How is life?

[strongbad]

i knew that didn't sound like a dp original

at least give credit where credit is due

lol true stuff though
but all of my college friendships are crumbling and i'm not even done with college yet LOL

my life is good overall but horrible at the moment
i've been seeing my friend's ex for the last couple weeks, and recently learned that he's not okay with it and now i'm about to ruin like my best friendship in college. or ill just never talk to any girls ever idk
i'm just angry because since they broke up (9 months ago, my friend was the breaker-upper) my friend has been like "dude you should date her do it dude" like all the time and then we hit it off and i thought that it was all legit because he primed me for it
and now it's like i have to decide who i like better and i'm taking 2/3 of my classes next quarter with said friend and we are supposed to do a research project together so that could all be fucked up

[??????]

i slept with a lot of attractive people and they even liked me in return
so i guess my confidence raised up by a bit, but imagine how much better i can become! it gave me motive to improve my looks (or rectified my vanity, whatever comes first or sounds more politically correct)
also my focus is improving by a good amount
i don't procrastinate much anymore because of it. i used to browse the web or attentively pamper myself when i needed to be somewhere several hours ago. i did it out of anxiety, it's weird how it works. anxiety of going out, and anxiety needed to give me motive to get out.
my medication seared through my compulsive thoughts a lot and i became more engaging with my thoughts again rather than have them spin in a cyclic panic
this made me much more reflective and introspective
i became deeply interested in real estate and several investment strategies and stocks so all my energy is concentrating on exploring the field. so far i made 2 friends with real estate agents so hopefully i can learn how things work.
also i started to steal and shoplift a lot this month
turns out if you get caught you just pay it back 5x of its original price
i think i'm did this because it's a fun game. i think i started to enjoy it when i was stealing out of desperation (i was recklessly burning my money and didn't have enough to eat gourmet)
the talks, the acting. searching for the cameras, the delicate maneuvering throughout the check-out isles, the feeling when you got away with it, it's all so exciting.  
i'm going to stop sometime this week, my fiances are starting to balance out nicely again, i even have enough to go out and have fun

also i'm becoming comfortable in my own personality
i never accepted my androgyny, but it's growing on me very much
i can be subtly feminine, or masculine, or both, or neither if i'd want
i don't know why, but it's very vitalizing if i shift through the entire spectrum
also sexually, like being dominate and experimenting with different types of people
i wanted to explore my feelings with this crush i had on this lesbian, but she was dating someone else
lesbians are really fun, the slightly masculine androgynous ones. all the other ones are lame.
also i am becoming comfortable with my personality
i can't be some interesting and lively chic manhattanite 24/7 and that's okay
i can only be that way for a day and need the rest of the other days to chill out
it's really fun being that lively, but it drains me a lot and i used to force myself to keep it up and i noticed i felt incredibly insecure and empty so i stopped
i lost some fun friends but they weren't very fun when we became more intimate
it was really boring, they needed to be around lots of people or they'll be empty
idk how people function that way

[snoorkel]

lol true stuff though
but all of my college friendships are crumbling and i'm not even done with college yet LOL

my life is good overall but horrible at the moment
i've been seeing my friend's ex for the last couple weeks, and recently learned that he's not okay with it and now i'm about to ruin like my best friendship in college. or ill just never talk to any girls ever idk
i'm just angry because since they broke up (9 months ago, my friend was the breaker-upper) my friend has been like "dude you should date her do it dude" like all the time and then we hit it off and i thought that it was all legit because he primed me for it
and now it's like i have to decide who i like better and i'm taking 2/3 of my classes next quarter with said friend and we are supposed to do a research project together so that could all be fucked up

go for the girl, if she's worth it

[YPrrrr]

i slept with a lot of attractive people and they even liked me in return
so i guess my confidence raised up by a bit, but imagine how much better i can become! it gave me motive to improve my looks (or rectified my vanity, whatever comes first or sounds more politically correct)
also my focus is improving by a good amount
i don't procrastinate much anymore because of it. i used to browse the web or attentively pamper myself when i needed to be somewhere several hours ago. i did it out of anxiety, it's weird how it works. anxiety of going out, and anxiety needed to give me motive to get out.
my medication seared through my compulsive thoughts a lot and i became more engaging with my thoughts again rather than have them spin in a cyclic panic
this made me much more reflective and introspective
i became deeply interested in real estate and several investment strategies and stocks so all my energy is concentrating on exploring the field. so far i made 2 friends with real estate agents so hopefully i can learn how things work.
also i started to steal and shoplift a lot this month
turns out if you get caught you just pay it back 5x of its original price
i think i'm did this because it's a fun game. i think i started to enjoy it when i was stealing out of desperation (i was recklessly burning my money and didn't have enough to eat gourmet)
the talks, the acting. searching for the cameras, the delicate maneuvering throughout the check-out isles, the feeling when you got away with it, it's all so exciting. 
i'm going to stop sometime this week, my fiances are starting to balance out nicely again, i even have enough to go out and have fun

also i'm becoming comfortable in my own personality
i never accepted my androgyny, but it's growing on me very much
i can be subtly feminine, or masculine, or both, or neither if i'd want
i don't know why, but it's very vitalizing if i shift through the entire spectrum
also sexually, like being dominate and experimenting with different types of people
i wanted to explore my feelings with this crush i had on this lesbian, but she was dating someone else
lesbians are really fun, the slightly masculine androgynous ones. all the other ones are lame.
also i am becoming comfortable with my personality
i can't be some interesting and lively chic manhattanite 24/7 and that's okay
i can only be that way for a day and need the rest of the other days to chill out
it's really fun being that lively, but it drains me a lot and i used to force myself to keep it up and i noticed i felt incredibly insecure and empty so i stopped
i lost some fun friends but they weren't very fun when we became more intimate
it was really boring, they needed to be around lots of people or they'll be empty
idk how people function that way

If you want a real thrill try getting away with murder

You could be the next Jeffrey dahmer!

[??????]

my boyfriend wants to get away with murder
albert fish's his favorite
our relationship's built on knowledge of serial killers
murder's just really try-hard edgy and i wouldn't get anything out of it
RISKS ARE TOO HIGH JUST TO SATISFY AN EMOTIONALLY-BASED CRAVING

[YPrrrr]

But isn't that true of love and being emotionally open and vulnerable too

[??????]

love and being emotionally open don't have serious risks like being incarnated for 60 years
but only if it did ;o(

[silvertone]

u can get married lol.

[strongbad]

u can get married lol.

Why did I laugh lol

[bluaki]

in a thread about how your life is going you guys end up discussing death or more specifically killing

[Nyerp]

in a thread about how your life is going you guys end up discussing death or more specifically killing

it's because clucky is fucking insane

[chainsaw unicorn]

i knew that didn't sound like a dp original

at least give credit where credit is due

Thanks for showing the list, it sounds like it has some great advice

[chainsaw unicorn]

This will be a good chance for you to stop rubbing one out every few hours.

I haven't rubbed one out since getting here

[silvertone]

it's because clucky is fucking insane

actually snowy started it

[YPrrrr]

in a thread about how your life is going you guys end up discussing death or more specifically killing

well clucky has turned to a life of crime