having nonstop belching for a year and finally doctors decided it might be a neuro issue
please don't be MS, ALS, Parkinson's, peripheral neuropathy, Huntington's or myasthenia gravis
its gonna be whichever one costs the most to treat
well it costs $0 to treat all of the above because there's no treatment lol
except for neuropathy and mg
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 29, 2016, 05:58:10 PM
Quote from: ADX on September 29, 2016, 05:31:32 PM
most profitable businesses are subscription based
thats why modern medicine is all about pills and managing conditions rather than cures
that y we gotta legalize cannabis
weed might actually help tbh but i'll only take edibles
i might have to move to california :/
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 06:12:16 PM
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 29, 2016, 05:58:10 PM
Quote from: ADX on September 29, 2016, 05:31:32 PM
most profitable businesses are subscription based
thats why modern medicine is all about pills and managing conditions rather than cures
that y we gotta legalize cannabis
weed might actually help tbh but i'll only take edibles
i might have to move to california :/
what about vapin'
or a FAT SPLIFF
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 29, 2016, 06:54:19 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 06:12:16 PM
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 29, 2016, 05:58:10 PM
Quote from: ADX on September 29, 2016, 05:31:32 PM
most profitable businesses are subscription based
thats why modern medicine is all about pills and managing conditions rather than cures
that y we gotta legalize cannabis
weed might actually help tbh but i'll only take edibles
i might have to move to california :/
what about vapin'
or a FAT SPLIFF
If you ever come to the east coast you can vape on our Volcano. n_u
Quote from: the MIB the on September 29, 2016, 02:59:53 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 28, 2016, 04:35:29 AM
you should get some vitamin D supplements
THIS
Luckily I live in illinois where the sun doesn't mostly shine, though tbh most ppl's vit d levels are low on average. mine considerably high, so they recommended a dosage of 50,000ui of vit d2 for me
it works wonders for me at least
Quote from: ADX on September 28, 2016, 02:17:26 PM
https://www.google.com/search?q=duke+university+4+months+exercise+antidepressants&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
i guess it doesn't have to be cardio. also if want to get better at running there's couchto5k, i did that when i was a freshman and it worked for me, i can run a few miles now without stopping. i prefer biking over running though, it fucks up your knees less.
i really wish i could run further. I can only do like half a mile before i start fucking up because i have this thing called "exercise-induced asthma" diagnosed. it's when you only experience asthma-like symptoms after exercising, but mostly when running. i feel like im choking up on my own phlegm so I have to walk in the middle regardless.
biking seems to be my only way of exercising the most efficiently.
I have that asthma problem too
But running inside a gym on a treadmill works for me. Can run 4 miles no problem. Outside in cool air I can barely go 2
Quote from: Flat Eric on September 29, 2016, 07:03:12 PM
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 29, 2016, 06:54:19 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 06:12:16 PM
Quote from: antmaster5000 on September 29, 2016, 05:58:10 PM
Quote from: ADX on September 29, 2016, 05:31:32 PM
most profitable businesses are subscription based
thats why modern medicine is all about pills and managing conditions rather than cures
that y we gotta legalize cannabis
weed might actually help tbh but i'll only take edibles
i might have to move to california :/
what about vapin'
or a FAT SPLIFF
If you ever come to the east coast you can vape on our Volcano. n_u
ive never hit a volcano but i would certainly like to
right ow i would like to hit anything lol i miss cannabis
Quote from: YPargh on September 29, 2016, 07:05:39 PM
Quote from: the MIB the on September 29, 2016, 02:59:53 PM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 28, 2016, 04:35:29 AM
you should get some vitamin D supplements
THIS
Luckily I live in illinois where the sun doesn't mostly shine, though tbh most ppl's vit d levels are low on average. mine considerably high, so they recommended a dosage of 50,000ui of vit d2 for me
it works wonders for me at least
Quote from: ADX on September 28, 2016, 02:17:26 PM
https://www.google.com/search?q=duke+university+4+months+exercise+antidepressants&ie=utf-8&oe=utf-8
i guess it doesn't have to be cardio. also if want to get better at running there's couchto5k, i did that when i was a freshman and it worked for me, i can run a few miles now without stopping. i prefer biking over running though, it fucks up your knees less.
i really wish i could run further. I can only do like half a mile before i start fucking up because i have this thing called "exercise-induced asthma" diagnosed. it's when you only experience asthma-like symptoms after exercising, but mostly when running for me. i feel like im choking up on my own phlegm so I have to walk in the middle of jogs.
biking seems to be my only way of exercising the most efficiently.
I have that asthma problem too
But running inside a gym on a treadmill works for me. Can run 4 miles no problem. Outside in cool air I can barely go 2
wow actually same for me too with treadmills. i haven't been on one in some time bc i thought running outside shouldn't be an issue, but i really feel like i could run much better on them now that i think about it- i did in high school at least.
it's really weird
i started realizing something was wrong when i was 12
i said goodbye to that danish girl. its kind of fucked to have things end in like a....non emotional way? like a lot of times these things end in either like a) one or the other loses interest b) a shitty fight and hard feelings but this just kind of ran out of time.
Quote from: Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo on September 30, 2016, 12:38:02 AM
i said goodbye to that danish girl. its kind of fucked to have things end in like a....non emotional way? like a lot of times these things end in either like a) one or the other loses interest b) a shitty fight and hard feelings but this just kind of ran out of time.
yeah that is almost worse since you can't really blame it on anything besides the forces of life
make a grand gesture and follow her to europe lol
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 03:59:08 PM
I've been having nonstop belching for a year and finally doctors decided it might be a neuro issue
please don't be MS, ALS, Parkinson's, peripheral neuropathy, Huntington's or myasthenia gravis
Aren't some of those inherited? doodhuh;
Quote from: FAMY2 on September 30, 2016, 05:10:13 AM
Quote from: squirrelfriend on September 29, 2016, 03:59:08 PM
I've been having nonstop belching for a year and finally doctors decided it might be a neuro issue
please don't be MS, ALS, Parkinson's, peripheral neuropathy, Huntington's or myasthenia gravis
Aren't some of those inherited? doodhuh;
ya but they can happen spontaneously too
This one time my music theory professor started class late because he was busy eating chips at his desk.
This other time he started class late because he was talking to tech support for his laptop (that he didn't need for class).
Today he started class late because he started talking about occupy wall Street for 20 minutes.
Quote from: Buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo buffalo buffalo Buffalo buffalo on September 30, 2016, 12:38:02 AM
i said goodbye to that danish girl. its kind of fucked to have things end in like a....non emotional way? like a lot of times these things end in either like a) one or the other loses interest b) a shitty fight and hard feelings but this just kind of ran out of time.
Somehow my breakup managed to both A and B.
She's with another dude now. The dude she once punched in the face in a bar and screamed at him about how he raped her. Then cried and tried to kill herself that night while I'm there just trying to calm her down the whole time.
Yup.Im not upset about her moving on, I really feel nothing at this point other than confusion.
'music theory class' lol, gotta love america.
also david you haven'y been smoking bro? what a sin. i'll light one up for you later.
also corey, swedish chicks is where it's at, those danes can't be trusted.
Quote from: Socks on September 30, 2016, 03:07:49 PM
'music theory class' lol, gotta love america.
also david you haven'y been smoking bro? what a sin. i'll light one up for you later.
also corey, swedish chicks is where it's at, those danes can't be trusted.
dam i didnt know music theory was an american thing
Quote from: Socks on September 30, 2016, 03:07:49 PM
'music theory class' lol, gotta love america.
or any civilized nation since like the 18th century
music and in turn music education is important and part of what makes us human
i mean i'd get it if this were like
gender studies ifeelbetter;
Today was a hard day.
You guys may have known, but last month I lost my job because the business closed.
I was able to get a new job, that I do absolutely love, at Central Market - a very high-end grocery/cafe store.
So I got the job and it pays very well, somewhat close to what I was making. However, I started very late into the month...
Unemployment benefits were SHIT because Texas is stupid when it comes to this so I only made a little bit on money from unemployment. I only got two checks from Central Market for September (paid weekly) due to starting after the 15th.
I couldn't afford rent.
So today I sold all my Amiibo, my Wii U and games and accessories, my books, and my DVD's.
Thanks to that, I was able to afford rent and a few extra bills.
So yeah. 76 Amiibos, many of which had to be imported, all my Osamu Tezuka books...everything.
Heartbreaking. But I want my adventure in Dallas to continue, so I did what I had to do.
that is really unfortunate to hear tyler, hopefully things start to look up for you from here on out
I can't tell if you're serious or not but thank you.
A lot of the things I sold had sentimental value.
Collections that took years, gifts, stuff like that.
I appreciate it if you are serious.
yikes, sorry to hear that tyler goowan
Quote from: Classic on September 30, 2016, 04:24:50 PM
I can't tell if you're serious or not but thank you.
A lot of the things I sold had sentimental value.
Collections that took years, gifts, stuff like that.
I appreciate it if you are serious.
no im being serious
i couldnt imagine how i would feel if i had to sacrifice all my video game stuff
Quote from: Thyme on September 30, 2016, 04:11:59 PM
i mean i'd get it if this were like
gender studies ifeelbetter;
um i like gender studies as opposed to men's rights bullshit
"Men's rights activists worked to stop second-wave feminists from having influence in the gay rights movement, and promoted the idea of hyper-masculinity as an inherent part of gay sexuality."
gays don't even realize we normalized mra bullshit
gay people are literally nazi's
Quote from: Classic on September 30, 2016, 04:19:11 PM
Today was a hard day.
You guys may have known, but last month I lost my job because the business closed.
I was able to get a new job, that I do absolutely love, at Central Market - a very high-end grocery/cafe store.
So I got the job and it pays very well, somewhat close to what I was making. However, I started very late into the month...
Unemployment benefits were SHIT because Texas is stupid when it comes to this so I only made a little bit on money from unemployment. I only got two checks from Central Market for September (paid weekly) due to starting after the 15th.
I couldn't afford rent.
So today I sold all my Amiibo, my Wii U and games and accessories, my books, and my DVD's.
Thanks to that, I was able to afford rent and a few extra bills.
So yeah. 76 Amiibos, many of which had to be imported, all my Osamu Tezuka books...everything.
Heartbreaking. But I want my adventure in Dallas to continue, so I did what I had to do.
:( :( :(
i would have bought ur books
I waited two hours on a girl that was late to a date tonight. I ended up liking her a lot anyways.
We spent most of our time hugging and talking to their people playing pool next to us.
She was cool. And adorable oh god <\3
It seems like only girls with super short hair like me
Quote from: Classic on September 30, 2016, 04:19:11 PM
Today was a hard day.
You guys may have known, but last month I lost my job because the business closed.
I was able to get a new job, that I do absolutely love, at Central Market - a very high-end grocery/cafe store.
So I got the job and it pays very well, somewhat close to what I was making. However, I started very late into the month...
Unemployment benefits were SHIT because Texas is stupid when it comes to this so I only made a little bit on money from unemployment. I only got two checks from Central Market for September (paid weekly) due to starting after the 15th.
I couldn't afford rent.
So today I sold all my Amiibo, my Wii U and games and accessories, my books, and my DVD's.
Thanks to that, I was able to afford rent and a few extra bills.
So yeah. 76 Amiibos, many of which had to be imported, all my Osamu Tezuka books...everything.
Heartbreaking. But I want my adventure in Dallas to continue, so I did what I had to do.
I'm sorry to hear that Tyler, losing things you admire and cherish is an awful feeling no matter how much you try to tell yourself they're just objects. :( I know things will pick up for you, best wishes bud. happydood;
yo tyler, you gotta do whatever you can to stay focused on the big picture. being able to live and be/do something good and significant. all this stuff doesn't make you, you, just things that you will replace with bigger things called success and happiness, if you continue working hard and sacrificing.
and i know it sucks but you'll get over it, life goes on as tupac said.
#realthought/advice
Quote from: Classic on September 30, 2016, 04:19:11 PM
Today was a hard day.
You guys may have known, but last month I lost my job because the business closed.
I was able to get a new job, that I do absolutely love, at Central Market - a very high-end grocery/cafe store.
So I got the job and it pays very well, somewhat close to what I was making. However, I started very late into the month...
Unemployment benefits were SHIT because Texas is stupid when it comes to this so I only made a little bit on money from unemployment. I only got two checks from Central Market for September (paid weekly) due to starting after the 15th.
I couldn't afford rent.
So today I sold all my Amiibo, my Wii U and games and accessories, my books, and my DVD's.
Thanks to that, I was able to afford rent and a few extra bills.
So yeah. 76 Amiibos, many of which had to be imported, all my Osamu Tezuka books...everything.
Heartbreaking. But I want my adventure in Dallas to continue, so I did what I had to do.
damn that sucks dude :(
really sorry to hear that
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on September 30, 2016, 08:54:50 PM
We spent most of our time hugging and talking to their people playing pool next to us.
She was cool. And adorable oh god <\3
It seems like only girls with super short hair like me
I like you and have medium long hair.
Quote from: Classic on September 30, 2016, 04:19:11 PM
Today was a hard day.
You guys may have known, but last month I lost my job because the business closed.
I was able to get a new job, that I do absolutely love, at Central Market - a very high-end grocery/cafe store.
So I got the job and it pays very well, somewhat close to what I was making. However, I started very late into the month...
Unemployment benefits were SHIT because Texas is stupid when it comes to this so I only made a little bit on money from unemployment. I only got two checks from Central Market for September (paid weekly) due to starting after the 15th.
I couldn't afford rent.
So today I sold all my Amiibo, my Wii U and games and accessories, my books, and my DVD's.
Thanks to that, I was able to afford rent and a few extra bills.
So yeah. 76 Amiibos, many of which had to be imported, all my Osamu Tezuka books...everything.
Heartbreaking. But I want my adventure in Dallas to continue, so I did what I had to do.
Oh... wow... that's awful. You're going to be able to afford this month's rent right myface;
Thank you all for the kind words. I know they're just 'things', and while they had a lot of sentimental value, a roof over my head is more important and I have a lot more going for me here in Dallas than back home.
And yes Aubrey. I paid my bills for the month.
Edit: It was only September that gave me trouble. I'll be on a consistent pay system now.
you're a true warrior bro. fearless and strong.
not many people can do what you did, hold your head up high.
Quote from: Classic on September 30, 2016, 04:19:11 PM
Today was a hard day.
You guys may have known, but last month I lost my job because the business closed.
I was able to get a new job, that I do absolutely love, at Central Market - a very high-end grocery/cafe store.
So I got the job and it pays very well, somewhat close to what I was making. However, I started very late into the month...
Unemployment benefits were SHIT because Texas is stupid when it comes to this so I only made a little bit on money from unemployment. I only got two checks from Central Market for September (paid weekly) due to starting after the 15th.
I couldn't afford rent.
So today I sold all my Amiibo, my Wii U and games and accessories, my books, and my DVD's.
Thanks to that, I was able to afford rent and a few extra bills.
So yeah. 76 Amiibos, many of which had to be imported, all my Osamu Tezuka books...everything.
Heartbreaking. But I want my adventure in Dallas to continue, so I did what I had to do.
aww man :(
the thing with materials is that you can always build whatever you had back at the very least...
Today my ex's best friend messaged me wanting to hang out.
That is fucking weird. I have never ever hung out with that guy without my ex being there.
I probed for information.
I learned from him my ex is a coke addict and has alienated all of her friends. She lives with a guy who "raped" her and quit her job. No one speaks to her anymore. All of her friends think she's a shitty person now.
What the fuck
Just what the fuck
why do I still kind of care and why do I feel like me screaming at her during our last fight helped cause this
fuck
oh how i know that feel. though at least she isn't on drugs, she just hasn't changed at all and progressively became more kind of basic and boring. which i guess isn't the same thing. i still feel bad though.
I'm seeing her friend on Sunday. I still don't know why he wants to hang out. I feel like something is up, somehow I'm going to be asked to be involved in this. I figured it would be fine to just get a drink with him and see what's up, but fuck now there's a feeling of dread looming.
For once I feel my "I'm a damn retard" rank is appropriate
ugh
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 03, 2016, 04:21:46 PM
I'm seeing her friend on Sunday. I still don't know why he wants to hang out. I feel like something is up, somehow I'm going to be asked to be involved in this. I figured it would be fine to just get a drink with him and see what's up, but fuck now there's a feeling of dread looming.
For once I feel my "I'm a damn retard" rank is appropriate
ugh
It's good to get closure sometimes man. Cheers and good luck. happydood;
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 03, 2016, 04:21:46 PM
I'm seeing her friend on Sunday. I still don't know why he wants to hang out. I feel like something is up, somehow I'm going to be asked to be involved in this. I figured it would be fine to just get a drink with him and see what's up, but fuck now there's a feeling of dread looming.
For once I feel my "I'm a damn retard" rank is appropriate
ugh
hes probably lonely
my friend's ex always texts me to hang in private even though she's a she and only danced with me a couple of times with my friend there
i think its cos she's lonely: 3
I made a theater performance start 25 minutes late because the performers were too busy hugging me and trying to calm me down after my ex girlfriend walked through the door with her new boyfriend and our eyes meet and she gives me a condescending smile and then my heart won't stop racing and I can't stop violently shaking and everything is made ten times worse by the fact that I'm on mushrooms and now experiencing the worst trip ever
this is just where i go to tell shitty stories now
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 16, 2016, 09:22:25 PM
I made a theater performance start 25 minutes late because the performers were too busy hugging me and trying to calm me down after my ex girlfriend walked through the door with her new boyfriend and our eyes meet and she gives me a condescending smile and then my heart won't stop racing and I can't stop violently shaking and everything is made ten times worse by the fact that I'm on mushrooms and now experiencing the worst trip ever
this is just where i go to tell shitty stories now
i think sobriety would probably be good for you man. take some time to clear your head without any drugs. it seems like drugs are often making things worse for you instead of better
Quote from: Travis on October 16, 2016, 09:33:08 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 16, 2016, 09:22:25 PM
I made a theater performance start 25 minutes late because the performers were too busy hugging me and trying to calm me down after my ex girlfriend walked through the door with her new boyfriend and our eyes meet and she gives me a condescending smile and then my heart won't stop racing and I can't stop violently shaking and everything is made ten times worse by the fact that I'm on mushrooms and now experiencing the worst trip ever
this is just where i go to tell shitty stories now
i think sobriety would probably be good for you man. take some time to clear your head without any drugs. it seems like drugs are often making things worse for you instead of better
does that also mean sobriety from the 3 different medications my psychiatrist has me taking
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 16, 2016, 09:58:37 PM
Quote from: Travis on October 16, 2016, 09:33:08 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 16, 2016, 09:22:25 PM
I made a theater performance start 25 minutes late because the performers were too busy hugging me and trying to calm me down after my ex girlfriend walked through the door with her new boyfriend and our eyes meet and she gives me a condescending smile and then my heart won't stop racing and I can't stop violently shaking and everything is made ten times worse by the fact that I'm on mushrooms and now experiencing the worst trip ever
this is just where i go to tell shitty stories now
i think sobriety would probably be good for you man. take some time to clear your head without any drugs. it seems like drugs are often making things worse for you instead of better
does that also mean sobriety from the 3 different medications my psychiatrist has me taking
no, just any drugs that you are willingly ingesting for mind altering effect
sorry it didnt go well:[
gf's car got towed only because we forgot to put the fucking permit in the car in time
really needed that $220, now I'm just fucked until january probably
They switched my antidepressant to Wellbutrin, and now it's made it completely impossible to sleep.
I have been up until 6am the last three nights (7am tonight). I can get so much more done now that I no longer sleep, but I am so incredibly, incredibly tired.
you could go to, idk, the gym instead of killing your brain on that garbage
I have a good job, great girlfriend, drive a sports car and currently looking at buying my own house...but im not happy? i dunno, maybe this is drunk me taking but if the world were to end next week i don't think i'd even care?
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 07:33:54 AM
I have a good job, great girlfriend, drive a sports car and currently looking at buying my own house...but im not happy? i dunno, maybe this is drunk me taking but if the world were to end next week i don't think i'd even care?
LIFE gimpdood; gimpdood;
what do you think would make you happy?
well what are you giving back to the world?
most people dont give anything and do nothing. and they wonder why they feel empty. hedonism is boring. though obv theres no definitive answer to that one, otherwise everyone would already be doing it. but it makes a difference.
i feel like human happiness peaked in the village stage, because everyone needed everyone.
im listening to this right now so i feel like it makes my musings drunk
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lPD5PtqMiE&feature=youtu.be
kendrick describing here how i feel irl
https://youtu.be/4lPD5PtqMiE?t=30m53s
which makes me wonder the value of being busy. it's like a reverse fountain of youth.
Quote from: ADX on October 22, 2016, 09:46:20 AM
i feel like human happiness peaked in the village stage, because everyone needed everyone.
i agree
have you read island?
nope, by who?
My life is not only sad but the most "That will never happen" Happens all the time.
It's crushing my sanity.
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 07:33:54 AM
I have a good job, great girlfriend, drive a sports car and currently looking at buying my own house...but im not happy? i dunno, maybe this is drunk me taking but if the world were to end next week i don't think i'd even care?
lol im never drinking tequila again
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 04:52:12 PM
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 07:33:54 AM
I have a good job, great girlfriend, drive a sports car and currently looking at buying my own house...but im not happy? i dunno, maybe this is drunk me taking but if the world were to end next week i don't think i'd even care?
lol im never drinking tequila again
Liar. lol
i haven't been drunk in so long i don't even remember, and when i am drunk i don't seem to be having fun because i am still me in my mind and things are still the same. i don't get how people can ever blame 'being drunk' for anything, i never got that one.
there is not much to complain about, everything is headed in the right direction, just gotta have that earth, sunshine and rain to let the roots grow the flowers blossom but one day, i will have a big happy family to smell the roses and that is all i really want.
pretty smiles on pretty little faces with laughter and bright eyes abound.
Quote from: FAMY2 on October 22, 2016, 07:28:33 PM
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 04:52:12 PM
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 07:33:54 AM
I have a good job, great girlfriend, drive a sports car and currently looking at buying my own house...but im not happy? i dunno, maybe this is drunk me taking but if the world were to end next week i don't think i'd even care?
lol im never drinking tequila again
Liar. lol
it's true, i do say that every 2 years
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 21, 2016, 03:51:41 AM
They switched my antidepressant to Wellbutrin, and now it's made it completely impossible to sleep.
I have been up until 6am the last three nights (7am tonight). I can get so much more done now that I no longer sleep, but I am so incredibly, incredibly tired.
LITT
wellbutrin never worked for me but i know how its like falling asleep at 6-8 am...its terribly exhausting and agitating
i think my root cause is drinking concentrated coffee casually with adderall
without stimulants i get groggy and tired
...i think im developing a coffee addiction lol
Quote from: ADX on October 21, 2016, 07:51:41 AM
you could go to, idk, the gym instead of killing your brain on that garbage
lol
a depressive couldn't be able to consistently go to the gym and you don't feel the lift from endorphins until you're 4-6 months in
Quote from: ADX on October 22, 2016, 09:46:20 AM
well what are you giving back to the world?
most people dont give anything and do nothing. and they wonder why they feel empty. hedonism is boring. though obv theres no definitive answer to that one, otherwise everyone would already be doing it. but it makes a difference.
i feel like human happiness peaked in the village stage, because everyone needed everyone.
sounds like nostalgia
you have more opportunities to be happy (lol why even persue a single emotion anyways) in modern life anyways, you just have to have discernment and emotions
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 22, 2016, 08:38:22 PM
you have more opportunities to be happy (lol why even persue a single emotion anyways) in modern life anyways, you just have to have discernment and emotions
not really as to be truly happy you need other people. the fool on the hill may have seen the world spinning round and grinning but he grinned at his own loneliness and misery. and there in lies the dilemma as today most people suck and to find the happy few (as stendhal said) and enjoy life together is almost an impossible task as you are whirled about a million miles an hour by strings and forces you can hardly imagine or see.
i think you're confusing modernity with individualism (modernity has numerous faces; professionalism, secularization, industrialization, technological progress, etc.)
i was speaking more of its transitory nature, when time itself becomes ruptured and gives rise to an anxious future because of the immense uncertainty and dizzying quickness
once time is experienced as eternal, it either becomes absolutely terrifying (because there's nothing to fill it in with, spirituality is too antiquated) or beautiful if you fill it with love (which is very rare and rather...unpopular within the market unless its an image of love, a love without any of the pain or effort)
modernity grants you immense flexibility but i guess you have to be a sort of trickster to get by
To not get tricked by market consciousness, doublethinks, self-conciousness/awareness, and yet understanding them well enough to escape
its paradoxical
Quote from: القرقة on October 22, 2016, 08:38:22 PM
a depressive couldn't be able to consistently go to the gym and you don't feel the lift from endorphins until you're 4-6 months in
not true, you'll feel fresh after a good run/lift immediately. deadlifts, squats, all hit you with the fuzzy feelings immediately, though while you're doing them you might want to throw up. the first day i lifted weights i was addicted. though im sure youll tell me then that "that's just you" and it "doesn't apply to me im too special". though yeah long term effects supposedly kick in after 4 months.
so, you know.
Quote from: ADX on October 22, 2016, 10:21:32 PM
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 22, 2016, 08:38:22 PM
a depressive couldn't be able to consistently go to the gym and you don't feel the lift from endorphins until you're 4-6 months in
not true, you'll feel fresh after a good run/lift immediately. deadlifts, squats, all hit you with the fuzzy feelings immediately, though while you're doing them you might want to throw up. the first day i lifted weights i was addicted. though im sure youll tell me then that "that's just you" and it "doesn't apply to me im too special". though yeah long term effects supposedly kick in after 4 months.
so, you know.
everyone's body reacts differently lol
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 08:27:35 PM
Quote from: FAMY2 on October 22, 2016, 07:28:33 PM
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 04:52:12 PM
Quote from: Hyper on October 22, 2016, 07:33:54 AM
I have a good job, great girlfriend, drive a sports car and currently looking at buying my own house...but im not happy? i dunno, maybe this is drunk me taking but if the world were to end next week i don't think i'd even care?
lol im never drinking tequila again
Liar. lol
it's true, i do say that every 2 years
Ha ha. :3
Quote from: Socks on October 22, 2016, 09:09:07 PM
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 22, 2016, 08:38:22 PM
you have more opportunities to be happy (lol why even persue a single emotion anyways) in modern life anyways, you just have to have discernment and emotions
not really as to be truly happy you need other people. the fool on the hill may have seen the world spinning round and grinning but he grinned at his own loneliness and misery. and there in lies the dilemma as today most people suck and to find the happy few (as stendhal said) and enjoy life together is almost an impossible task as you are whirled about a million miles an hour by strings and forces you can hardly imagine or see.
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 22, 2016, 09:54:40 PM
i think you're confusing modernity with individualism (modernity has numerous faces; professionalism, secularization, industrialization, technological progress, etc.)
i was speaking more of its transitory nature, when time itself becomes ruptured and gives rise to an anxious future because of the immense uncertainty and dizzying quickness
once time is experienced as eternal, it either becomes absolutely terrifying (because there's nothing to fill it in with, spirituality is too antiquated) or beautiful if you fill it with love (which is very rare and rather...unpopular within the market unless its an image of love, a love without any of the pain or effort)
modernity grants you immense flexibility but i guess you have to be a sort of trickster to get by
To not get tricked by market consciousness, doublethinks, self-conciousness/awareness, and yet understanding them well enough to escape
Now I have something to think about and analyze the whole week. You two make me think way too much. n_u
Quote from: ADX on October 22, 2016, 10:21:32 PM
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 22, 2016, 08:38:22 PM
a depressive couldn't be able to consistently go to the gym and you don't feel the lift from endorphins until you're 4-6 months in
not true, you'll feel fresh after a good run/lift immediately. deadlifts, squats, all hit you with the fuzzy feelings immediately, though while you're doing them you might want to throw up. the first day i lifted weights i was addicted. though im sure youll tell me then that "that's just you" and it "doesn't apply to me im too special". though yeah long term effects supposedly kick in after 4 months.
so, you know.
>muslims
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 22, 2016, 08:38:22 PM
Quote from: Placebo Headwound on October 21, 2016, 03:51:41 AM
They switched my antidepressant to Wellbutrin, and now it's made it completely impossible to sleep.
I have been up until 6am the last three nights (7am tonight). I can get so much more done now that I no longer sleep, but I am so incredibly, incredibly tired.
LITT
wellbutrin never worked for me but i know how its like falling asleep at 6-8 am...its terribly exhausting and agitating
i think my root cause is drinking concentrated coffee casually with adderall
without stimulants i get groggy and tired
...i think im developing a coffee addiction lol
It's really weird. It worked for a week but I think it's lost its effectiveness. For a week or two I was talking too much and felt OK. Now all it seems to do to me is give me insane insomnia. I just stay up all night frustrated, think way too much, and just end up in a depressive mood eventually.
Ugh.
I've had a coffee addictions for years now I don't think it really affects me much anymore.
i just got back from the gym and feel really good. but i know everyone's special and totally different, so i guess i should just check my privilege or something
not aimed at thief but people who actually think le gym requires a lifetimes investment before you feel any mood boosters. yall hell of dumb.
bro i've been back from the gym and it was so glorious that i am still working out watching game one of the world series. i enjoy feeling the pump, the blood rushing, the muscles getting bigger, as arnold said, it feels like cumming.
In addition to Vitamin D, Thief you should ask your doctor about melatonin supplements
Also, be sure to have enough magnesium
Quote from: ADX on October 25, 2016, 02:48:54 PM
i just got back from the gym and feel really good. but i know everyone's special and totally different, so i guess i should just check my privilege or something
not aimed at thief but people who actually think le gym requires a lifetimes investment before you feel any mood boosters. yall hell of dumb.
but it does
also i feel like a fat fuck if i don't do HIIT on cardio
it has to be painful
but i do feel very nice after 45 mins of running
weight lifting doesn't do much for me cognitively
Quote from: اÙ,,Ù,رÙ,Ø© on October 27, 2016, 10:24:15 PM
Quote from: ADX on October 25, 2016, 02:48:54 PM
i just got back from the gym and feel really good. but i know everyone's special and totally different, so i guess i should just check my privilege or something
not aimed at thief but people who actually think le gym requires a lifetimes investment before you feel any mood boosters. yall hell of dumb.
but it does
also i feel like a fat fuck if i don't do HIIT on cardio
it has to be painful
sounds like a personal problem
i dont know if it is or not yet lol
i plan to cut my exercises by a bit next month to bulk
i cut down my chubby fat percentage down to a 9% when i was a 16% 8 months ago
im getting really good rhr gains doing low intensity short cardio. like 30 min total. this morning i woke up and was at 54 bpm which is better than i was getting doing moderate intensity hour long cardio. in high school i was regularly around the upper 90s/low 100s, though i measured that during the day. right now im at ~78, which i guess isn't too bad.
what do you eat
My bpm is around 180 then goes down to 160 when im being normal lol
im really happy ill be doing low intensity cardio soon
suprisingly im still getting strength but my gains are pretty slow
i don't really mind cos all i wanted was a 6 pack
160 bpm resting seems pretty concerning
lol it clearly isn't resting its when i run
ohhh.gotcha
exercise just seems too hard for me so I just let my body manage it
I'm afraid of losing too much weight though
have you tried using self hatred as a motivator
tbh a lot of white rice. i dont eat very clean.
yeah so the weird thing i was noticing was that when i do moderate intensity cardio for an hour, i was doing that for I guess about 2 months and instead of my rhr or regular day to day heart rate going down, my heart rate while doing cardio was going down. so i can barely push myself over like 140 these days even if im biking like 100 rpm, i used to get up to like 170. weight lifting especially leg stuff gets me up to like 160 bpm but yeah i was getting more efficient at exercising not at existing which was what i was going for.
still not enough because apparently I just like myself too much apparently
I don't really get much time to go to a gym but I think I might start it for a month again
I would need a personal trainer to begin with
not really but alright
Quote from: ADX on October 27, 2016, 11:10:19 PM
tbh a lot of white rice. i dont eat very clean.
yeah so the weird thing i was noticing was that when i do moderate intensity cardio for an hour, i was doing that for I guess about 2 months and instead of my rhr or regular day to day heart rate going down, my heart rate while doing cardio was going down. so i can barely push myself over like 140 these days even if im biking like 100 rpm, i used to get up to like 170. weight lifting especially leg stuff gets me up to like 160 bpm but yeah i was getting more efficient at exercising not at existing which was what i was going for.
>had abs prior to exercising
ab privilege
how do you measure your bpm via weight lifting
free weights kinda piss me off but i really like using the rack
just when i get back on the bike after lifting lol it has a built in sensor