I don't know what to do with my life anymore.
Why wait in a world where you're too fucked up to have anybody? When I'm anti-social, when I see so many things that people at my age don't see, when I don't know what else to do but just go on the computer? When nobody is there for you, not even family? When you don't have really, any friends. When you don't know how to make a friend?
Even if there's other people having worst problems than me, I don't give a fuck. Why should I care for them anyway, especially when I have my own problems?
Either way, I'm stuck in a dead end at almost everywhere I go to. So, I have to keep staying in this fucking hell.
Keep living just to spite people who piss you off. baddood;
It's what I did.
Quote from: JMV on June 15, 2008, 02:49:56 PM
Keep living just to spite people who piss you off. baddood;
It's what I did.
That's not the kind of words I expected from you, and nobody is pissing me off.
Take a walk in the park and let it soak in.
Quote from: PARROTHEAD on June 15, 2008, 02:51:11 PM
Take a walk in the park and let it soak in.
Easy to say, it's not.
I've been fighting this fucker for about three years, and almost four.
There is someone for everyone. baddood; It's a matter of the right meds and taking them. Maybe you need a new doctor.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 02:52:28 PM
Easy to say, it's not.
I've been fighting this fucker for about three years, and almost four.
Alright um, what are you fighting? Stupid question, I know. caterpie;
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 02:53:41 PM
There is someone for everyone. baddood; It's a matter of the right meds and taking them. Maybe you need a new doctor.
Then...why am I still lonely? Also, no doctor can NEVER help me. That's how fucked up, I am.
Quote from: PARROTHEAD on June 15, 2008, 02:54:40 PM
Alright um, what are you fighting? Stupid question, I know. caterpie;
The half of me who wants to do suicide.
did you try group therapy y/n
Why should anyone care about you? They have their own problems.
Quote from: Clucky et al. on June 15, 2008, 02:57:16 PM
did you try group therapy y/n
I tried, but I was too shy because of the fact that people may judge me. But, this was about seven months ago, now I'm ready.
I'm going to take a period of each day in my Sophmore year, just to do Group Therapy with other people.
Quote from: houdini on June 15, 2008, 02:58:08 PM
Why should anyone care about you? They have their own problems.
That's what I'm thinking, too. But remember, almost everybody has a way of caring, if they see somebody in a car accdient, surely they're not going to just leave them and help them instead, even if they have their own problems, but it wouldn't be as serious as this one.
I always think people are wasting their time in order to help me.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 02:59:11 PM
I tried, but I was too shy because of the fact that people may judge me. But, this was about seven months ago, now I'm ready.
I'm going to take a period of each day in my Sophmore year, just to do Group Therapy with other people.
People there won't judge you since they have problems of their own. Also you'll probably fit right in with them since they're probably are facing similar difficulties <3
Also raccoons doesn't want to do group therapy :/
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 02:55:17 PM
Then...why am I still lonely? Also, no doctor can NEVER help me. That's how fucked up, I am.
People who are alone, or perceive they are alone
are lonely. I know some really fucked up people. Believe me if they can make it so can you. These people have 3 and 4 serious mental conditions.
Quote from: Clucky et al. on June 15, 2008, 03:00:52 PM
People there won't judge you since they have problems of their own. Also you'll probably fit right in with them since they're probably are facing similar difficulties <3
Also raccoons doesn't want to do group therapy :/
True...but when I was over there, I heard so many people talking about drugs instead of being lonely.
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 03:01:02 PM
People who are alone, or perceive they are alone are lonely. I know some really fucked up people. Believe me if they can make it so can you. These people have 3 and 4 serious mental conditions.
Loneliness is just a perception that you have nobody to hang out with, when you actually do.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 03:02:00 PM
True...but when I was over there, I heard so many people talking about drugs instead of being lonely.
drugs usually make people separated from everyone else due to an addiction to them :0
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 03:02:46 PM
Loneliness is just a perception that you have nobody to hang out with, when you actually do.
I wouldn't know what to do with them, I know many people they could be having fun with while they're wasting my time with me.
Quote from: Clucky et al. on June 15, 2008, 03:03:20 PM
drugs usually make people separated from everyone else due to an addiction to them :0
Um, partying with people.
I didn't want to sound like I was just some pathetic person who just went on the computer each day, but sadly, I am. I just didn't want to know that I was the only one.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 03:03:27 PM
I wouldn't know what to do with them, I know many people they could be having fun with while they're wasting my time with me.
Obviously you have a couple people to hang out with, and of course if they wanted to hang out with you, why would they be wasting their time?
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 03:04:42 PM
Obviously you have a couple people to hang out with, and of course if they wanted to hang out with you, why would they be wasting their time?
Well, I don't anybody who would, but if I wanted to hangout with them, I would be wasting their time.
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 03:02:46 PM
Loneliness is just a perception that you have nobody to hang out with, when you actually do.
Is that why I am lonely? O_0
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 03:05:28 PM
Well, I don't anybody who would, but if I wanted to hangout with them, I would be wasting their time.
If they didn't want to, they would most likely say no. But to the point, I don't think many people consider a friend or somebody to talk to, a person who wastes their time.
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 03:05:46 PM
Is that why I am lonely? O_0
doodella;
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 03:06:52 PM
If they didn't want to, they would most likely say no. But to the point, I don't think many people consider a friend or somebody to talk to, a person who wastes their time.
They why would they have Cellphones?
Quote from: houdini on June 15, 2008, 02:58:08 PM
Why should anyone care about you? They have their own problems.
That's what I'm thinking, too. But remember, almost everybody has a way of caring, if they see somebody in a car accdient, surely they're not going to just leave them and help them instead, even if they have their own problems, but it wouldn't be as serious as this one, which is why they would help. You can never escape from caring for somebody, unless you're trying to fight it. It's why, millions of humans live.
I always think people are wasting their time in order to help me.
God, where the fuck is Houdini? He always pisses me off, and now he ignores my reply?
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 03:08:24 PM
Point?
"But to the point, I don't think many people consider a friend or somebody to talk to, a person who wastes their time."
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 03:10:44 PM
"But to the point, I don't think many people consider a friend or somebody to talk to, a person who wastes their time."
Even if you're on a cellphone, how would that be wasting their time? doodella;
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 03:11:39 PM
Even if you're on a cellphone, how would that be wasting their time? doodella;
It's like hanging out, but you're doing this by communicating and not doing anything physical.
You have two choices.
EIther find a group of friends, or find one person and chill with them. I did a mix of both.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 03:13:19 PM
It's like hanging out, but you're doing this by communicating and not doing anything physical.
Then what you do while you're on the phone is try to set a date for some kind of grouping.
Why do you need other people to give you satisfaction in life?
Quote from: The Cookie Monster on June 15, 2008, 03:53:44 PM
Why do you need other people to give you satisfaction in life?
Even newborns do better with the touch of another human. befuddlement
Quote from: The Cookie Monster on June 15, 2008, 03:53:44 PM
Why do you need other people to give you satisfaction in life?
What the fuck am I going to do myself, if I'm alone? I rather live and hangout with people.
We have a lot in common. I'll tell you my strategy I'm gonna try next school year. Talk to anyone and then just hang out with random people untill you find a group you like. Then stop being on the internet and do stuff with them.
Quote from: I am Hiro on June 15, 2008, 04:29:51 PM
We have a lot in common. I'll tell you my strategy I'm gonna try next school year. Talk to anyone and then just hang out with random people untill you find a group you like. Then stop being on the internet and do stuff with them.
Come, and tell.
I was like that for a while. So I just let my life waste and waste away...
Quote from: Ethereal on June 15, 2008, 06:00:22 PM
I was like that for a while. So I just let my life waste and waste away...
While you were like that? What did you do to get out of this?
Quote from: Sonic the Hedgehog on June 15, 2008, 06:06:14 PM
I don't care about anyone but myself either. I lol'd when my teacher said we should donate money to African kids.
It's kind of sad, why are you like this?
Now don't get mad, but I think you could be in a stage. I felt like this a couple of years ago, maybe you'll stop soon.
Quote from: steal on June 15, 2008, 06:23:07 PM
The title of this thread pretty much sums up the whole feeling of depression, for me at least. befuddlement
I don't mean to be a downer here, but having a life and friends that you care about and such doesn't mean you're going to be instantly happy all the time. People who have lives can be, and often are, just as miserable as you are. But, friends do give a great relief from the pain of being human of course. When I'm on the town, or anywhere really, with my best of friends, I couldn't be happier. But of course you're still going to be stuck by yourself with nothing you can do about it a lot, that's just how the world works, or at least how my world works. But once you have a few good friends, the rest just keep on coming. You've got to put forth an effort though, seek out people you've talked to in classes at lunch and hang out with them, and ask if they want to hang out on the weekend or something. Just take it one step at a time and don't over think it.
Friends are overrated. baddood;
Friends are good for certain things. doodella;
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 06:43:56 PM
Friends are good for certain things. doodella;
Yeah, leaving. baddood;
But then there is you. <3
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 06:45:46 PM
Yeah, leaving. baddood;
But then there is you. <3
lolwut
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 06:38:52 PM
Friends are overrated.
Untrue. Everyone needs at least one good friend.
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 06:48:20 PM
Untrue. Everyone needs at least one good friend.
For what?
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 06:51:08 PM
For what?
Variety.
Issues, ambitions, company etc... Humans are the most social creatures on Earth; our social interactions and their complexity make up one of the most fundmetal differences responsible for making us, well, human. To deny such an environment is not only unnatural, but even dangerous.
Quote from: Dickeater on June 15, 2008, 06:51:30 PM
Company. lolwut
That is what dogs are for. baddood;
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 06:56:58 PM
Variety.
Issues, ambitions, company etc... Humans are the most social creatures on Earth; our social interactions and their complexity make up one of the most fundmetal differences responsible for making us, well, human. To deny such an environment is not only unnatural, but even dangerous.
How could it be dangerous?
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 07:02:55 PM
How could it be dangerous?
At least we agree on the other part.
Now, it can be dangerous since people are inherently irrational due to a slew of reasons. Having multiple individuals reduces the chances of such an irrationality happening. If they know you pretty well and interact with you it means that you at least have someone for support, advice and comfort, someone bedsides yourself that is.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 06:01:27 PM
While you were like that? What did you do to get out of this?
(http://image.allmusic.com/13/amg/cov200/drf900/f915/f91517iwjbf.jpg)
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 07:07:20 PM
At least we agree on the other part.
Now, it can be dangerous since people are inherently irrational due to a slew of reasons. Having multiple individuals reduces the chances of such an irrationality happening. If they know you pretty well and interact with you it means that you at least have someone for support, advice and comfort, someone bedsides yourself that is.
And when they leave? Though no fault of their own where does that leave you? Seems they always do. Except Nate.
Quote from: Clair on June 15, 2008, 07:10:22 PM
And when they leave? Though no fault of their own where does that leave you? Seems they always do.
Damn you for making me say this but I really do think it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. So with that in mind life is uncertain but you can't avoid something as primal as companionship due to fear.
People need people. We should stick together like a pack of wolves, but not like am ant army. That's why people are depressed, they feel insignificant in big cities.
Quote from: Lala on June 15, 2008, 06:37:58 PM
Now don't get mad, but I think you could be in a stage. I felt like this a couple of years ago, maybe you'll stop soon.
I've felt this since 7th Grade, I don't think it's a fucking "stage".
Seeing this forum, with so many people spamming shit and being "wub;" or some shit like that, I think some of the things you all say is bullshit. "Friends are overrated", it's the reason why you comer to Bohay though, I don't really have naybody in Boyah, and I just come to chat...
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 08:46:24 PM
Seeing this forum, with so many people spamming shit and being "wub;" or some shit like that, I think some of the things you all say is bullshit. "Friends are overrated", it's the reason why you comer to Bohay though, I don't really have naybody in Boyah, and I just come to chat...
like I said, we have a lot in common. But I'm starting to get better.
Quote from: I am Hiro on June 15, 2008, 08:48:04 PM
like I said, we have a lot in common. But I'm starting to get better.
Like I said, come and tell...why?
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 08:49:38 PM
Like I said, come and tell...why?
Most of the stuff you've said in this thread.
Don't kill yourself.
Do you have a hobby?
Try sounding.
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 09:05:36 PM
Don't kill yourself.
It's just an option that's below most of my options.
Quote from: CMW on June 15, 2008, 09:31:15 PM
Do you have a hobby?
Almost everything to me, is seriously...dull.
http://images.google.com/images?q=sounding&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wi
Quote from: Lawlz on June 15, 2008, 10:55:30 PM
http://images.google.com/images?q=sounding&um=1&ie=UTF-8&sa=N&tab=wi
I'd rather, not.
But thanks for trying.
What is the picture of
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 10:59:32 PM
I'd rather, not.
But thanks for trying.
it works for me :'(
Quote from: Lawlz on June 15, 2008, 11:01:28 PM
it works for me :'(
Also, there's too many pictures that have "sounding", so not trying to sound retarded, but what was the actual picture you were really trying to show me of? Was it the 3D stuff?
I thought he wanted you to launch a rocket up your ass.
Hey life is fucked up.
All you can really do is try and find something to be optimistic about.
I always have a shitty year. But I tend to hope next year will be better.
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 11:04:35 PM
I thought he wanted you to launch a rocket up your ass.
I thought he was suggesting of a way for me to do suicide.
Quote from: Juni on June 15, 2008, 11:05:58 PM
Hey life is fucked up.
All you can really do is try and find something to be optimistic about.
I always have a shitty year. But I tend to hope next year will be better.
Typical statement of a person who doesn't understand. Thanks for trying, though.
What was he suggesting?
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 11:07:40 PM
I thought he was suggesting of a way for me to do suicide.
Hence you launching a rocket up your ass.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 11:08:06 PM
Typical statement of a person who doesn't understand. Thanks for trying, though.
Sorry. >.<
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 11:08:56 PM
Hence you launching a rocket up your ass.
Well, in life and being serious, I wouldn't do that.
I'd blow the rocket to my heart, if I was very suicidal and depressed.
Quote from: I am Hiro on June 15, 2008, 11:08:35 PM
What was he suggesting?
3D Art, but I'm trying to get a confirmation of this from himself.
Quote from: Socks on June 15, 2008, 07:13:37 PM
Damn you for making me say this but I really do think it is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all. So with that in mind life is uncertain but you can't avoid something as primal as companionship due to fear.
Socks could be sensitive after all. Makes you even more intriguing.
Not due to fear. More like ripping out my heart. Pain and distress.
Quote from: Original_MIB on June 15, 2008, 08:46:24 PM
Seeing this forum, with so many people spamming shit and being "wub;" or some shit like that, I think some of the things you all say is bullshit. "Friends are overrated", it's the reason why you comer to Bohay though, I don't really have naybody in Boyah, and I just come to chat...
I come to Boyah because most of the time I can forget things. I consider everyone here a friend. But I consider everyone every where a friend.
The over rated part was referring to people who know me as well or better than myself. They take a part of you with them.
Quote from: Clair on June 16, 2008, 10:45:14 AM
Socks could be sensitive after all.
Ashlsushs! baddood;
Quote from: Clair on June 16, 2008, 10:45:14 AM
Not due to fear. More like ripping out my heart. Pain and distress.
Jesus Clair, first you have me saying sentimental shit and now you got me quoting 5o.
Sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain
Joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain
Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard
It'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred...
Quote from: Socks on June 16, 2008, 10:55:15 AM
Jesus Clair, first you have me saying sentimental shit and now you got me quoting 5o.
Sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain
Joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain
Death gotta be easy, 'cause life is hard
It'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred...
True. More sun and joy would be nice. Maybe that's why you are still here. To bring it to my life. O_0 <3 Be back later.