i'm turning 21

[Socks]

Oh I almost left out the most important part. You must make sure that that someone means something and is long term partner. Otherwise all of your spent talent will go to waste. And your time alone will have meant nothing, and she will get what she has neither earned or deserved. So make sure that they have and do.

[hobbit]

i dunno. i think you're putting too much thought into it. i'm a firm believer in fate and anything that will happen will happen. so why bother searching for/creating a deeper meaning in the things we do? i agree with the things you said just not necessarily your point of view. i believe life is about sharing and togetherness and all that but that doesn't mean that i need a significant other. Relationships are just a result of what society claims to be the best way to share your life. I don't plan on ever having kids nor do i plan on being married. if i do happen to find someone i want to marry i won't object. however, i don't really see it being a big priority for me.

there are other ways of expressing yourself and sharing your experiences with people other than just spending a lot of time with others. my dream in life is to be a musician and composer. that's how i'll share my life with others by creating and performing music that connects with me. to me sex, sexuality, romance, ect. are all just ways of showing your love and sharing your deepest feelings for others.

but i'm a loner. i don't have close friends. i prefer to spend most of my time alone and i usually happy with that. sometimes the loneliness gets to me. and maybe i will end up getting married someday and having kids and live 'normally'. maybe i won't. sex to me is just a biological program, something that happens and it's my choice how, or if, to satisfy my urges.

like i said i believe in fate. if i'm meant to find my dream girl i will. if i don't that's cool too. if i do find that girl nothing in my past will matter because i've got the rest of the future to look forward to.

BIRTHDAY UPDATE: i drank a six pack of dos xx and smoked some weed alone in the park watching the stars while reflecting on all the memories of the past year of my life. it was a good birthday and i enjoyed it even though i didn't get laid.

[Dullahan]

i don't have close friends.

I'd start working on that before finding a girl. A lover with no friends can get clingy.