Ask me Everything: Blu Version

[??????]

If you move to NYC, Medicade would pay for your expenses to transition.
Would you be more happier being pre, or post-trans?
What ghostly thoughts pirouette themselves whenever you're presented with stoic mirror? A mirror that sharply makes you conscious of body you've never wanted? Do you silently slide your soften fingers down your supple waist and fantasize of the "What ifs" and "If maybes"? What do you think after coming out right after you're done showering and seeing yourself, hidden beneath your wet, clumped hair?
Do you wonder about periods?
When will you ever take steps in overcoming your paralyzed emotions that just simmer beneath your orchestrated behavior?
Do you harbor secret hatred for your mother for over-protecting you?
Do you really have a low libido, or do you think it's a defense mechanism to prevent experiencing an overload of new emotions and experiences?
What do you do if you don't have Internet access, school work or reading material (or your pets or your mother)?
How many times have you thought of death this month?
Have you ever frightened yourself from learning something new about yourself?
Have you ever felt ecstatic? What things send a burst of loving tingles throughout your whole body?
What do you think of the hyperfeminized post-op trannies?
What do you think of the FtMs?

[bluaki]

If you move to NYC, Medicade would pay for your expenses to transition.

That surprises me
Are you sure this is actually true?

Would you be more happier being pre, or post-trans?

What do you mean? I would be happier as a full female than as male; that's the point of even having a trans identity

What ghostly thoughts pirouette themselves whenever you're presented with stoic mirror? A mirror that sharply makes you conscious of body you've never wanted? Do you silently slide your soften fingers down your supple waist and fantasize of the "What ifs" and "If maybes"? What do you think after coming out right after you're done showering and seeing yourself, hidden beneath your wet, clumped hair?

This question is detailed in rather strange ways.
Simply put, yes, I do have feelings somewhat like what you're describing of wishfully wondering what my body could be like whenever looking at myself.

In a similar note to this, I sometimes wish I had artist friend(s) who would draw pictures of me as female and giving me a rigid image of sorts for myself.

My "wet, clumped hair" isn't that bad at all after a shower. It might be heavy and dripping water, but it remains straight behind my head and doesn't really clump much.

Do you wonder about periods?

Even if it's a detail of living as female that I can never have, this is one thing that I'm actually glad I can't have. If I were given the choice between being a fertile female and one that doesn't have periods, I would surely choose the latter. But it's not like I want fertility anyways.

When will you ever take steps in overcoming your paralyzed emotions that just simmer beneath your orchestrated behavior?

I don't really know, but I hope I will. I probably will be prompted to if I ever actually manage to have close friends.

Do you harbor secret hatred for your mother for over-protecting you?

No, not at all.

Do you really have a low libido, or do you think it's a defense mechanism to prevent experiencing an overload of new emotions and experiences?

I really do have a low libido.
I don't know what overload of new emotions and experiences you're referring to. Just having sex? It's not like I specifically avoid that or anything.

What do you do if you don't have Internet access, school work or reading material (or your pets or your mother)?

Thanks to tethering and whatnot, I'm doubly protected against losing Internet access altogether.

Even without Internet access, I still have virtually unlimited things to do with my computer in stuff like programming by myself. I also have a ton of console games in a backlog. There's also some downloaded anime I haven't watched yet.

but I have no idea how I'd waste my time if I lost electricity

How many times have you thought of death this month?

Probably none
I don't tend to think about things like death or suicide or whatever you're implying

Have you ever frightened yourself from learning something new about yourself?

As far as I remember, no.

Have you ever felt ecstatic? What things send a burst of loving tingles throughout your whole body?

I don't remember any time I have

[bluaki]

These questions seem to have been added after I first quoted that previous post, though it did take me a long time to actually finish that reply after I started.

What do you think of the hyperfeminized post-op trannies?

I feel like I just recently mentioned this in another post, but I'm actually slightly annoyed by many of them. Especially the ones that do things like brag about their femininity, consider themselves "more trans" than other mtfs, and/or enforce negative trans stereotypes.

What do you think of the FtMs?

The desire to actually desire masculinity is of course foreign to me, but I'm accepting and whatever of them. I don't think much about them.

[??????]

lol yes
A lot of trannies come running to NYC so their expenses can be done and taken care of.
I think they get facial re-construction as well.
And some trannies enjoy being pre-op because they somehow like their dick, but want the rest of their bodies to be very 'feminine'


lol the wet hair thing came from me staring at the mirror with my wet hair--it makes me look different 

[bluaki]

And some trannies enjoy being pre-op because they somehow like their dick, but want the rest of their bodies to be very 'feminine'

Oh, I guess I see why you brought it up then, especially considering that I consider myself a trans lesbian.

Ignoring the fact that it's required for legal "sex change", I guess losing the penis would be one of my lowest priority trans changes and I don't want that as much as other aspects of feminizing, but I am sure that I would prefer a fully female body to one with a penis.

but my low libido might be related to these feelings

[silvertone]

do u have Hatred in your Heart for me. i do not hate you at all. i think you are Wonderful.

[FAMY2]

What hair products do you use? You have nice hair. 

[bluaki]

do u have Hatred in your Heart for me. i do not hate you at all. i think you are Wonderful.

No, I have none.

What hair products do you use? You have nice hair. 

I use Pantene shampoo, but nothing else. I don't use conditioner, straightening, coloring, or anything else.

[Hippopo]

Why do you hate Echo?

Who is your favorite famous role model?  It can be anyone in history.

[Commander Fuckass]

what is your real first name 

[Andria]

what is your real first name 

Jenny

we already know this

[bluaki]

Why do you hate Echo?

because he's way too great

[spoiler]I don't hate him at all and don't know why you'd think so[/spoiler]

Who is your favorite famous role model?  It can be anyone in history.

I don't have one at all. I had this topic for my SAT writing prompt and just wrote about the famous person that I at the time knew the most specific details about, though I forget who it was.

what is your real first name 

My real first name is Jennifer
the first name that I'm legally known as is Joseph
the first name that my classmates and family call me is Joey

[Hippopo]

I asked about Echo because you ignored his question.

And you admire every famous person equally?  There isn't someone that inspires you?  No one?  Maybe not the person, but the work they produce?

[bluaki]

what do you think of me?

from first impressions to now

You're a fabulous user who seems friendly to everyone

[spoiler]and cuter than I am >_<'[/spoiler]

[bluaki]

I asked about Echo because you ignored his question.

How did I miss that >_<'

And you admire every famous person equally?  There isn't someone that inspires you?  No one?  Maybe not the person, but the work they produce?

I guess some famous people in science and whatever, then? Like Newton, Euler, Turing, Knuth, and Dennis Ritchie.