CHALLENGES OF THE DAY

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what are your challenges that you feel like you have to do now BUT DON'T DO THEM

i really quickly have to tell my friend that i am not interested in becoming his lover because he is 'preparing' himself
you are nice and all but you have confused my intensity with interest and YES IT WAS ALL MY FAULT
i dunno---doing this makes me painfully sad
i want to maintain a very bold and penetrating friendship without being trapped
for some reason, i can never develop these friendships with men (they're always women) and saying "lol no" is such a blow to them because sadly I'm one of the few that bothered to see them in a certain way

i just want to be friends and bathe with them and hide with them and soak in their wonders and secrets with no string of sexuality involved

i want rawness and intensity!