ITT We discuss our feelings because there is currently no one available IRL for you to do such. n_n
I am depressed and even though I have a lot of friends I find some way to be lonely. Life sucks :D
I keep my feelings inside. giggle;
I keep my feelings inside ME## giggle;
u cna talk to me...............noT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
my only feeling...is RAGE RRRRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Blowing life and don't give a fuck sillydood;
Quote from: Ashitaka on April 16, 2011, 11:40:03 PM
Blowing life and don't give a fuck sillydood;
oh bullshit, you do too care
He's afraid to show it! Is that so wrong?
I currently feel conflicted because I forgave my ex of being an evil person and recognized her as just a different kind of person... I apologized for calling her a bitch last weekend but with less animosity between us I miss her more. Sigh I want to remain friends or even just civil but it always seems to backfire on me
Quote from: carpentrice on April 17, 2011, 12:35:48 AM
He's afraid to show it! Is that so wrong?
No, but it's not healthy either
Quote from: YPR on April 17, 2011, 01:00:26 AM
No, but it's not healthy either
No but really, the only thing I really care about is my mom's reaction. I'm fine with my life.
YPR, how does it backfire?
Because then I get re-attached and depressed; thinking of all the good times we had together and feeling confused as to why it had to end. When things are hostile it's much easier to go without thinking about what could have been
It sounds like you're trying to be the bigger guy and keep away from hostility and judgement, which is great and moral and all . If she's endlessly goading you back, though, then there really isn't much you can do. Sorry to talk by comparison, but my partner needs to spend a few months away from her exes before they can be, because its easier than trying to wade through all the spewing pus from the open wound of their breakup. I dunno. Maybe now's not the time to fix it. /goingonandon
Yeah I was considering saving the apology letter for the end of the year but I hate having people made at me so I caved early... I'm sure I'll be fine once I'm home for summer but for right now I can't help the way I feel really
i love being voluntarily celibate
I'm OK.
There is good to make balance with bad. ^_^
I'm feeling pretty good. Disappointed about the date I had the other night, though. It was the second date I had with this girl. I paid for a meal at a nice Italian restaurant, I made her laugh and smile all night, we talked for hours, and I STILL haven't gotten so much as a KISS. I took her to a park after dinner because she wanted to go somewhere relaxing, and nothing happened.
Meanwhile, she's asking me things like, "Joe, do you believe in love? What did you think of me when we first met?" Really? How does this make any sense?
I'm looking for a short-term girlfriend, not a freaking wife.
Quote from: yoseph on April 17, 2011, 02:31:29 PM
I'm feeling pretty good. Disappointed about the date I had the other night, though. It was the second date I had with this girl. I paid for a meal at a nice Italian restaurant, I made her laugh and smile all night, we talked for hours, and I STILL haven't gotten so much as a KISS. I took her to a park after dinner because she wanted to go somewhere relaxing, and nothing happened.
Meanwhile, she's asking me things like, "Joe, do you believe in love? What did you think of me when we first met?" Really? How does this make any sense?
I'm looking for a short-term girlfriend, not a freaking wife.
It took a few weeks for me to get a kiss from my lady.
I took her out on the 5th of December and we went out a few times after that. She first came over my house on 24 December and I thought it went well (kind of awkward since we didn't discuss out relationship at that point yet and my family kept saying she was my girlfriend). She made a comment about wanting to sleep over but her mom wouldn't let her stay out. I went to kiss her when I dropped her off and she pulled away. I was so embarrassed. >.<
She came over the following Monday and not much happened. I took her and her friend out the next Wednesday (29th of December) and she kissed me when I went to hug her before she got out of the car. giggle; giggle; giggle;
I'm looking for a long as possible girlfriend and/or wifey baddood;
Also my feelings are very frustrated right now. akudood; She's been in the hospital for almost a month now.
I've not completed any classwork in over 3 weeks, and I think I've been to class (well not counting weight lifting where I've been every time except once because I was too tired to get out of bed) once in that period. I miss her.
I don't think the doctors realize how frustrating it is for either of us to only be able to see the only person you've loved for an hour and a half a day, 3 days per week (visiting hours run during my work shift monday-thursday) under complete supervision by doctors, nurses, and interruption by other patients FOR ALMOST A MONTH
It is awful wariodood;
First week I dealt with it by just doing a shitload of adderall and caffeine since I couldn't sleep. Now I'm just stuck where I was when I did not feel much and was a dick who got to feel stuff by only being wreckless cjlubdoods;
She should be out this week I hope.
idk
it's been 3 months and i'm still sad about it
What's the point of a short term girlfriend?
Quote from: Thyme on April 17, 2011, 02:56:25 PM
idk
it's been 3 months and i'm still sad about it
Me too 5thgrade;
We'll find someone else eventually
Quote from: YPR on April 17, 2011, 03:22:42 PM
What's the point of a short term girlfriend? Me too 5thgrade;
a bro's gotta have his
sex
Quote from: Kotomaru on April 17, 2011, 03:27:00 PM
a bro's gotta have his sex
You can have sex without the emotional attachment; creating a situation in which you're exclusive only causes attachment and then would make the end of the relationship harder than it needs to be unless both parties are aware it's only a limited time arrangement... In which case you're fuckbuddies, not a couple
Quote from: YPR on April 17, 2011, 03:22:42 PM
What's the point of a short term girlfriend?
I'm simply not actively looking for a long-term relationship. If I get into a relationship, and it lasts a long time, that's fine. But it's not what I'm looking for, and it's definitely not something I need nor want at this time. I'm not even completely sure where I'll be going to school in the fall. Why would I want to get so emotionally attached to someone, only to break it up a couple months later because I'll be away at school? I don't need that unnecessary anxiety.
Plus, it's beginning to become clear that this girl is pretty high maintenance. She wears expensive clothes on our dates and is always talking about eating out at expensive restaurants. No thank you.
why date her at all if you know it's going to end soon befuddlement
Quote from: Swirly Glasses on April 17, 2011, 05:17:31 PM
why date her at all if you know it's going to end soon befuddlement
to own her and play with her feelings
Quote from: Swirly Glasses on April 17, 2011, 05:17:31 PM
why date her at all if you know it's going to end soon befuddlement
She asked me out to go see a play with her. goonish
Plus she's pretty cute, but she's got a lot of issues I'd rather not have to deal with.
It's been nine months, and I still think about my ex every day. I would never want to date him again, but he STILL haunts me. akudood;
Love sucks.
And yet it's the best feeling when you're in it giggle;
I'm so bored, that's why I'm here right now. Couldn't really find a better site to go on and I was like "Oh yeah that Boyah place Snowy goes on."
I know the feeling well
Yeah cause you got like 30 million posts. :P I would come on here more if I knew where the fuck to post. It seems like most of the boards don't function like Sports that I'm actually interested in.
Quote from: cookieboy17 on April 18, 2011, 05:24:27 PM
Yeah cause you got like 30 million posts. :P I would come on here more if I knew where the fuck to post. It seems like most of the boards don't function like Sports that I'm actually interested in.
Post and replies will come!
I ate 4 hits of great LSD and went to see Animal Collective on Saturday (at Coachella) there set was beautiful but the person I love most/my best friend ate 3 tabs and was getting really sick. We were all so dehyrdrated. The girl left and my brother was tripping out (3 hits) and this girl thought she was going to die.
And I had areally good trip, but she left during Arcade Fire and I started to feel really alone because Icouldn't communicate with anybody but her and Ididn't see her for afew hours.
then yesterday I cried for 14 hours and I feel kind of empty and not much like aperson but ihaven't eaten since saturday morning and maybe it's that. I'm not sure. I'm going to her house soon. Yesterday she left me around 1 PM and told meshe would find me(I didn't have my phone) she had to go talk to this boy who was sad because they used to tell eachother they were in love, but I think she likes me better now. He lives in NY but was at Coachella.
I didn't see her until 11 during The Strokes.
I still am very sad. But I know I won't always be sad. but I am sad now. But better. It just hurts a lot to be here now.
Are you still in California?
Hannah got quite sick yesterday, and her friends lost her from like 10pm until 9am today.
Hope you feel better soon though.
we drove back last night. I have to go to school because finals are soonish and I need to get shit done.
I'm sick, too. I took MDMA yesterday and rolled-ish by myself but that just made everything hurt more profoundly.
I can't imagine being lost that long... did she not haveaphone? did she camp?
Quote from: eeeeeee on April 18, 2011, 07:36:24 PM
we drove back last night. I have to go to school because finals are soonish and I need to get shit done.
I'm sick, too. I took MDMA yesterday and rolled-ish by myself but that just made everything hurt more profoundly.
I can't imagine being lost that long... did she not haveaphone? did she camp?
She didn't have a phone, our phones have been inactive for about a month or so. They were staying at a friend's house who lived nearby.
They found her at the medical tent after filing a police report.
whoooaaa that'd be scary.
there are so many people there. Idon't think Iwant togoto a festival of that size again.
Quote from: eeeeeee on April 18, 2011, 08:14:12 PM
whoooaaa that'd be scary.
there are so many people there. Idon't think Iwant togoto a festival of that size again.
yeah, it must have been a pretty bad time.
It looked like there was just a constant sea of people, which would probably make things less than ideal. Still, I wish I could have gone.
TOO MANY PEOPLE
http://lightninginabottle.org/
the best Coachella stage is putting that on.
While I'm fine with being single (it's much cheaper), I still miss being close to someone.
I block most emotional attachments towards me. They're all horrible people. I can't love again. 5thgrade;
Will this happen to me? >.<
Quote from: jCandy on April 19, 2011, 02:43:46 AM
Will this happen to me? >.<
No. You're too cute. cjlubdoods;
Quote from: Tyler on April 18, 2011, 09:01:43 PM
I can't love again. 5thgrade;
Me too. I'm broken sillydood;
I really am not sure what to do.
This girl...
I think my next feelings step is to make money and be separate.
So... a not so happy ending?
I'm sorry if that's the case
In regards to her it's as happy as it's going to be. I think I am going back over there later and I spent the night last night. I'm not sad about her or me & her or her liking anybody because I know she doesn't feel around other people like she does with me. I was trying to talk to her and she started to kiss me. It's just a really weird friendship. She's the prettiest person I've ever met, I think.
I just don't really know how to be here without hurting. I need to find the next step
Quote from: Guy on April 19, 2011, 05:41:21 AM
Me too. I'm broken sillydood;
I'm not broken, just scared. :(
irritated because i'm stuck on some terribly boring "vacation" all week when i'd be far happier at home smithicide;
I'm in love. cjlubdoods;
blah:
[spoiler] I'm working on two shows both going up this week. Director for the first one is channeling much of his stress into me and everything seems like it's my fault. It took a flat falling on me today for him to express to me that I was doing an acceptable job, and that my work in the past week and a half, often without necessary help, while having the flu, including 30 hours of build between Friday afternoon and Sunday morning, mattered at all. Getting up at 5am tomorrow, and skipping my second class for him. I just want this to be over. Thankfully the other show is going fine.
Today I read a Dissociative Identity Disorder 101 by multiple themselves. It was super enlightening and really opened up a conversation about psychology and social justice. Shit like soulbonding, fronting, alter, median, systems, co-conciousness, integration, and perspectives on therapy.
I'm planning on drinking myself into oblivion on Saturday night and spending Sunday comatose, not sure if that's a healthy response to the amount of pressure I'm in or if it's giving into said pressure.
I need a really good and long orgasm right about now.
Next year I'll be working two jobs (hopefully), doing carpentry for 4-5 department shows, taking nearly max credits, working on my triple major, and eating/working in a coop. It's all beautiful fucking work, with awesome purpose; right now I can't feel it and I just got a huge warning on burning out.
My room has looked and smelled like shit for a month now, and I can barely take care of my self. More than anything I want him to beat the shit out of me.
I started today with hugs, affection, and care from people I never expected to recieve it from. Fucking beautiful solidarity. And I can go home to my boyfriend.[/spoiler]
7e, we're not acquainted, but good luck on your shit, don't let anybody compromise you.
Quote from: Khadafi on April 19, 2011, 08:16:43 PM
I'm in love. cjlubdoods;
giggle;
Quote from: Tyler on April 19, 2011, 05:52:48 PM
I'm not broken, just scared. :(
Me too.... saddood;
Let's love each other. yes;
Quote from: Khadafi on April 19, 2011, 08:16:43 PM
I'm in love. cjlubdoods;
akudood;
Quote from: carpentrice on April 19, 2011, 08:19:58 PM
blah:
[spoiler] I'm working on two shows both going up this week. Director for the first one is channeling much of his stress into me and everything seems like it's my fault. It took a flat falling on me today for him to express to me that I was doing an acceptable job, and that my work in the past week and a half, often without necessary help, while having the flu, including 30 hours of build between Friday afternoon and Sunday morning, mattered at all. Getting up at 5am tomorrow, and skipping my second class for him. I just want this to be over. Thankfully the other show is going fine.
Today I read a Dissociative Identity Disorder 101 by multiple themselves. It was super enlightening and really opened up a conversation about psychology and social justice. Shit like soulbonding, fronting, alter, median, systems, co-conciousness, integration, and perspectives on therapy.
I'm planning on drinking myself into oblivion on Saturday night and spending Sunday comatose, not sure if that's a healthy response to the amount of pressure I'm in or if it's giving into said pressure.
I need a really good and long orgasm right about now.
Next year I'll be working two jobs (hopefully), doing carpentry for 4-5 department shows, taking nearly max credits, working on my triple major, and eating/working in a coop. It's all beautiful fucking work, with awesome purpose; right now I can't feel it and I just got a huge warning on burning out.
My room has looked and smelled like shit for a month now, and I can barely take care of my self. More than anything I want him to beat the shit out of me.
I started today with hugs, affection, and care from people I never expected to recieve it from. Fucking beautiful solidarity. And I can go home to my boyfriend.[/spoiler]
7e, we're not acquainted, but good luck on your shit, don't let anybody compromise you.
giggle;
you have a boyfriend now? what happened to your girlfriend?
You seem to be working extremely hard. That's really great. wrench;
[spoiler]eeeeeee is skylark n_u[/spoiler]
Quote from: Ashitaka on April 19, 2011, 08:26:41 PM
you have a boyfriend now? what happened to your girlfriend?
You seem to be working extremely hard. That's really great. wrench;
[spoiler]eeeeeee is skylark n_u[/spoiler]
blah polyamory blah we're extremely happy blah
But what's it for, y'know? You can't just throw effort into holes, it has to be well spent.
[spoiler]heyyyy[/spoiler]
Quote from: carpentrice on April 19, 2011, 08:29:22 PM
blah polyamory blah we're extremely happy blah
But what's it for, y'know? You can't just throw effort into holes, it has to be well spent.
[spoiler]heyyyy[/spoiler]
Polyamory? Awww... Is it good? My ex boyfriend and I always discussed the possibility because it interested us. We never found another though.
Quote from: carpentrice on April 19, 2011, 08:29:22 PM
blah polyamory blah we're extremely happy blah
But what's it for, y'know? You can't just throw effort into holes, it has to be well spent.
That sounds like a legit setup. AWESOME
Nah, your work will definitely pay off. happydood;
You've got to love, love, love everyone (ba-dum pah).
Quote from: Guy on April 19, 2011, 08:33:37 PM
Polyamory? Awww... Is it good? My ex boyfriend and I always discussed the possibility because it interested us. We never found another though.
It's hard as fuck, but it helps my partner get what she needs back home, and reminds us of what we love and value in each other. Pick up The Ethical Slut, it has changed lives. bassir;
Quote from: carpentrice on April 19, 2011, 08:38:54 PM
You've got to love, love, love everyone (ba-dum pah).
It's hard as fuck, but it helps my partner get what she needs back home, and reminds us of what we love and value in each other. Pick up The Ethical Slut, it has changed lives. bassir;
I think I will! happydood;
Quote from: carpentrice on April 19, 2011, 08:38:54 PM
You've got to love, love, love everyone (ba-dum pah).
giggle; giggle; giggle; giggle;
Quote from: Guy on April 19, 2011, 08:25:36 PM
akudood;
I'm actually happy and feel something for once. madood;
Quote from: Khadafi on April 19, 2011, 08:55:51 PM
I'm actually happy and feel something for once. madood;
akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood; akudood;
Quote from: Guy on April 19, 2011, 08:25:36 PM
Me too.... saddood;
Let's love each other. yes;
I could never love a person like you.
Quote from: Tyler on April 19, 2011, 09:29:36 PM
I could never love a person like you.
Like me? saddood;
He's probably referring to your wanton promiscuity n_u
Quote from: YPR on April 19, 2011, 09:42:22 PM
He's probably referring to your wanton promiscuity n_u
D:
I don't think I'm that promiscuous.
Quote from: YPR on April 19, 2011, 09:42:22 PM
He's probably referring to your wanton promiscuity n_u
This.
I'd change for you!
Quote from: Guy on April 19, 2011, 10:15:03 PM
I'd change for you!
I've heard that one too many times n_u
Quote from: YPR on April 19, 2011, 10:28:42 PM
I've heard that one too many times n_u
It's gotten quite old.
I'm now annoyed because I have work from 4 to close tonight when I should be tripping balls on 4/20.
Last night at like midnight I got to this girl's house and since it was midnight it was my birthday (or is my birthday) and we were hanging out but she started to say "tell me whatever you want and I'll do it for you" and then I realized it was a sexual thing and then we hooked up and i'm confused,
intimacy so casually? never quite figured that one.
Quote from: yoseph on April 20, 2011, 10:09:26 AM
I'm now annoyed because I have work from 4 to close tonight when I should be tripping balls on 4/20.
why would you be tripping on 4/20
Quote from: Khadafi on April 21, 2011, 02:29:49 PM
why would you be tripping on 4/20
I smoked a big fat bowl after work last night. Needless to say, that might have been the highest I've ever been. Don't know why, I only smoked one really dense bowl, but it packed a big punch. I've still been slightly high all day today.
Driving home was an experience to say the least. Once I got home, I just sat in my car and listened to music for an hour and a half.
this girl told me that she wishes she could control hooking up with me, but can't and said she could probably do it forever. soon i'm going to my birthday dinner. i got so high today i forgot where i was.
Quote from: yoseph on April 21, 2011, 03:51:35 PM
I smoked the beers the DRINKTHE BEERS a big fat bowl after work last night. Needless to say, that might have been the highest I've ever been. Don't know why, I only smoked the beers the DRINKTHE BEERS one really dense bowl, but it packed a big punch. I've still been slightly high all day today.
Driving home was an experience to say the least. Once I got home, I just sat in my car and listened to music for an hour and a half.
you don't trip off weed
also my feelings now are happy. she got out of the hospital and I slept over last night :)
Quote from: eeeeeee on April 21, 2011, 05:39:26 PM
this girl told me that she wishes she could control hooking up with me, but can't and said she could probably do it forever. soon i'm going to my birthday dinner. i got so high today i forgot where i was.
You seem to find lovers every week n_u
Quote from: Khadafi on April 22, 2011, 07:03:21 AM
you don't trip off weed
also my feelings now are happy. she got out of the hospital and I slept over last night :)
Hooray cjlubdoods;
Quote from: Khadafi on April 22, 2011, 07:03:21 AM
you don't trip off weed
also my feelings now are happy. she got out of the hospital and I slept over last night :)
akudood;
And I had a dream that I had a boyfriend. It was great... Too bad it was only a dream. myface;
Quote from: Guy on April 22, 2011, 07:56:27 AM
akudood;
And I had a dream that I had a boyfriend. It was great... Too bad it was only a dream. myface;
Make it a reality then? baddood;
Quote from: Guy on April 22, 2011, 07:56:27 AM
akudood;
And I had a dream that I had a boyfriend. It was great... Too bad it was only a dream. myface;
and that you hate love n_u
My weeks have been pretty fast and enjoyable lately for a particular reason, hopefully they'll get even better soon n_n
i have dysthymia.
Quote from: YPR on April 22, 2011, 01:55:37 PM
and that you hate love n_u
I thought I did before the dream. saddood;
Quote from: Kotomaru on April 22, 2011, 01:51:09 PM
Make it a reality then? baddood;
lol myface;
you can do it hippo giggle;
Quote from: ZIDONE on April 22, 2011, 02:16:48 PM
My weeks have been pretty fast and enjoyable lately for a particular reason, hopefully they'll get even better soon n_n
on the other side of this I'm still a shut-in with no motivation and I still don't know anybody who can help me with that griuehgorsdguysohdrugybo