according to the elton john song i feel like a bullet in the gun of robert ford, elton tells us that he tried not to look as he walked to his wagon, and realized then that he had lost what should have been found. what do you do, boyah citizens? i find often that i too, try not to look as i walk to my wagon.
I don't look at my wagon either.
falling off the wagon refers to relapsing back into an addiction
not looking while walking to a wagon must symbolize blindly heading into a treatment for your addiction because you are afraid to think of the consequences of going clean & sober. You know it must be done but you fear seeing the damage along the way.