Today, dear Boyah, I am sad.
Today, dear Boyah, I am overwhelmed.
Today, dear Boyah, I am lazy.
Today, dear Boyah, I am lonely.
Today, dear Boyah, I want to escape.
Today, dear Boyah, I don't know what to do.
I just lie in bed and repress everything like Clucky. Also, stop being sober.
Quote from: applesauce on November 30, 2011, 08:11:58 AM
Today, dear Boyah, I am sad.
Today, dear Boyah, I am overwhelmed.
Today, dear Boyah, I am lazy.
Today, dear Boyah, I am lonely.
Today, dear Boyah, I want to escape.
Today, dear Boyah, I don't know what to do.
you need to redevelop some sort of circadian rhythm. IF you haven't already.
also I am you.
I want to go to the lake or to the conservatory or to the roofs or the basements but I cannot do any of these things for various reasons.
This is the worst week.
GO BACK TO SLEEP GOD DAMN
Gurrrrrrrrrrrrrl
[youtube]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sstY_MI3skE[/youtube]
C'mon applesauce, sing it with me, O0ohhh Girl!
She never eats, she never sleeps. She never goes to class. She just sits outside of Allen all day smoking cigarettes.
***You really don't seem lazy though?!?! I hope you figure you're stuff out that's sad, don't think about yourself like that. It makes it worse. Acknowledge your weak points and try to fix them. Not self deprecating!
Well I took Socks' advice. Two shots and a pair of 30mg sudafeds and here I goooo
Quote from: applesauce on November 30, 2011, 09:58:12 AM
Well I took Socks' advice. Two shots and a pair of 30mg sudafeds and here I goooo
I will drink in your honor on my way to class.
Alcohol is not the answer SMOKE SOME WEED AND FACE YOUR PROBLEMS
Quote from: eeeeeee on November 30, 2011, 09:44:36 AM
She never eats, she never sleeps. She never goes to class. She just sits outside of Allen all day smoking cigarettes.
***You really don't seem lazy though?!?! I hope you figure you're stuff out that's sad, don't think about yourself like that. It makes it worse. Acknowledge your weak points and try to fix them. Not self deprecating!
Yeah, self depreciation is really the killer. It's so easy to fall into that whole "woe is me" mindset and that ultimately takes over in the end. When you say it out loud, you're just confirming things.
Even if things are shit, you have to absolutely kill those self-perceptions. Fuel on the fire.
Quote from: eeeeeee on November 30, 2011, 10:10:30 AM
Alcohol is not the answer SMOKE SOME WEED AND FACE YOUR PROBLEMS
I have found that very little of the problems are actually mine. I am just forced to deal with them anyway.
Go for a run. Endorphins man
Quote from: Boognish-Redux- on November 30, 2011, 10:11:11 AM
Yeah, self depreciation is really the killer. It's so easy to fall into that whole "woe is me" mindset and that ultimately takes over in the end. When you say it out loud, you're just confirming things.
Even if things are shit, you have to absolutely kill those self-perceptions. Fuel on the fire.
exactly.
It's the worst to say these things out loud... to others omg the worst. I like to pretend that if I keep them in my head Space Invaders come get them and they go away to n othing
"if nobody knows then it's space invaders"
Quote from: eeeeeee on November 30, 2011, 10:20:49 AM
exactly.
It's the worst to say these things out loud... to others omg the worst. I like to pretend that if I keep them in my head Space Invaders come get them and they go away to n othing
"if nobody knows then it's space invaders"
that's pretty cute but when I keep things to myself I usually get either angry or depressed. Sometimes letting out all the pressure is cathartic
Why let out unsurables and insecurities? I project myself and figure if I am able to make another feel happy and pleased then what it the issue cannot really be such a serious and fatal thing. I know exactly what I must do, whether I do it or not is entierly a different matter. How we balance out the rest is exactly what makes or breakes us.
Quote from: Socks on November 30, 2011, 12:05:52 PM
Why let out unsurables and insecurities? I project myself and figure if I am able to make another feel happy and pleased then what it the issue cannot really be such a serious and fatal thing. I know exactly what I must do, whether I do it or not is entierly a different matter. How we balance out the rest is exactly what makes or breakes us.
This is Extroverted Feeling
Quote from: eeeeeee on November 30, 2011, 10:20:49 AM
exactly.
It's the worst to say these things out loud... to others omg the worst. I like to pretend that if I keep them in my head Space Invaders come get them and they go away to n othing
"if nobody knows then it's space invaders"
This is Introverted Feeling
spam;
Boyah is a huge bitching/unsettled vent for me. I don't often talk about the things I talk about her in real life. I did when there was a woman, but now that I am alone, it's all you, Boyah.
i make jokes about suicide and then feel better.
Quote from: silvertone on November 30, 2011, 01:13:46 PM
i make jokes about suicide and then feel better.
It gets better.
it gets better alll the tiiiime [thyme]
I am a train
Boyah is the same outlet for me, to a source that is wile and free, not bound by wires or even gravity. I wrte letters and little entries but it is not the same as my homies, here and elsewhere in this world. I would rather tell myself personally to a stranger or some obscure thing, than to my friends and family. They know a different side of me, the mundane and everyday being. But you, you see me for who I am, because I can and I do share myself fully. I do not think that I said and extroverted ideology, but, I am prerty contradicting so who knows.
Quote from: NPR on November 30, 2011, 10:24:48 AM
that's pretty cute but when I keep things to myself I usually get either angry or depressed. Sometimes letting out all the pressure is cathartic
I feel better about it when nobody knows I think because I always remember that "This too shall pass"
Quote from: eeeeeee on November 30, 2011, 10:20:49 AM
exactly.
It's the worst to say these things out loud... to others omg the worst. I like to pretend that if I keep them in my head Space Invaders come get them and they go away to n othing
"if nobody knows then it's space invaders"
i do this but to the extreme
and then i feel very horrible that i've kept everything to myself that whenever i *do* let everything out, it comes out as a weak, sullen, wet mess
what i do now is just let it 'out', but to myself externally--usually via work so it won't die out in memory banks
it doesn't help because i find my byproducts wonderful and it reinforces my behavior--but maybe it does help?
what if there's nothing wrong with my behavior and it's just the perception of others that it is?
then if that's true then my only route is self-acceptance~
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